yea i get that but not rn, but IF i do think too much abt it, i get visual images and i dont wanna relive that rn. sorry tho, if i sprial, ill prob vent to u if i can. but uhh yeah!

TACOBELL IS BAE FR FR (but it def is :sob:)

also i repeat words bc i forget what i write some times.

YEAAAA THATS Y I HAVENT FINISHED THE BOOK

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I understand. I won't bother you about it. I just want to keep my doors open if you do need too :innocent:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thats fine, dw XD

thanks i appreciate it!!

ur my 2nd online friend who knows. anywayyyyyy, thats y im hypers3xual and why i hate it

@SillyLilGooberDemian
My god I'm gettin flashbacks to that fic- :skull:

Anyway, TacoBells awesome, I really want some now (we are eating Spaghetti here in a minute)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I get that. It can be bothersome. I'll keep myself on the low then, dw (I'll attempt to, anyway)

WITH MEATBALLS?!?!! SHARING CARING I HAVENT ATE YET EVEN THO ITS 8:32 :skull:

idrc tbh, i just wont talk abt it. but u do u :p

@SillyLilGooberDemian
WHY TF HAVENT THEY FED YOU YET :sob:

Naw, probably just with some Garlic bread (my sister only said noodles, so I dunno)

I should probably get off for a bit anyway, just incase they call

kk!!

and they're at practice with my lil bros and im old enough to feed myself. so yk

BYEEEE ILL MISS U RAHHHH

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Go eat then! It's late, and I don't want you going to bed hungry >:(

I'll miss ya too. Cya later! :wave:

im lazy :sob: but okay!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, same, but still, I want to know you ate. It's important!

i ate!! i had 2 hot pockets :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yay! Hot pockets are the goat ngl :fire:

YEAAAA THEY R

DRAWING 14 y/o dev rn, if yk who im talking abt, like i gave u the lore on the ocs actually

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Online!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I think I remember em, yeah (Like I said, don't trust my memory)
But it's gonna look awesome!

I'm doin' a lil animation of my squirrel dancin', lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
What kinda music do you enjoy listining too?

everything but country!!

i can tag u, but i havent made the 14 y/o version of her on here yet, well post it.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol real. I do enjoy country, I just don't listen to it on the regular

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I can wait, no worries! :sparkles:

its finna posted tomorrow bc yea.

ima tag u on the oc im talking abt.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Okie dokie! Take your time. It's late for you, right?
You got school tomorrow, so make sure you head to bed soon!

ehhhh i fr dont care abt school tbh

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Alrighty, whatever is fine by you is fine by me

yea. i got the a.c.t tomorrow :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
(I don't go to school) What a ACT?

its uh state test, idk look it up :sob: i cant explain

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Hey! How did the test go??

IT WASNT TODAY :skull:
ITS TOMORROW FINNA KMS /jk

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh noooo :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Was school alright today at least?

uhhhh welp idk tbh. ummm i stop being friends with the new girl at my school(she got to my school a month ago) bc she said shït abt me and now she has absolutely no friends. sooo um yea bc all my friends were friends with her bc i was so now that im not, she has 0 friends, i kinda feel bad tho ngl

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Listen, I did something similar with someone on Colors. But, it was for the better. If they are being toxic, and won't appreciate your self worth, then it isn't worth it.

Yeah, it's a guilty feeling, I know, but they deserve it

yeahhh but she just got here so i feel bad :c

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I get that, but it's for the better

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm getting close with this animation. Is it great? Hell no! It sucks! But, oh well, I just wanted to draw my squirrel vibbin', lol (My sister is watching Caseoh so we can chat, so I can't finish it :sob:)

yeahhhh, but u would actually think since lives with people who r special(like asd or adhd, OR ANY SPECIALS THAT I CANT REMEMBER) she would understand y tf i hyperfocus onto 1 character. so basically, she told people that she it annoying that i hyperfocus on 1 character when there's other characters and she said that im leaving other characters out. well my bad im special and focusing on everything/ too much things freak me tf out. ands that basically y we arent friends bc she turned it into a-

petty ahh arugement and yuh.

i had to explain :sob:

BRO WHERE R U FINNA POST IT!!! ILL WATCH IT TUSTTTT

TRUSTTT

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean- To be honest, I don't see that as much of a reason to leave, but if they kept harassing and you both couldn't work it out properly, then yeah. I could kinda see why.

Like, I won't judge no one for drawing one character only, I do the same thing. It's not hurting anyone

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Instagram *Dies*
You may NOT, and I mean, DO NOT LIKE. I'm turning commenting off, so don't think about doing that ether -_- (Sorry, parents)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I don't even post that much, but there is a few things on there, I suppose-

no thats not all.
she literally just kept being rude to me for no reason as well. forgot to mention that, but theres was other things she said but uh idk them

:0 ADD ME RAHHHH

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Also- Bold of you to assume I posted anywhere outside colors- But you right, lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Mm, thats fine. As long as it really was a loss cause, then yeah, she deserved it. If she can't get it through her thick skull, then I dunno, man

oh- i always assume

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, sure. After my sister takes a break, she's using my Ipad (so I can talk with you)

idk bro but she was literally arguing abt how i was leaving out characters and that it was annoying and was being pīssy abt it LIKE DAWG LEAVE ME ALONE

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, but havin strick/overprotective parents parents, I'm trying to take procaution over all this

kk, ill text u it later

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Like, no one gives a sht. Your the only one complanin'. This btch should do it herself then if shes so whiny, lol

IT DOES SUCK :sob: I USE MY FÜCKING TV FOR MY SOCIAL MEDIAS :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
DONT YOU DARE

THATS Y WE ARENT FRIENDS LIKE DUDE WAS BEING WEIRD :sob:

ITS A SHOW

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I CANNOT risk texting people. I HAVE STRICT/OVER PROTECTIVE PARENTS. They will K!LL me if they see I texted someone they don't know!!

on here. ill tell u my username goofy

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Damn, that really does suck (how you usin' a tv??? :sob:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Jesus christ, this bro.. Like, it isn't that hard to ignore it, lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
My goood, man. I would legit start stressin' if you started messaging me anywhere else, lol..
Yeah, that's fine, my user name is the same on there

EXACTLY DAWG I DIDNT CARE IF SHE LIKE ANOTHER CHARACTER A TON.

SHE TALKED ABT HIM AS MUCH AS I DID ABT ANOTHER CHARACTER. (bro was actually a hypocrite :skull:)

NAH BC SHE TALKED ABT THISCHARACTER EVERY SENTENCE BUT WHEN I DO IT ITS A FÜCKING PROBLEM

downloaded a Internet browser

nah i would without permission!!

i wont**

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Right, cause if you talked about your thing, it's fine, but if I do it, I'm "doing it wrong" and "should do better" :skull:

This dweeb need'sta to better if they actually want friends, lol :skull:

...I kinda wanna play Little Nightmares rn (not yet)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thank you, I really appreciate it :bow:

LITERALLY

also have fun whenever u play ^^

npp!! can i follow u??

