she is my closest friend, but i can never find my voice. There is always something inside me saying "be up front she will get it! But as time goes on and say how i feel that voice lowers down to a whisper. I try i really do but the more im up front with her i always get passive aggressively torn down , and when i say smt abt it , she claims i take everything out of contex so, my thoughts are jumbled up in my head never escaping to my mouth to say. And my feelings remain secret. Dont like pls.