ok ok cheer up i got a song for you
search "Metallica Nothing Else Matters" in youtube

don't ask why i listen to 2010 Rock music

@Djanocide okay

@Djanocide lol i love old rock music to!!

@Djanocide its a good song!! :3

oh nice
are you used to it, or is it first time?

@Djanocide what do you mine??

is this your first time?

@Djanocide geting a song from someone?

first time listening to 2010 rock

@Djanocide lol yeah!!

oh ok ;-;

@Djanocide but i listen to acdc some times :'3

what is acdc?

@Djanocide WHAT YOU DONT KNOW WATH ACDC IS!!!??????

ummm
yeah

@Djanocide T_T no you dont

just tell me

@Djanocide okay, go on youtube and search "AC/DC T.N.T.

when i'm done fixing my pc

@Djanocide or just any song!! for them!!

(i'm a technician)

@Djanocide no internet tomorrow??? why!!??

@Djanocide what

ummm- who's gonna pay the bill, my (third) crush?

im fixing my computer

@Djanocide x_x

i have a crush on alot of people
*sigh* mostly friends

@Djanocide lol loser

@Djanocide im just kidd
ing

kidding

you used to be one-

@Djanocide no kidding we dated

i know-

that's the worst party about it

@Djanocide hey!! what was bad about it??!!

umm what did i do? a biig fault

@Djanocide but that in the past now :3

@Djanocide i forgave you!!

dаmn- there's this boy, i REALLY love him so bad but i'm afraid i screw it up with him too-

yep- even tho you forgive me- i won't risk it with you

@Djanocide its okay, if you feel like you are not ready to tell him how you

yep

@Djanocide just try not to make him bad!! make him happy!!!

he won't even accept-

@Djanocide why??

he just won't-

@Djanocide i understand.. :-/

wait... is a boy with a non-binary straight?

@Djanocide hhhmmmm i never though about.. i guess dont really know

imma google it

@Djanocide okay!!

not sure- google doesn't give answers to everything

i'm not sure if he would accept that i'm non binary, i never told him that i even became non binary, or if he supports gay people...

i'm not sure if he's straight

or if he'd even love ME

@Djanocide sorry... are you friends with him?

yeah

great friends too

@Djanocide so if you do ask him and he does not feel the same way...

nope i won't risk it :smiling: :gun:

he may just hate me forever

@Djanocide you cant just say that!! if you are good friends im sher He'll understand.. though if you know he will not support you dont tell him!! coz if he tells people all hell will unleash!! and that will not be good!!
i dont want you geting heart!!

@Djanocide this if hes irl

umm- don't worry thanks i gained confidence
i'll tell him no matter what... when i fix my pc

hey, dumb, i know, i know you need me, and you're not going well, and dw about my religion for now, i want you to be happy
and dont tell me to "follow my religion" its too late, im already in a poly relationship, and i couldn't let you like that, i love you

so...?

@Djanocide
im srry i have to get off for now..
i will answer you when i can!! :3

okay bye

@Djanocide
okay im back!!!!
srry!!!

@Djanocide
what do you mean??

@JellyT_T i still want to be in a relationship with you

@Djanocide
i dont know

btw, imma be on more next week!!

okok, honestly probably you shouldn't, forget everything i said, i don't want to mess it up again

@Djanocide
its okay^^

nono its not okay its been like 3 times

@Djanocide
yeah, but its fine^^

okok nvm, you know im poly and all, look, i'll try my best to not make you feel bad or sad, i still want to be yours

@Djanocide
same, but i feel like the same thing will happen again..

sorry im dumb just cancel everything

i want to make you happy, that's something that'll never change

but i'll just screw it up

you really deserve the best, you know? you really deserve better than me
even tho you say im the best, you're wrong, wether or wether not i try my best, i always end up making you sad

just know that i'll always love you, even if i try to hide it

@Djanocide
yeah, and ill love you too

you're just someone that really understands me, and i want to make you happy in any way

i hate myself, sorry, so sorry, i'm always dumb and i never do anything correctly, i wish i could actually do anything good to you for once, but i can't, i'm a loser, i'm not cool, i was never cool, i'm just a mf that can do anything correctly, even making you happy

@Djanocide
hey, you aren't ''dumb'' or a ''loser''
you do your best to make me happy^^
im grateful for you
even if you make my sad or mad
im still going to care for you :3

you're so nice how can you do thatt???

ily so much ill alway be your simp

@Djanocide
^^yeah
i hope some day things will go back to normal^^
love you to^^

wdym? things are back to normal

@Djanocide
yeah^^
your right

ok look, this time, it's final, if you want me to be your partner, i'll do my best to make you happy

i mean it, ok?