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thank you! It's a real good game :fire:

on insta

i bet :sob: i wanna play it!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Sure! Go ahead. I have my own seperate account. You found it?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
You should!! I played it quite a bit, along with the second one ^^

i found it!!!

oh- with what money and job sir?

IM BROKE :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh boy :sob:
My arts a little better on there, I hope :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY SOON OR SOMETHING :sob:
At least you got YouTube, I suppose :pensive:

oh! I LOVE IT DWWWW LMK WHEN U POST BC I DONT USE INSTA

ima go finish my drawing!

yeahhh, i dont get money i get gifts no money

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Okie dokie! I think it'll be a little suspicious if I followed a private account so..
If you don't mind, I'd rather follow at a later time, when I feel I won't get my things takin' away.. :sweat_smile:

But thank you! I'm glad you enjoy it, I'll try and let you know ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, fare. We don't get money ether (usually)
One day, hopefully

oh- yea, thats so me daddy-kins dont find it. i dont use it tho tbh :p

its just there.

yayayaya!!!

And 1 day guys :sob: :pray:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm gonna go play my game now, I'll letcha draw!
Have fun, I'll see ya later :wave: ^^

idrc dawg, u do u :D

BYEEEE SPAM ME!!!
(if i dont answer u for a while )

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay! Yeah, thats fine. You do whats safe for you, okie dokie? :)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol I'll try too!
(I'm not someone who spams people, usually :sweat_smile:)

:sob: I DONT EITHER I GET IT!!

ayeee gangy if i tag u on my drawing would u help me like what to do with the empty space???

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Bro, lemmie tell you, I had no clue.
I don't do backgrounds, let alone empty spaces. I would have recommended you use the rectangular canvas, so it looks more natural.

It's like putting someone in an empty field with literally nothing. It has no flare unless you "spice it up".
I dunno, I'm not good in this sort of field!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Also, I finished my lil bro dancin'. He looks so silly while I have music on (Me and my Fursona be vibin', it's actually so fire ngl :sunglasses: :fire:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm not posting yet-
I still have to do other stuff first-

oh- CHAT TRUST 1 MILLIE VIEWS RAHHHHH

chat im cooked :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Chat, I believe, they have just been cooked. Burnt to a crisp. Disintegrating.
If you look at the rest of my stuff, I usually put my characters more close up, just so I don't have'fta leave such a void-like space :sob:

WELL I WANTED TO DO MISSY WHOLE DESIGN :sob:

ILL FIGURE IT OUT TOMORROW BC IM LAZY!!

i did good r me test!! well English even tho i can barely speak it lol(speech impediment. i am American sadly :sob:)

benchmark/required score was 18. i got 21 :D for English

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Good for you! I'm proud of ya for getting such a high score! ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
And, unfortunately, I am American too :pensive:

But you do you on your art! It'll still be there tomorrow, so no rush! ^^

yea!! :D
ALSO CHAT WE DONT TALK ABT MY OTHER SCORES TBH :sob: I SOLD MYSELFFF

@SillyLilGooberDemian
What do you mean "sold yourself", Huh??

i cooked myself

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh. Damn :pensive:

yea :sob: that was the og. instead of i cooked myself. it would b u/i sold!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay, my dumb butt forgot :pensive:

its okay dw!! i got u :D

currently listening to cluster by slipknot :yum: im so boy core :D

chat if im around my family im listening to R&B and rap (bc they dnt need to know my actual music taste :skull:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol my music taste is pretty much my parents music taste, but no filter, I guess :skull:

I haven't heard any of the music you mentioned, but I'm sure it's all pretty good

its uhhhh idk lol rock core. i listen to everything bc my parents do (well anything thats r&b, hip-pop, rap ect ect.)
i love everything but country!! I DONT LIKE HOW IT SOUNDSSS

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Country is a select taste I suppose. I do enjoy it, even though it's something I don't usually listen too.

But yeah, I listen to pretty much anything that sounds good (even the shtty sht songs, lol)

SAMEEEE :D
hru??

bro i wasnt online for 16 hours and ur the only notfication i got :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I've been alright. Sucking a33 at coding (I'm just trying to burn through it, I don't care about my grades any more) and watching Markiplier :/

How about you?

And I get that, kinda sucks :/

me either tbh. as long as u pass tbh.

I USED TO WATCH HIM PLAY YANDERE SIMULATOR

also it does :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yoooo, Yandere simulator was such a vibe thouuugghhh!

Like, I know the creator is bad and the game will never finish.. but it's such a big part in the Youtube era :sparkles: :pray:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Hopefully! I won't be passing with a average C thats for damn sure :skull:

LITERALLY I LOVE THE GAME (NOT THE CREATOR)

it needs more like lore and development :sob:

oh- :skull: u cooked

@SillyLilGooberDemian
TRUE THOUGH! I hope somebody picks it up, butter most likely not :pensive:

yea :sob:

FINISH THE GAMEEEEE ITS BEEN OUT FOR HOW LONG?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
HEY! I got a plan. I left my English and 3Dprinting class in, which have As. MEANING: If I can just pass coding, then I'll be fine!
...It's been a stressful few months :skull:
But, oh well, thats what I get for screwing up, I guess

Me and my sib will be playin' mario kart, so give me a minute to respond to things-

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I think 2014-17, I believe

kk :D

HAVE FUNNNN

also chat i hope u pass!!! ^^

ALSO BRO HAS ALL THAT TIME TO FINISH THAT DAMN GAME :sob: AND HASN

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I hope I do too :sob:
I'm fine with 2.75-2.98 GPA

Yeah, no, theres this whole thing... It's horrible :skull:

i have a 3.7 gpa :D

oh- offing myself!

i got like this 2000s audio books! like they r portable. like u take them with u :D

look up go readers, put book in front of it so u can find what im talking abt

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol show off :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh, I know watcha talkin' about! I'm more of someone who enjoys reading a physical book! I just love the smell of a physical book, and reading means I can actually remember stuff (even though I gotta read the same thing 40 times cause I could,'t process anything :skull:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
We finished playing, btw! Letting my sib watch Caseoh so I can actually talk, lol

IMMM NOTTTT :sob: yea i am lol /jk

i worked hard asf to get that grade!!!

gpa**

oh!! this is my first time listening to an audiobook! i have a bookshelf full of books lol

hiiii btw!!! i was listening to the book :yum:

22 chapters :sob: only on 12

@SillyLilGooberDemian
And I'm sure you did! You should be proud!
I know I'm a lazy a33.. not like it'll matter much anyway, I suppose.. :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Hey! A little over half way! How are you enjoying the book so far?

oh- i didnt try tbh lol. im still passing with a's and shi

its talking abt her life story and the traumatizing shi she went thru.

like her uhh sa. its sad :c but relatable. and actually really interesting how people deal with their sa differently (this was back in 1970's tho. no1 was allowed to speak abt sa at all. and it was normalized as well. and women in the 1970's would b layed off their jobs if they were pregnant. bc well they have to pay her off days and hire some1 to do her job and that was too much for them)

husbands would also sa'd their wives back then :c and uh other things. her mummy hit her as well. sad as well. the book is basically her life story. i recommend not asking me abt the book too much if ur sensitive to sa bc like i dont wanna overwhelm u. bc i read/listen to books that help sa survivors like myself so yea its finna b traumatizing

and thats it :p

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Man, I'm just dumb as rocks, LMAO-
Paying attention is SO HARD. Like, I'm not on meds, and all is holy I wish I was (you do not want to quiz me on science... I'm alright in english though)

IT ISSS

ME TOO

I DONT TAKE MY ADHD MEDS BC MY PARENTS DONT GIVE IT TO ME IN TE MORNIG

im dumb too dw

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, I don't think I would be too overwhelmed... I listen to peoples storys all the time, including my own when no one is around.

