i just had an hour convo with my mom abt kicking my rother i was rlly sorry and the she randomly brings up trust and starts talking abt when i was 7-10 when i was getting sxualy abused by my brother...
i feel like they are never proud of me .. im just a joke to thm... they alway feel like everything i do is their fault..
my whole life ive been abused in some way and they r always telling m im in a safe home.. while i saw being used as a sx toy ... idk how to cope w this
i cut my arm ..
i wear longsleves in 80 degree wheather so my parents dont see..
'' im worried for u Ava''
thats what they say
and they always bring up everything
i just wanna be alone and cry over it ..by myself
i lovejy parents so fuccing much and ik they just wznt to help but they dont get it..
remember when i told you in one of your vents when you where upset about a different girl you liked and having a bad dream abt her i typed in the comments w/o thinking abt how i smooched you in my dream lmfaoo
it k ills me every time
-
when i say i had a huge crush i mean like
its was second grade pretty boy in my class crush :skull:
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15 May, 2023, 5:54 am
Imagine getting tagged 50 times a day between three of your accounts because you traced some memes
15 May, 2023, 5:57 am
@Unatwo
My deepest apologies ma'am
sorry for the spams lol
15 May, 2023, 5:57 am
@_R4cc00n_
hhehehhhe
15 May, 2023, 6:03 am
hjnjnjjnhhhhnnnnn
"baIIs"
15 May, 2023, 6:06 am
@TREEWAGON
bc i started b4 u and i didnt fin it till now ;m;
15 May, 2023, 6:24 am
@TREEWAGON
yes sry
16 May, 2023, 5:16 am
@_R4cc00n_
me
16 May, 2023, 6:20 am
@_R4cc00n_
listen im going to go to bed...
sorry..
ttyl..
..
sry
<3
:)
16 May, 2023, 6:25 am
;berst out into tears irl srs;
16 May, 2023, 6:25 am
fr crying rn :(
16 May, 2023, 6:30 am
@_R4cc00n_
..
i just had an hour convo with my mom abt kicking my rother i was rlly sorry and the she randomly brings up trust and starts talking abt when i was 7-10 when i was getting sxualy abused by my brother...
i feel like they are never proud of me .. im just a joke to thm... they alway feel like everything i do is their fault..
ik its all lies but i -
im getting my screen wet
16 May, 2023, 6:31 am
@-_M1LKSH4KES_-
i lied im sry
here
16 May, 2023, 6:33 am
@_R4cc00n_
im scared
16 May, 2023, 6:33 am
Rlly rlly scared
16 May, 2023, 6:36 am
@_R4cc00n_
my whole life ive been abused in some way and they r always telling m im in a safe home.. while i saw being used as a sx toy ...
idk how to cope w this
i cut my arm ..
i wear longsleves in 80 degree wheather so my parents dont see..
'' im worried for u Ava''
thats what they say
and they always bring up everything
i just wanna be alone and cry over it ..by myself
i lovejy parents so fuccing much and ik they just wznt to help but they dont get it..
I NEED HELP
PLEASE ...
16 May, 2023, 6:37 am
its ben 3 yrs
i just want to be normal again..
16 May, 2023, 6:38 am
@_R4cc00n_
i suck at sharing my emotions
..
this is so embarrassing..
you seeing me like this
16 May, 2023, 6:38 am
@-_M1LKSH4KES_-
i kicked my little brother ik it was wrong and regretted it right way
my older brother did.. THAT
16 May, 2023, 6:40 am
@_R4cc00n_
no they r
im just too scared to tell them anytning
thats just trauma trying to teach the surface
they love me ik
i love them
i just hate always hearing them
''did u take ur p1ll this morning??''
'' why are u so skinny eat more u twig''
always with the names
16 May, 2023, 6:41 am
@_R4cc00n_
im sobbing so hard rn my head hurts
16 May, 2023, 6:42 am
@-_M1LKSH4KES_-
i forgive him
its just s..
i cant
be alone ever with him again
all the memorys we had as little kids
the fun and happy ones
always taken over by every night i was taken to his bed..
16 May, 2023, 6:43 am
@_R4cc00n_
they know im fcked up
tthey know
THEY KNOW EVERYTHING
i just hate crying infrount of them
makes me feell
weak..
16 May, 2023, 6:44 am
@-_M1LKSH4KES_-
dw ill be ok
ty fo listing
16 May, 2023, 6:46 am
@_R4cc00n_
im calm dw..
just still sobby..