@Djanocide
not right now
okay?

aaaaa forget it sorry ok i make dumb decisions im in a crisis or smth im not sure

@Djanocide
its ok!!!
you dont need to apologize!!!

i have to

@Djanocide
no you dont

pls don't waste your time on me, you're better

@Djanocide
>:c imma do what ever i want with my time

im just a bad person ok? you'll find someone better, i'm a rebel that doesn't follow rules, ANY rules, which is something bad

@Djanocide
btw if i dont answer you that means im drawing :3

... ok, sorry

@Djanocide
thats fine :)
that wont change the way i think about you

im sorry, you're better than me ok? you deserve better

just find someone else

i don't want to mess it up ok?

i'm not risking it, not this time, ily but you're sensible, mostly anything will break your heart, so i won't risk it
please look for someone nice, someone that you're SURE they won't deceive you

i'll just play it safe, ok? i got my other crush, me and him we were talking together yesterday at 3AM, and you gotta find someone like that

@Djanocide
yeah, i know im sensitive..
i will cry over nothing

i dont like like people y'k
what i wanna say is, im not really the type to fall in love easily..
its not your falt im sensitive its the worlds falt
people are mean, fake, selfish, and rude
you i dont think you are any of those thing..
i think you are caring, nice, and thoughtful^^
i dont wanna hear you putting yourself down like that, ok?
when i see you do that it makes me sad
and i dont wanna be sad

you're right, people suck, i lost my childhood and innocence while im younger than you

@Djanocide
yeah, people just really suck

if you take my advice, It's a bad idea to go in relationships for now, until you find someone that's REALLY trustable, don't rush things, ok?

if i could, i'd always try to comfort you and give you all you need

@Djanocide
i wont dont worry

@Djanocide
mkay

also, you're special, It's a fact, people won't say it, because they're jealous and evil, and this world will fight you, but do you know what i say when i feel like i wanna die? i got an extremly small song

I don't wanna die or ki1l myself
I just want to disappear
until i feel like i'm ok

but disappearing isn't possible, what, dis-a-pear?
i didn't eat this fruit in a while
while, while, what's a while?

i just go creative when im making songs

@Djanocide
i dont wanna die coz it will hurt..
i hate being hurt..
grat song btw :3

its not a real song- i just do something like that when im depressed

don't lose hope, stay determined :3

welp, do you wanna talk about anything else? im gonna go soon

@Djanocide
we can talk about whatever
i dont care what we talk about :3

right now, i have a total of 3 partners ;-;

@Djanocide
nice :''3

and im not satisfied

why?

cuz you're not satisfied

(and because my crush isn't there ;-;)

@Djanocide
im okay!!
dont worry about me!!
whos your crush 0u0

i have to worry about you ;w;

and yk, i already told you about him

@Djanocide
oooo yeah!!!!

im fine!!!

man- ok- i'm not sure how to make you happier- guess i can't-
anyways, just so you remember, his name is retsuno, so we were talking 3 nights ago, then i sent him an image of a plush and was like "if i was able, I'd buy you this one"

then he didn't reply-

@Djanocide
i dont see why he wouldnt say anything

guess he didn't know what to say

ok i sent him a meme!!
"would you rather a cat girlfriend (she loves you) or a cool lego figurine?(is epic)"

he said ofc im going with the lego one
"""i don't even like women""""

THATS MY GREEN LIGHT

@Djanocide
YEEEYYEYEY

what do i say

i said "personally i don't understand why genders even exist"

@Djanocide
i dont know

hes typying

"because a british queen said so"

hey

are you okay?

@Djanocide
yeah, mom needed me

sorry

@Djanocide
your okay :3

@Djanocide
are you okay?

yeah and you?

@Djanocide
yeah :3
im fine!!