Not to say I'm used to it, but I think I could handle it...

Course, I'm not someone who's to interested in autobiographys, so I think I'm good. I'm sure it's a good read!

I'm glad, however, it can help people who've had a rough patch in their life. It can be pretty great having something like that ^^

yea! it helps me in a way. it makes me feel like im not so different from everyone, yk?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Maaan. I wish I had the acicability to ADHD meds, would make my life so much easier (as long as I get OCD meds as well) :pensive:

Says the person sith A's in their mark :skull:
Man, you must still be pretty smart, don't downplay yourself!

i actually hate autobiographys lol. but this is something can relate to and try to understand, yk?

nahhh not really tbh. im slow asf. i got 3 a's not much tbh.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, and I get that. It's important to have that kind of thing, especially in media! Make's the experience seem not as lonely, even if it wasn't a good one ^^

yea, btw im not gonna talk abt the book a ton bc its something i rather not talk abt tbh. i mean the fun facts, ima text u not he whole book lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw, I get that. I'm glad you found something like that ^^

yea!! i def get it. i used to blame myself so yuh, knowing that im not the only 1 who also used to do that makes me not feel like a freak :p

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Still something to be proud of! I wish I could get some A's :skull:

thanks dawg :D

CHAT I HATE GETTING C's THATS THE ONLY REASON I GOT A's AND B's

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thats alrighty! Only talk what you wanna talk about. I won't force ya too much ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I get that. Like I said, it's good to have some representation in that sort of area

good :D be prepared for the sad funfacts :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
*Me, who averages C+- B's :skull:*
Naw, getting a C sucks, but at least you pass...

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol I'll try to be :smile:

i agree!! i think we need more of these types of books, from some1 who actually went thru it not some1 making assumptions of how it felt (I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT ST FU!!! it wasnt great, most people assume women cant do that shi, BUT guess what ik from experience that they can So SHUT THAT SHÏ UP :sob: anyway im done yapping, changing the topic :D i want tacobell)

yea, its bc my parents expect too much from me so i hate c's

YAYAYAYAYA trust its probs gonna b shi i find interesting :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Bro, the last time you said you were changing the subject, it was also about Tacobell :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, same, but they don't check my sht anymore. As long as I say I've done it, they won't care. I couldn't do it for a whole week, and they wouldn't say a thing :skull:

It's releaving, but also feels sad at the same time (I'm homeschooled, soooo...)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Alrighty! Just spill some beans and I'll listen :relieved:

I LOVE ITTTT ITS MY FAVOURITE THING TO YAP ABT

explain more, like in depth so i understand better:D

kk ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol. I used to have a lot more Tacobell when traviling, but it's to expensive, which sucks :/

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Watcha mean by that?

IT IS I HATE ITTT I WANT MY 3 BURRITOS AND NACHO FRIESSS

ur homeschooling stuff, im confused

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I just want me some good ol' tacos man! :sob:
So good... so crunchy...

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Like, why I'm homeschooled or why I'm sad they don't check? (I just wanna make sure so I don't dump the wrong info, sorry!)

basically everything u said earlier in ore detail like what u said abt ur grades and shi

I CANT EXPLAIN SHI

IMA GO SPECIAL AT 11pm

real :sob: now its 11pm

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Like, how I'm graded? I use this app (since I was 9) called Acellus or whatever. My parents were able to track if I've actually done my schooling, and can see if I failed something or not. I watch a five-20 minute video, do, like, five-seven questions, then be done. I can do as many as I feel like.
The tests are 20-25 on average. Mid-term is about 50-100 questions (depends which course you do) and Finals are 100-300 (Also could be different for each course)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
What do you mean go special? :sob:
You mean go to bed?

BRUH HUH? 100 okay BUT OVER THAT!?!?!?!

no its where i freak out bc i cant do something right (or when some1 touches me too much, like i flap my hands)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thats my schooling! Let me check what my finals are for 3D printing and English (I don't plan to do those till after coding..)

Also, you can do a many lessons as you want, but there could be hundreds before you reach finals (I had one math sht that had over 1000 lessons... sht was brutal)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay, derp-

:skull: i woud kms /jk

yea

ima go to sleep nightttt!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Okay, for some god damn reason, they changed my final english from 150 to 66 since last time I checked... What is this bullsht?

3D printing is exactly 100 though

Also, the only way to pass each test/final exam, is to get 70 or higher (I average 78-85)
I dunno if it's the same in your school, but figured I'd mention

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol nooo don't do that :sob:
Alrighty, get some sleep, night! :wave: ^^

oh- no not really 90 and up

i just woke up and ima abt to leave :sob:

nighhhhtt :D

hru btw? ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm.. I dunno, lol. Tired, I guess.
You?

uhhh- hungry?? TACOBELL RAHHH

chat is it just me or do i wanna quit bc how boring colors is? (i do but i dont at the same time)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw, colors is just so... bland

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Like I've been saying, theres so many other better platforms!! Colors is small, no ones on anymore... It's really only good for communication, it seems :/

yea tbh. its just the only thing i got to draw on since i dont got a phone

i actually might quit tbh, like i been wanting to for a while

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I can get that. If/when you do quit, just know, I'll respect whatever decision you make

thanks gangy :D i fr got no friends anymore on here.

i honestly might go on break bc well i dont wanna worry my friends and shi

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Whatever makes you happy/safe. Colors is dwindling, the layers and brushes are so limited, and the screen is way to tiny.

It was so much more popular on the 3DS, I'm sure! Though smaller, probably better...

It's also the lack of people joining/drama that really contrabute for people leaving, which sucks, but understandable :/

@SillyLilGooberDemian
You do you, okay? I'm not promising I'll be here if you get back, cause who knows what will happen while you take hiatus, but you know my socials, so..

You do you, and I'm happy for whatever it is :yellow_heart:

thanks dawg, i also agree. its just no1(BUT u) talks to me and no1 even tries to talk to me anymore and plus the stupid ašs limited layers and the brushes :sob: i hate it

also when i go on break, i do what i normally do. just no posting AT all.

but colors is boring.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Colors is really boring, yeah :sob:
Like, I understand you can only do so much, but... Legit, nobody seems to post "art" anymore, you know? I don't mind about anybody what they do, don't get me wrong! But... It's just news, drama, vents... I understand, but at least give me some cringy art. I don't mind!