'wipes face'
ive seen things that a kid should never be thinking of seeing..
i - i feel like they dont understand that i cant just ''give all my problems to God''
God i feel like hasn't stopped anything
so foolish to say and doubt him
but im lost and hate it when any1 mentions him
16 May, 2023, 6:48 am
@_R4cc00n_
i understand
tey try so hard
i can tell
i dont hate them
they just try
im in far too deep
they cant find a long enough rope to help me out of this hole I jumped into
16 May, 2023, 6:48 am
@_R4cc00n_
idk how to cope but to do sh
not srs
just small
i cant afford big srs
ppl will see
16 May, 2023, 6:49 am
@_R4cc00n_
sorry
idk why im sorry
i shouldnt be
i just
dnt know how to express myself
16 May, 2023, 6:52 am
@_R4cc00n_
i dont even know how to pray anymore
THATS FCKING SAD :)
ugh my make-up is ruined >:<
16 May, 2023, 7:01 am
@_R4cc00n_
i look like a raccoon probably..
idk how to thank u for listing to my random emotional embarrassing rambling.
welp now u know whats it my head 24/7
16 May, 2023, 7:04 am
@_R4cc00n_
hhehehhe
your so sweet
08 Mar, 2024, 2:49 am
@Fatal
aawwe
look at the lil bb art :pleading_face:
08 Mar, 2024, 2:50 am
ignore the other comments
08 Mar, 2024, 2:53 am
@VitaI oh good lord
i did not realize i had that sona for literally an entire year
we were so cringey :sob:
08 Mar, 2024, 2:55 am
@Fatal
naw
i like yours :3
mine islxlj:
ew
08 Mar, 2024, 2:56 am
" WOMEN :heart_suit: "
aj u have some explaining :skull: /nsrs /j
08 Mar, 2024, 2:58 am
@VitaI it looked so bad :sob:
i loved yours it looks like a lil pilgrim boy
08 Mar, 2024, 2:59 am
women is plural
i like a woman
11111
1
o n e
08 Mar, 2024, 2:59 am
@Fatal
WOMEN AJ WOMEN LMDAO /j
it's the hair that makes me feel ick (on my dude)
08 Mar, 2024, 3:00 am
@Fatal
a women
08 Mar, 2024, 3:04 am
@VitaI lets agree our sonas were ew at the time :broken_heart:
08 Mar, 2024, 3:05 am
@Fatal
okay
agreed
1 women though
poking u playfully
08 Mar, 2024, 3:19 am
@VitaI yuppp one woman
MRS TARA YUMMY OH SHE'S SO FINE OH MY GOD
I NEED THAT TARA YUMMY MINDSET
08 Mar, 2024, 3:20 am
im joking
you're the 1 woman
08 Mar, 2024, 3:20 am
@Fatal
cute :thumbsup: .
08 Mar, 2024, 3:22 am
@VitaI henry
08 Mar, 2024, 3:24 am
@Fatal
yes :3
08 Mar, 2024, 3:25 am
@VitaI i love you
you're the prettiest person i could ever lay my eyes on
08 Mar, 2024, 3:38 am
@Fatal
taking out my eyes
putting them in your hands /j /sorrylol
hsbuqmoq
thank you al
it feel nice to be wanted and loved
you mean alot to me, thank you :3
08 Mar, 2024, 3:43 am
@VitaI okay melanie martinez #y2kref
08 Mar, 2024, 3:43 am
kvjvjjfujfjf you're welcome heny <33
08 Mar, 2024, 3:46 am
@Fatal
phh
dude
if me one year ago saw these messages
they'd be freaking tf out
i had a huge crush on you for a really long time
08 Mar, 2024, 3:48 am
@VitaI oh my
that's really cute
i think the first time i started having feelings for you was like in april
sht ykw that's right because i was still in my old league and i'd stay up every night before a game (horrible idea don't do that)
08 Mar, 2024, 3:52 am
@Fatal
WOAH
its almost been a year?!
dude :skull:
lmfao
remember when i told you in one of your vents when you where upset about a different girl you liked and having a bad dream abt her
i typed in the comments w/o thinking abt how i smooched you in my dream lmfaoo
it k ills me every time
-
when i say i had a huge crush i mean
like
its was second grade pretty boy in my class crush :skull:
08 Mar, 2024, 3:54 am
@VitaI NO??? that happened :sob: :sob:
08 Mar, 2024, 3:55 am
that's ironic though
aj = has a bad dream about a girl who doesn't like them
henry = kisses aj in their dream
08 Mar, 2024, 3:55 am
@Fatal
LMAO
LITERALLY HELP
08 Mar, 2024, 3:56 am
that's adorable what :sob:
you're so cute when you have a crush :disappointed:
08 Mar, 2024, 3:57 am
when i have a crush / love someone and idk if they like me im an absolute nervous wreck