@Djanocide
i changed my name :>

Yep- im using my tablet from now on
I can't see notifications, i have to check them myself

@Djanocide
aaawww why?? :''0

because there isnt the notification button

btw i changed my name

@Clawy
:sparkles: nice :sparkles:

wanna see my yt channel? its dumb- but promise me one thing: dont watch the first vid

@Clawy
OMG YOU HAVE A YOUTUBE CHANNEL
ofc i wanna see it :3

umm yeah- im almost at 600 subs

just search Griffodo in youtube

@Clawy
mkay

@Clawy
nice :sunglasses:

wanna see my irl friends youtube channel??? (my only irl friend :cry: )

Mitsuba swagger soda? Sure when I'll get better internet
Damn- my channel is so bad i feel humiliated

@Clawy
XD its not the worst!!!

@Clawy
yes, thats them

im gonna jailbreak my switch rn

that's a RISK THAT I WANT TO TAKE!!!!

LETS GOOOO F YOU MYAMOTO

@Clawy
mkay -u-

i messed up again

i can't jailbreak it

@Clawy
omg what happened!!

i have a patched nintendo switch, which means it cannot be jailbroken

i was just so hyped, but now that i Can't do it, i lost alot of my motivation

@Clawy
:...c i so sorry

its not your fault

@Clawy
i know :..c

everything i spent my money on is broken... my 2 PCs, my 3DS, i barely have my nintendo switch and i want to jailbreak it

@Clawy
:..0 how is ever thing broken??

they're just broken and unfixable and they cant turn on... im a technician and i cant fix those- shame on me

@Clawy
not shame on you!!!
shame on your stuff!!!!!

ok no- thanks but talking about those is no use

ill try to find a way to downgrade my firmware version for now ;3

@Clawy
yeah :c

@Clawy
mkay

yeah- for now ig ill just try a way to get money without leaving the house (parents don't allow me to go outside)

@Clawy
omg why cant you live the house?? :0

i dont have a single idea- parents are weird- anyways, ill go for now cya

@Clawy
mkay :3
bye-bye

welp- for now im bored- cya

@Clawy
im back!!! :3
(i had homework)

it's fine dw

guess who fixed their PC?

@Clawy
:0 you!!?? yaaaayyyy!!!! thats amazing!!!! :3

oh yeah-

he rejected me ;w;

@Clawy
:...0
what-

@Clawy
why??
:..c im so sorry!!!

its fine ;w;

he- uh- he doesn't want to date anyone and he says im too young for him-
he still enjoyed the fact i like him :DDDDAJSHIDSDASJQUDK*[[*J*

@Clawy
:.......0
thats still sad!!!!!
sorry!!!!

@Clawy
i know it hurt you!!!!!!
im sorry he said no!!!!
you did all you could do, and you should
not have any regrets!!!!!

@Clawy
just wanna make sure youre okay!!!

and remember that
me, Ben, and Goldfish still love you!!!

dw it's really fine

he said he feels special that someone likes him atleast, and i'm not sad, really, i respect his opinion
don't worry about me, i've gone through worse, care about yourself more than about me :3

it's really fine, ok? he wasn't even rude

i'm fine, really

i'll try harder, but yeah

if you don't want me (and it's really fine) i'll just stick onto him for now

@Clawy
i do like you, its no secret
but i dont need a relationship right now..
when im ready form a relationship, ill come to you
but not right now..

@Clawy
i no rejection can be hurt
just wanned to see how you are feeling :3

dont worry about me, also about our relationship stuff, i really respect your opinion, take care of yourself and do what makes YOU happy

@Clawy
yeah, and the same goes for YOU!!
do what makes you happy :3

Nothing makes me happy anymore so I try to make others haply instead

I'm dead inside

@Clawy
so everything i do is just useless??
so i never made you happy??

nono i didn't mean that
i mean it's hard to get me satisfied since a while

whenever i open up my real feelings to anyone, i just become weak IRL with people, i should keep my feelings inside, and i shouldn't get them out ok? other than that you always make me happy

@Clawy
i wanna make you feel happy..
i want you to be yourself with me..

@Clawy
i dont want you to feel like you have to put on an act around me..
ok?

yeah dw

but if i open up myself too much, ill get used to it, and when i get used to it, i'll become way too innocent for this world

it's just locked inside me, i Won't get it out or else i'll be childish, too excited, and annoying

the real problem isn't with you, it's with people

@Clawy
im sorry you feel that way..