LITERALLY I NEVER SEE ART ANYMORE

i mean idc but bro i want something :sob:

i can post my old art lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
But I agree with the "no body talks" anymore... No body comments "cool art!" even! Like, any communication is fine... I guess the 16+ thing is keepin' a lot of people away though, lol..

I don't mind, and I understand this is a kids game...

It's good for starting artist with not a lot of money to work with, I suppose

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Don't worry, pookie, I got'cho :sunglasses:
I'm cookin' sumthin' up (it's gonna be lame/probably just a sketch, so don't expect much :sob:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Hey! Old art is better than nothin! ^^

yea BUT BRO I NEVER GET "thats cool :D" or anything like that or any1 trynna talk to me anymore. like brooooo

TRUST FINNA HIT U WITH "ITS SO CUTESY GIVE ME TWO HUNDRED MOREEE"

true lol.

also im falling asleep bc school made me tired asf

@SillyLilGooberDemian
It's dissapointing :pensive:
Like, I look at paintings from ten years ago, and look at the support/cringy art! It's awesome! It makes me wish I was born a little earlier for that stuff, ya know?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
LMAOOO. As much as I love drawin' on here, it's just to much :pensive:

But oh well, it's gonna take a minute..(not exactly a minute, I say that for, it's gonna take some time before I post)

REAL SO REAL BC SOME OF IT WAS SO COOL BUT THE ARTIST QUITTED :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Go take a nap then! Don't let colors keep you up

kk :D CANT WAIT TO SEE IT GOOBER!!!

uhhhh im not allowed to take a hap during the day

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Honestly, I'm glad they posted and left the art. Like, they were so much more creative. Something about the art back then was just so... I wish I had that vibe, honestly. My stuff look like sht XD

But yeah, I wish we still had artist like that still, but oh well

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol I'll try man, but it ain't much :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Damn, that sucks. But, I understand. At least keep it easy

AYEEEE YO ART IS SO FIRE AND CORE COREEE

oh well :c

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Watchin' CoryxKenshin rn play Little Nightmares two. Theres something about playing a game, then watching a youtuber play it, makes it so much more fun ^^

ITS GONNA B FIRE GOOB!!

IT DOES I LOVE WATCHING PEOPLE PLAY GAME

@SillyLilGooberDemian
WHATS CORE CORE??? IM STUPID :sob:

Lol but thanks. I appreciate it ^^

im taking my nap idg a f. spam me :D (so i dont feel like a loser/loner for not having any notfication)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Same though! It's just relaxing... I love vibing to music, but those times, listing to someone scream as you draw.. *Chefs kiss* :sparkles:

idk its a voice stim for me lol. its just means cool for me

YES YESS RAHHHH CASEOH FR FR

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Bro, I have a brain that rattles when I shake my head. How do you expect me to actually think :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol yes! Alright, you go take your nap, I'mma draw. Ttyl ^^

oh!! U GOT THOSE SHAKER THINGS

ttyl!!! :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I shake my head and it sounds like a rattle :pensive:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
God, I dunno 'bout you, but something about disney's 2d movie style before the 2000's is something I adore. I'm watching the Rescuers, and I love they way they draw animals (it makes me want to incorperate the style a bit into my own, lol)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Also, I absolutely failed my coding again, but can move on :pensive:

I feel like an absolute idiot, I couldn't get a good grade if I tried, lmao! XD

But hey, maybe I'll do decent at finals here soon :/

BRO THATS SO REAL Y DONT DISNEY DRAW LIKE THT NO MO :sob:

yea!!! always have hope ^^

i hope u pass!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
CAUSE THEY WANNA BE HIP!
(they ain't hip. Not one bit)

Both old and new Disney have their quirks, but there was just this wonderful feeling about the older films (this is my old a33 talking, so take it with a grain of salt)
They had so many iconic movies, one's you can name right off the bat! The way the characters moved, so bouncy and fluid. The way they stuttered, run, flared their arms about...

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Of course, new movies have that vibe sometimes as well. More early/late 2000's, along with early/mid 2010's really was Disney's golden era for 3D animation! Course, not all the movement was as fluid. If you notice, they characters have this sort of dance. This feeling of they could just shake your hand, and it would be the most expressive thing ever! 3D, however, tries going more realistic, or at least, since 2000's, they did

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Even Disney's older shows, like my favourite, Chip and Dale Rescue Rangers, has this sort of flare to it... They did their own thing, and it was great!

As for the newer movies.. I can appreciate the storys, what they are doing, just...

Let me say when Chip and Dale was my favourite show growing up. I had the DVD's, collecting Chip & Dale merch! They are my skrungly boys!

After seeing that trailer for the movie they were making? It broke my damn heart

@SillyLilGooberDemian
It was not Chip and Dale. Those were not my babies. (I didn't even dare watch the movie. I did not want to face dissapointment) Thats what Disney feels like right now. They are taking old time greats, and reusing them to make this... garbage. Yes, some sequal are good, like frozen two... but it's the reusing. Since at least Tangled, they reused the "Quirky independent" girl trope. Everythings live action. They won't seem to try

since idk how to react ima say my fav Disney movie(besides from the princess and the frog, we need another black princess :sob:) GOOFY MOVIE!!! I LOVE TGEM ALLL LIKE MAX I LOVE HIMMMMM HES SO GOOBER CORE!!!

BRO I SAW THE TRAILER FOR THE LIVE ACTION FOR SNOW WHITE!!! ITS HORRENDOUS!!!
BRO CANNOT B USING MY LAST NAME IS NOT HAVE THE SAME DRESS :sob: Fun fact my last name is actually white. its a color :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Am I saying all their new movies are bad? No! They are good. The problem is just how it's exicuted. I liked Luca, I liked Onward. They were good! But also, could you remember them off the bat? Could you remember? Thats just it.

Movies before, you could name off. For some reason, the movies, they ain't hittin' like they used too.

It's a shame, and it'll probably stay that way for a bit..

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Sht, I was just ranting, mb!!! :sob:
I really do love films and animation, despite not being an advid movie/tv show watcher/binger :sob:

it will. no1 watching Disney movies anymore tbh

also i just saw the most disgusting peice of art on new paintings 2day. its probs bc i hate anything s3xual :sob: its like the fourth new 1

oh! ik, dw dw, i love listening actually!!' :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yoooo! Goofy Movie is my parents fave! It's such a good one. I love how Goofy is just trying to be a good dad. If I could have another dad, Goofy is indeed, top choice :pensive: :pray:

BRO GOOFY IS MY FATHER FIGURE (since my parents sucks, i got tons of like parental figures :sob: its sad chat.)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I cannot :skull:
I haven't seen the trailer, but I know it's gonna be hated on

"B-but- Why don't they like it :pleading_face:" Cause you ruined it without trying :skull:

Bro, my last name be Wolf :sunglasses:
That's right, I'M AN APLHA WO- *trips going up the stairs and dies*

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Wait, hold up, lemmie see- (I enjoy it, however, lol)

You can aldo turn on the NSFW filter. I turned it off, but you need to log in on the website for that

oh- UHHHH OAKS??? CHAT RUN BRO POCKETS!!!! /jk

run yo pockets fool >:D

also run yo pockets is basically mugging

i aint doing all that :skull: also idrc its just im used to see NSFW content on here a ton so when i do im like "YUCKY"

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay, phew! Like, I love talking, and I'll keep ranting until I fuil my fill, or until someone stops, lol

So, don't be afraid to stop me if I start talking about the iconic Felix the cat or some sht, lol XD

BRO THAT SHI FINNA B SHI DOO BÏTCH GARBISH (i cant spell)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yo, Goofy is just the real parent who stepped up when your parents couldn't :relieved:

I wont!!! btw since im actually more of a listener and idk how to react to things u will b getting boring ahh replies

erm actually :nerd: /jk my older sister and older brother raised me at my mom's. i raised myself and my lil brothers at my dad's :sob:

BUT YES GOOFY I LOVE GOOF!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh yeah, I checked the art out. Honestly, I can appreciate it being art, and the fact they put the NSFW filter on (I don't see the big fuss about drawing NSFW, but maybe that's my s3xuall! addicted a33 talkin'. As long as you ain't drawing children or !nc3st, we are fine)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay, I was so confussed (I still am, that whole message isn't makin' sense :dizzy_face:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Listen, man. Your responding SOOOO much more better then my one "friend". I'd say the exact same thing, and they would ether respond with "cool", "ok'", or straight up nothing... You have no idea how thankful this is rn, lol!

ehhhh probably, as yk im very uhhh s3xual avoidance. soooo yuh

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Damn, Goofy just stood in the Shadows :pensive:
But that sucks

oh- WELL TRUST CHAT I GOT U :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
That's fare. Not everyone's into that stuff. Just don't go bashin' people, is all I'll say :thumbsup:

yeah lol. its wtv.

i aint dw lol. i just dont like it but i aint gonna say shi bc well its them, i stilll think its disgusting but they can do them bc i dont control them lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thank you! Legit though, like, I can't with em anymore -_-
I understand I'm an issue, too. But they don't seem to put in effort, which is infuriating.
But, at least I don't feel overly attached to them anymore, so it's fine :smiley:
(I couldn't go a full day without texting them before I freaked out, lol- :sweat_smile:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
True true! Good on you though. It's fine to think it's gross, I can see why (you don't havta respond to this one, I don't wanna hold you up on it, lol)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Okay, real question: Do you like FNaF, and if so, do you know who Sundrop/Moondrop is? (IF SO, what's your opinion on him/them?)

oh- i did that 1 time with a guy i really liked. i didnt hear from him in 2 days so i cried a ton :yum: :thumbsup:

yea :p

i do!! grew up on it :skull: i love them!! sun my favourite bc hes literally me /jk

i just like the color yellow a ton :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Gah damn :skull:

When I say I got issues, I mean, I might have abandonment issues, issues.

Like, I HAD to text them everyday, and they HAD to respond before the end of the day. It was EVERY day...

It's okay though, I detached and mourned, so it's okie dokie! *Does the happy happy happy cat dance* :P

Anyway, we got Caseoh to watch every night, so thats nice ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
BRO. I LOVE Sundrop! He's my baby! I first learned about him from pinterest. Didn't realize he was in FNaF! (He's the only reason I ever got into that franchise tbh)

I own four Sundrop plushies, including one thats huggable and sleeps next to me at night! :yum:

I love orange, it's close enough :'P

But naw, man. Sundrop is amazing.
OH! I have help wanted 2 on my headset, so I can meet him right infront of me, IT'S SO COOL!! :sparkles:

i do too bc my mummy abandoned me when i was 8, i think that was when my depression got bad actually. i cried everyday :skull: she actually did come back to manipulate me and then left again

CATTTTT

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Wait, didn't Security Breach come out in 2021?
Ether I don't think that's old, or I'm old *Becomes a grandpa*

oh- idk how to react but i want a bonnie(FNAF 1) plush or like tho map bots

oh- i dont either? i would b maybe 11? or 10? idk

@SillyLilGooberDemian
"SURPRISE ***** FACKA! TRAUMA >:D"

Naw, but that sucks. Abandonment Issues are the WORST! You know they won't leave you, but you feel everything in your power to keep them. It's tiring (For me, I just stay silent. I don't need reasurance! If I ask, they will hat my guts! :P (I promise you, true friend's won't, thats just my mentality :sob:))

huh- idk what ur saying in the ()s :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
*Realizes I'm just insane*
My sister got this Christmas Bonnie plush from BoxLunch. It's really cool! But yes, having one would be awesome! (I love Bonnie too, especially Glam and Toy :sparkles:)

im really clingy bc of my abandonment issues. just so yk, u cant leave now :yum: /jk

i love og!! hes so goober!!! and glam i love him too!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
That's okay, that's me going off on something
(My messages can be confusing, I do apologies)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol! Well, we shall see how that holds up :sweat_smile:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Theres this one account I follow on Instagram, that makes all the glamrocks so beans! Lemmie find the account rq, hang on..

its okay!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Stainedge_, on Instagram. Please check them out, they got some good stuff! (they do post ship art, ie FreddyXMonty, so if you don't like that stuff, then I'm sorry to suggest :bow:)

oh- 0-0 chat btw if u talk to me long enough, ima get attached, EVENTUALLY but idk depends on how much i like ur personlity :p

oh- idrc. i dont fr use insta but i will later maybe ik

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Well, I'ma just say, I got a problem, where I'll attempt to leave people first if I deem it worthy enough (IM NOT GOING TO BE DOING THAT RIGHT NOW!!!), but I did want to mention it. It's something I notice in myself, so I don't try to attach so easily (makes me nervous)

But! I do enjoy your company! I enjoy being friends... I just want to let you know why I do or say certain things, incase of anything (though, maybe I should keep things to myself..? I dunno)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah, alrighty! Yeah, I just get excited sharing artist and stuff! I love showing people's art, even if they don't know me. It makes me feel like a secret proud father XD

oh- welp if u do, feel free to go bc i dont wanns force u to b my friend. sure ima b sad but u r just some1 on the Internet that idk irl (not trynna b a dïck :sob:)

also, idk that u yap, u can mention wtv u want idc, i love listening!! :D

oh- THATS COREEE RAHHH

also u can tell me y, ill listen and try to understand ^^

also i cant control who i get attach to bc it just happens :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw naw naw! I'm just saying, I got an unresolved problem, that I'm not sure why :sob:
I don't want things to be out of the blue, and you're over here like "Why tf did they leave with a half a33 goodbye message???", ya know? Not tryin' to worry ya, that's not my todo list!