@Clawy
im not going to make you open up
but just know that i will never
hurt or make fun of you :3

i know how it feels to open up
to people and they make fun..
they act like they care
they make you open up about stuff
thin live and tell everyone everything..

i care for you
so mine people do!! :3
we might not show it
but we do c:

thanks, but i know it ;3

@Clawy
:3 mkay

everything is easy... even piano... give me a challenge or smth

@Clawy
wdym??

@Clawy
like give you something to do??

forget it

@Clawy
oh, okay

im just bored, im gonna make a funny video about undertale memes tomorrow

@Clawy
okayy!!
i cant wait to see it ^v^

i forgot ;-;
dąmn- i used to get like 1k views in one day, but now i barely get 30

@Clawy
#..c ill watch them!!

That's the worst part- my videos are embarrassing

hey at least you didn't see my second channel :smirk:

right?

@Clawy
A SECOND CHANNEL???? o-o
can i see it :smirk:

n o

@Clawy
whyyyyyyy??? >:C

cuz it's cringe :eyes:

@Clawy
i wanna see how embarrassing it is!!!!

That's it i'm not giving you more of my channels

@Clawy
pleaseeeeee!!!!!

@Clawy
hheenehee
i wanna see it ^v^

its too cringe

@Clawy
is it like a old channel??
or a new one?? ^v^

new one, i post on both

also no. it only has 50 subs

@Clawy
hehehhehe
i really wanna see it!!!

give me the name please!!!!!

no!

@Clawy
just give me it!!!! hhehheheheh
i wont make fun of it!!!!

idc if you will, it's just too cringe

ok idk i give up its ツ Clawy Cat

WHAT

I SAW THAT

@Clawy
hhehehehehehehehehhehwhw
imma see it!!

@Clawy
0-0 no you didn't!!!

i swear to god

imma make the channel private

@Clawy
give me a second!!!!

@Clawy
nnnnoooooooooo
pleaseeeeee!!!!! noooo

i give up dammit

@Clawy
hahahhahhehehheheh

why are you laughing?

speed up before i change my mind

@Clawy
hehehe
im not laughing!!!!
its amazing!!!! i swar
its the most amazing thing i seen!!!!!
(i would subscribe i i dont have an account)

you're proooooobably just joking... my channel sucks

@Clawy
noooo, its grate!!! :turtle:

:turtle: no

@Clawy
:sob: yes :man_man_boy_boy:

oh yeah ill make you an email and send u the password and all in animal crossing

they ask for a first AND second name, what do i do?

@Clawy
whats a second name??

idk you just gotta add one

@Clawy
is it like my last name?

kiinda

@Clawy
or a middle name??

same thing

even if you put "razen" it works

@Clawy
wait-
do i have to do my irl name??
(its fine if i do)

@Clawy
ooohh okay!!

@Clawy
just put Wabby!!

ok- ill do it tomorrow

@Clawy
mkay!!^^

um- i forgot- sorry, its not even that important, you wont need it

@Clawy
its all good ^v^

so- uh- today i was playing minecraft and was giving out free stuff to people

That's why they call me furry mr. beast

@Clawy
llol furry mr beast!!

NOOO NOT YOU TOO-

it's my first day in the server and I've already made simps
i got confessed ;-;

i tried escaping from saying yes or no by explaining what non-binary means

@Clawy
opp-
i guess you are just loveable!! C:

maybe :skull:

@Clawy
hey, umm.. sorry i haven't been on..
im going through something at home.. and I've been in a bad place for a sometime..
im grossed out with what i have become over the last weeks..
i wanna get better.. i just dont know how..
im going to take 7 (or something) more days off

im telling tou this so you wont worry

love you c:

oh... dаmn, sorry i'm kinda having that but just don't do anything dumb, ok? i love you more

become whatever you want, even a criminal, and i'll always love you

look, in this world, sometimes nothing works, and don't care about that, don't use half of your brain, use a QUARTER, "my brain lags" haha, you'll realize the crаp a day later, but really, care about yourself, love yourself, and remember that no matter what the others say, your choices matter, just ignore everything bad and look at the good stuff