Also, alrighty! It takes me a minute or certain topic to yap, but.. If you have any topics or questions, feel free to suggest. I ain't afraid, lol :sunglasses:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol I guess it is, huh? That's fun, I like that ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Pleace forgive me, but I am a certified Dumba33. I have a certificate and gold medels. What part do you wanna hear/listen to me yap on about? (Again, I'm a moron)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I get that! And I understand. It's not something you control, I can see that! I won't judge, not one bit. Your good, okay? :yellow_heart:

oh- TRUST IF I THEM ILL ASK BC I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO WHEN I GOT QUESTIONS

uhh anything really!! i love yappers!! they're goobers (Yes u r a goober!! :D)

YAYAYAYAAYA
ur so sweet dawg! see this is y my bïtch ahh self gets attached :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
ALRIGHTY! Like I said, I don't mind! I'll answer most of every question :sob:
Good to know, though ^^
I'll try to do the same :thumbsup: (It'll mostly be fun sht though, lol)

ohhhhhh, nah nah, i get what ur staying now! ur cool oaks!!

also im always worried. im an anxious lil manic lol

oh- mk :D ill try to answer the best way i can but too many questions overwhelm me :sob: BUT ill try to answer

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I ask because I wasn't sure what to talk about. I love yappin', but not without a reason :sob: (It's okie dokie :thumbsup:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm just being myself, dawg :sob:
(I'm not someone who openly likes to be playfully mean. Teasing? Yes. But only if I know you enough)

Uhhhh idk what to yap abt bc like i dont mind listening also when people ask me that idk how to react or what i want to listen to :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Two worried lil manics :pensive: :pray:
(I don't think I have mania, btw XD)

goober means ur silly broski lol. its a good thing!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw, I get that. As long as it's one-two at a time, I'm okie dokie :thumbsup:

also i like being mean, PLAYFULLY dw i let people know when im playing around

trust:yum: :pray:

same!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ngl, same, sorry!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I know what Goober means! I use it quite a bit, actually

chat we're twins fr!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol you don't have to let me know, I usually already pick it up if your mean or not, even in text

oh- welp i use it as ur silly which means ur cool to me so uhhhh i wasnt teasing :p

yeahhhh but im going to anhway :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol... I've met a few people that consider me a twin. That's what I get for being a people pleaser, LOL!

I'm just kiddin', but being called a twin by people, thats real, and it's funny to hear

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah, alrighty! Well, you do you, lol

phhh!!! CHAT I AM ACTUALLY A TWIN IDK IF I MENTIONED THAT YET

@SillyLilGooberDemian
You actually did, lol!
I sorta remember >:)
It's pretty neat, ngl

yea!! i will >:) ima go to sleep :p idc if i took a nap. my parents didnt feed me and im hungry but its too late to eat! so i gotta sleep so i can wake up tomorrow and make breakfast

yea!! hes cool sometimes ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Go make dinner, man :sob:
But alrighty. Get some sleep, I'll talk to ya later!

ttyl!!

cant its 10 :skull: if its that late im not allowed to eat

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah, understandable. G'night! :wave:
Make sure to eat in the morning ^^

MORNING OAKS!!!! RAHHHH HRU???

im waiting for my parents to leave b4 i eat so i dont get judged for eating a big ahh bowl of cerial

@SillyLilGooberDemian
YO! Sorry for the late reply! I slept in today, and have been counting the money in my piggy bank... :sweat_smile:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
But I've been alright. Tired.
How about you? How was that cereal?

NAHHH U GOOD GANG-A-LANG!!

u are allowed to sleep in btw, how much u got?

im okay, and it got soggy so i dumped it in the toilet bc yucky :sob: CHAT I SAY YUCKY SO MUCH PEOPLE THINK IM A CHILD BUT ITS A VOICE STIM :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, back then people would get mad. They didn't ask why, which scares me...

I woke up at 10:00 this morning (I set an alarm at 7:30... it didn't work, lol)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yo, it's cool! I got a friend who says it too, so it's all good :thumbsup:
But yeah, I guess I could see it being gross. We don't use milk for our ceriels. Not because it's gross or we have a problem, but because milk is EXPENSIVE! Can't waste it on cereal, gang :pensive:

Favourite cereal, btw?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Also! I posted on my Insta. It's most likely just gonna be some old stuff for a bit, but I'm tryin' to figure something out, lol..

oh- btw dawg we're in different timezones soooo, ur cool dw :D

i dont have a fav cerial bc its mid. i eat it too much. if i eat something too much i start hating it. I got a fav food.

multiple but i LOVE potatos!!! in every way!! its so fücking good!!! like brooo

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mainly set the time, cause I hate sleeping in. Makes me feel guilty/I'm missing out :sob:

kk!! ill check it out :yum:

i set alarms so i wake up on time or so i have enough time to do something

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Well, I love cheerios. :P (my boring personality is showing!)
But that's funny, cause I'm not much of a potato person. Like, I'll eat it, and french fries (your crazy to not like french fries), but honestly? I'm good without. They taste pretty alright though. I think potatos for me are mid

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, thats fare. I stayed up till three thirty last night.
And I so learned by myself (the hard way), that if you stay up late for over a period of time, you'll be skipping hearing the alarm go off... :skull:

It's... it's not fun :sob:

oh!! im just love potato everything lol. i like a lot of things even tho im so picky lol. btw i like cheerios too, they're good :D also ur not boring dw!! well i dont think u r ^^ ur cool to talk to :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Btw, I've been considering drawing Caseoh. To be more specific, his new Utauloid everyone made for him (it's like his Hatsune Miku persona, to narrow it down better for ya)

It seems so fun, lol

i hate staying up sooooo

oh- U SHOULD DO ITTTTT TRUSTTTT

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm an old man who talks about how kids use slang thats boring. Yes I am, but thank you :smile:
And yes! Cheerios are delicious! And they are "healthy" too, so it's even better ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I only stay up if I'm invested in something, but I don't blame yeah. It's good you go to bed at a decent time, really!

oh- welp i still dont think u r bc idk. also depending on the kind u get, they arent healthy. -cough- honey-nut 1 -coughhhhh-

yea, i got sleeping shecdule i hate messing it up

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Alrighty! It'll be on Instagram if I post it, but don't actually expect it, okie dokie? I'm gonna try finding a fun pose first-

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm more a OG cheerios. Just the wheat stuff. I like Honey Nut, but wheat all the way!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thats fare. Good for you! ^^

oh- mk!! well lmk when u post it ^^

mmm, i like both sooooo!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'll try too!

yea! also r u trynna say fair? bc ur saying fare and im getting confused bc when u use fare, u use it as a "farewell" but when u use fair, u can use it multiple ways but rn ur using it as "touché" basically.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Both are awesome tbh. Also, even though our family doesn't buy em anymore, fruit loops. They are so fun

i dont like fruit loops. bruh do u remember the cerial with the teddy bear on the like box? BC THOSE WERE FIRE AND FAV CERIAL BUT NOONE REMEMBERS THEM :sob:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I told you I'm a moron :skull:
Look, my spelling can only get so far. I'm an adult, yet still spell like a 4th grader. I could tell you what a adjective is, yes can't spell, so mb! (I can spell knowledge, beautiful, gorgeous... not that though XD)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Not really? Our parents didn't really buy cereal, so I can't answer that to begin with-

oh- welp if u want me to correct u i can, bc i do got a habit of doing that but i been trying to stop bc people think its rude

welp- i found its called golden crisp, its rip off of honey smacks :sob:
chat my mummy often bought off brand things bc that was all she could afford bc my dad and her had shared cousity so basically, she didnt get money and nor did he but he could afford A TON of shï she couldnt.

sooo yuh

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I mean, it's fine if you want too, but personally, it makes me sort of not in the best of moods (my mum does it all the time. I could be tellin' her something exciting, and she would go "You're*", completely forgetting what I just texted :skull:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Our parents buy a lot of off brand stuff, too. It's just cheeper ngl. But I think I've seen that at the commisary a few times, yeah ^^

also i was really spoiled so when i went to my mom's for my second x-mas, i would always ask "thats it?" bc i remember only getting 1 lil toy bc that was all she could afford at the time. yk what she told me, "santa already got u things, he didnt want to get u too much" sooo yuh. i didnt know at the time she ******* up all the cash she barely had to at least get me and twin something. its said how much i took shi for grant. but yea, sorry for the yapping :sob:

scr aped up**

oh- then i wont!! bc i dont wanna make u feel like im being a dïck, yk?

yea, THAT SHT WAS FIRE BRING IT BACK EVEN THO ITS FROM 1995 but it was so good!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw, you're good! I get that. I was also a bit of a spoiled brat. But, I do appreciate the things I get ^^

actually it was 1945.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw. I understand you wouldn't be. I'm just a stupid punk btch, lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Never had it, but I'm sure it musta been pretty good! Might just be for certain store, probably

i started appreciating everything i got when my lil bros were born bc welllll, i stopped getting spoiled sooooo. now all their attention is on my lil bros (they're my step-mom and dad's kid not my mom's) so i dont get much but!!! i get really happy when i do!!

no ur not dawg, im fr just special so i feel like i have to. but i wont bc i dont wanna make u hate me lol

if its still being sold

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Bro- DO YOU KNOW HOW COOL IT WOULD BE, IF I DID DRAW CASEOH, AND HE DID SEE??? I would simply pass away :angel:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I feel that! But good on you. It's important to look at the small things, too. I'm glad you can do that, cause not everyone learns how too ^^ (from how I've seen things)

BRO CHAT IT WOULD B SO COREEEEE LIKE HUH?!???!?!?!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol I wouldn't, I just got an anger problem (I wouldn't go blowing up at you, don't worry! I have... decent self control)

yea, eventually u'll learn, takes a while. chat just dont b spoiled lol

mmmmmm, im still not going to just in case, yk?

my cousin chat gave me too much trauma (the 1 who used to hit me?) bro the main reason i try not to correct people

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Like, I would have reached peak adult form. There is no greater feeling, then to see someone you like, show other people your own art (but even if he didn't, I would still be happy knowing he saw it ^^)

...I'm getting myself way too hyped up for something that probably won't happen, lol :sweat_smile:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
True true!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
That's understandable. Just don't take things to seriously here, okie dokie?

oh- welp its good to have dreams, yk? :D

yep!! :D i never do tho so dw!! ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol true. I gotta be realistic, though. So, for now, I'll just draw something dynamic, I suppose

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah, okie dokie

kk :D

ima go finish my drawing :p

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Okie dokie! Have fun! ^^ (Sorry, my brains a lil empty)

its okay, finna scroll on pintrest!

heyyyy gm budz!!!! :D hru!! (i dont like using S's for nicknames btw. :p alsoooo ima tag u in a post to where im yapping abt how the demons in my universe reproduce)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Good! I'm planning on heading to the nearest store today, and buying some gift cards. 50$ for myself for the nintendo, 20$ for the same thing for my brother, and another 50$ for my Mum for Amazon (Tomorrow is my brothers birthday, and it's almost my mothers as well)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I'm gonna be using my gift card to get the Sam and Max games! :D
*Does a funk jig*

oh- YAYAYAAYYA :D cant wait till i have money :D gonna use it on my wishlist games!!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Buying your own stuff is so fun though! Trying to use a gift card on some things is hard though...

I just reminded myself, I still got a 25$ gift card from my grandma for amazon :skull:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Wait, what games are ya gonna buy? Also, can I know what day your birthday is? You said you were turning 16 here in a minute, and you saying August is pretty close, got me conerned a bit

no- i never said august, its april 1st. alsoooo my b-day in my bio. and yes buying things with ur own money is fun!! i love doing that but i hate keeping money soo. also ima buy sally face bc its my childhood fav game.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay! You mentioned someone elses birthday in Augusti, so just making sure!

Also, SALLY FACE MASK! I don't remember that game at all, but seems fun (no spoilers!)

did i???

i dont remember a ton but i love it!! :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah? I dunno whos though

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Should be exciting to play, then!

i got u :D

YEAAAA!!

hi hiii!!!

im back and hruuu!! :D

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Good! Just been drawing my cat, lol. Gonna be posting him here in a sec :P
Hry?

im good!! wbu? :D cant wait to see them!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Already posted! ^^
And I'm doin' good! Just contemplating on what I wanna draw next...

I want to try ether some Sam and Max fanart (Probably after I get the games), My jesters, or just draw myself for the 100th time :P
(maybe I'll just animate, lol)

SONICCCCCC

I LOVE SONICCCCC (or shadow, he's kewl)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
LMAO! Maybe! I've been trying to think on how I wanna draw Sonic characters... Like, I know how, but I don't know what pose, or what would be funny...

Maybe I'll look on Pinterest and see if I can find some funny twitter comments to use, or something-

Later!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Later I will*

kk :D have fun and i wanna draw them but idk how :sob:

ph- and ur not leaving?YAYAYAYAYAYA

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Theres all sorts of tutorials online! I could also show (trying without doing my style too much), but that's a maybe. It's good to just look it up

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Nope! Just a slip on the tongue :wink: :sob:

oh- mk :D i'll try ig

whenever my artblock disappears

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah. Artblock can make that a lot harder :/
Hopefully you get that motivation back!

me too! :sob: I CANT DRAW SHI :sob:

guess who got sick bc their bïtch ašs self kept forgetting to feed himself!! (bc his parents never tell him if they were gonna feed em') :D

I AMMMMM RAHHHH

EVERYTHING HURTS(it fr hurts to sleep and do everything. bro b4 today, i ate at 2pm est yesterday. i ate at 4:44pm est today, i had crackers bc its the only thing i can eat without puking)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Why don't you ask man? :sob:
Just ask if it's a make it ourself day or something. Don't starve yourself because your parents are to incompetent to take care of somebody! :skull:

Jeez, I hope you feel better. Being sick ain't fun or worth it. You just lay exhausted, having nothing to do.. :/

oh i was struggling to breathe like 5 mins ago ^^

also its always ends up being too late when i realize ima b starving. also im okay now just in pain. cant sit up without my ears ringing lowkey, vision going bye-bye. i havent wore my glasses bc i been sleeping all day. barely ate shi. (besides from 3 small ahh bites of cereal and 6 lil crackers bc its hard to eat, i forgot to drink yesterday so im drinking a ton 2day)

i hope i get better too or ima kms /jk

im VERY exhausted rn

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Damn. I know todays a school day for you, so I know doing thats gonna suck. Hope you don't strain yourself!

i cant go to school. until Thursday, well thats my choice soooo

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Wait, how?

im sick, i can barely move?

hii hiiii, my apendix got infected and we got it removed basically yesterday bc its midnight rn for me. so turn out i wasnt sick lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Lol yeah, I noticed XD

Sorry I wasn't on yesterday. I was out and about with my dad for a few hours, then just played my game for the rest of my day.

Can you ever physically feel the fixation of something? I can, and it can feel sort of euphoric when I feed myself content of said fixation, or even just thinking of it...

I haven't had a true fixation over a certain media since... Probably since November of last year, lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Are you doing alright so far? I've had our pets and mother gone through surgery before, so I can see how drained or tiring it is

very tiring and nurses take hours to attend to me -_- like i cant use the bathroom with these damn tubes in me

im confused abt the earlier question.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Thats gotta be uninjoyable right now. Hopefully you get dismissed here at some point. Just try taking it easy, alright? :yellow_heart:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw don't worry about it, that's just myself getting excited..

oh mk. earliest i can leave is Saturday if i can get the food down which i cant sooo

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Anyway, I'm gonna be cleaning/watching youtube/scrolling pinterest/doing school right now, so I might be taking my time a bit to reply :sweat_smile:
(Gonna be watching some old Undertale stuff. Relive that nostalgia :angel:)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
It'll take some time, don't worry. It's important to keep trying. Untill then, just do some resting. Your gonna be laying down all day, so might as well just get comfy until then..

Just make sure your still able to keep drinking water, or at least try, okie dokie? Unless they got you a tube for that, in which case, thats good too :)

i bot water dw. im typing with 1 nand rn, i took a nap btw

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh okay! Good for you then ^^

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Just are lil' corner as usual

oh- confused. mk soooo social workers, they came into my hospital room right? (its illegal for social workers to do that without parents being in the room. social workers for me = cps. ill explain) yea, so i tell her some things b4 my mom came and saw me after years, anyway she said she was gonna tell my dad some of things that i said, I STARTED FREAKING TF OUT, BRO I HAD A FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK FOR 30 mins, im scared, like terrified of my dad. so, she left when i started freaking out-

WAIT!! NOT DONE

bc yk cps, i was scared something was gonna happen, blah blah blah i couldnt handle the cps thing happening again at all. (story for another time) and yea, also i startd to pull at my hair, um its something i do when i freak out badly, i dont pull it out but im getting ready to if things go bad. (started doing that around august of 2024? idk)

but uh yea. thats y i thiught i was cooked bc im scared of my dad being pïssy at me, he didnt ground me bc social workers r not allowed to talk to minors-

without their parents being there! THANK GOD(its a saying, im an atheist still :p, i hope u dont mind) I WOULD HAVE CRASHED IF THEY TOOK MY GAMEEEE!!! (not fr i would b even more depressy)

done!!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
What do you mean confused?

u said "just r lil coners as usual" idk what that meant (meds made me forget a TON of things)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I know about the CPS and Aithiest thing already, dw :thumbsup:
But yeah, sheesh.. I don't blame yeah for freaking

no u dont???? i dont remember telling u? i gotta take a lil walk rq

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, mainly because this is where we talk, so thats why I said it was our little corner..

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM SO SLOW SORRY SORRRYYYYYYY

@SillyLilGooberDemian
You told me it was all with why you don't/can't go to a ther a pist anymore. All about you tell them stuff, they want to call them, your parents getting mad..

And you've told me (or at least to others) you are an aithiest

also i was saying no u dont to the cps thing, bc theres a big ahh story for t

that was not the cps thing

i did tell u abt the atheist thing tho

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Naw, your good. The meds must be kickin' your butt, huh? XD

that was why im not in thera py anymore

THEY R (they should b out of my system, im taking pain meds rn. im home tho)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Wha- Thats what you told me before though???
Doesn't matter. Like you said, maybe later

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah, I understand that

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh yay! At least your home. Does that mean you were able to process the food then?

yea, but that was not the cps, that was the no more thera py :sob: we're getting me back in it bc my anxiety is so bad

uhhhh kinda? depends on what i eat, i cant eat grease for a bit

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Mm I see. Well, good for you to get back in. It's probably good to ask your ther a pist about some bounderys. And if you don't want CPS called, maybe leave out a few details? I dunno

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Hey, you are steal able to eat. Doesn't matter what, just as long as you can put something in your stomach :sparkles:

uhhhm- i dont. cps/legal people freak me out

give me a min to answer

also we decided that yesterday but idk if we r fr fr.

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh, btw, I got something I'd like to mention, before I actually post anything.

I'm planning on quitting Colors here soon. Like, at least stop posting. I need to start studying for a future ASVAB next year, finish my schooling (my parents added more.. at least my GPA is finally 3.05, lol).. I want to get a job after I finish all my homework, so I'm gonna be cramming a lot into my brain, hopefully by the start/end of june...

I'm gonna be busy

and wdym boundries? (thera pists at my school at least r not allowed to share information fr, i could kïll some1 and they r not allowed to say anything)

ye!! cant wait to eat tacos tho!!

oh!! awhhh man, well i still got ur insta if i wanna yap to u!

also ima try to get a job soon (4 weeks from now bc apparently my recovery is now a month basically)

also if u take in too much info u might forget other important things!!

ima take my nap, sorry, i need my sleep

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Mm, I see. Hopefully you can still good. I know that it all scares you, however, it could releave some stress, which is really important! (My siblings are annoying, I can't focus!!!)

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah-
Last time I talked to a ther a pist, I was informed they were gonna tell my mother. I just thought it was universal :/

@SillyLilGooberDemian
That's when I was 12-13, Haven't gone back sence, lol

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yummy yummy TACO'S!!!
So good! :yum: You getting some soon, or are they to greasy?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yup! Just... wait. Maybe wait a year before you start texting me on there, like, in messages. It's gonna terrify me if you do right now XD

But I'll still be on for a while... Just don't be surprised if I stop talking all together :wink:

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Oh yay! That should be nice, earning some money... I would recommend putting a majority of that money into savings to move out. Makes doing things easier!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Yeah.. But still, my parents want me to finish as soon as possible. They already got my graduation gown, so they want me to finish.

It's gonna be tricky, having algebra, ***, Social studies, and four final exams (One of them my parents brought back... for some reason), all around 400 lessons, meaning questions for finals about 100-200....
As much as it's a lot, and I need to take my time.. I also need to hurry up. I understand the concern though, thank you :bow:

American Sign Language*

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Alrighty, get some rest! ^^

idk how to reply to all of this, i just got my brain back bc im not on meds, but um i can wait a year dw ^^ ummm also i always have been, po-po included bc ummmm yeaaaaa racial trauma.

ummm sorry for not answering everything!! um its just idk how to?

@SillyLilGooberDemian
I can't really tell you how to respond, that's kinda up to you how XD
But yeah, thats good! Nice you are able to function again, lol!

@SillyLilGooberDemian
Ah, thats always fun -_-

yea! :p

very!! lol