@Clawy
okay.. ill try..
i love you!!!!
but i just feel so unsatisfied with everything..
sorry.. i didnt mean to bring you in to my mess..
i have just been feeling like **** for weeks..
i dont wanna be alone in this world anymore..

no! please, you're not lonely, i'm always here, sorry ok? i feel lonely too, please, tell me everything that's wrong, even if it's your fault, i won't disappear since last time, please, just please ok? bring me into this, i don't want to fix anybody's problems except YOURS, ill only fix YOUR problems, please, i feel the same

i don't want to be lonely, but what can i do? but YOU have a fix, everyone here is your friend, and if they're not here, just make MORE friends (just don't put all your hope in them, you should test them), i just love you ok? i can't handle a moment without you being happy

what do you want? i'll give you everything i can, i just want to make you happy, if anyone annoys you I'LL destroy them, i wish i could just meet them... i can't destroy someone kilometers away, please, just tell me anything that makes you happy, i want you to be happy, i'm tired of all these people without feelings, i just want you to be the happiest because you deserve it

i can't do anything useful at time

@Clawy
okay

@Clawy
you didnt have to do that!!!
but thank you!!!
you are my favorite person!!!!
i love you ^v^

awww thanks i love you more

how could someone prefer anyone more than you?

welp, i think it's 9am where you live, good morning!

also "i bet you didn't even notice", was it about when your bio said "i guess i care too much"?

@Clawy
no, that was to @//TuTBean_
i know them irl and see them ever day..
i dont think they notice me at my lowest point..

@Clawy
i love you so much more!!!!^v^
its 10:35pm where i am!!

@Clawy
hello!!! you still alive!!!
where are you!!!
you probably just dont have Internet.. :(
i miss you!!!!
:..0 i hope you are on tomorrow!!

look i'm so unsatisfied of myself rn, i need some time alone

sorry

also about your brother, he doesn't have to wait for the email. he has to RESEND it

@Clawy
oh okay take all the time you need i love you
my little bro said he doesnt want his account anymore :''/

im done with the depression stuff, im actually making that game and we're making good progress!

@Clawy
YYYAAAAYY thats grate!!
im glad you are ok!!

hyhhswusjwhua2m2icu81hisjisj8qi2jw9akqwooa

i finally got a boyfriend that actually loves me and i love him
*dies of happiness*

@Clawy
AAAAAAAA OMG!!!! THATS AMAZING!!!
IM GLAD YOU FOUND SOMEONE THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!!!

dfghjklkjhgfdsss

@Clawy
JAQKMOQMOQQ><QXS<QK!!!!

@Clawy
DJANEEEE!!!
IM SO LONELY HERE!!! TnT
why you not on?
hope you are ok!!

@Clawy
where are you :c

@razenT-T IM SO SORRY i just dont have internet, im trying to hack neighbors closer to my bedroom, sorry ok? im trying my best but nothing seems to work, maybe i'll ask ben on some tech support ;-;

look, as soon as i can, ill be here

@Clawy
oh okay!!
i just got worried cuz i didnt hear
from you in a bit :0

yeah so sorry, i'll try my best

@Clawy
okay!!
ill be here when you
have Internet!!

i miss you so much, i just want to spend some of my time with you but we can't do anything about it, especially these internet problems, sorry

i'm still hacking, my brother told me a way, but he was just tricking me, and testing me
i guess i got something like him :skull:

anyways, i found the way HE hacked neighbors, but it's outdated and won't work with our *dear neighbors*

i guess you're not online alot ;-;

@Clawy
IM SO SORRYY!!
i got my switch taken away!!!! :..0

ill be on more tomorrow!!!
I MISS YOU TOO!!!
im so sad we can never talk!!!
i wish we had same time zones!!!

Oh- my switch charger burnt

;-;

My birthday is in 7th September (you better prepare me a 99$ gift card) (jk don't do it) (its overpriced don't do it)

@Clawy
lol imma get you a 20$ one

@Clawy
did you see the blue moon last night!!!!????
i did and its not blue :..0
but super cooll!!

wait no don't get me money-

and no it's just a moon, wasn't interested

@Clawy
but i wanna get you a gift!!!

you're better than a gift

@Clawy
0///0 aww
thats so nice!!

but im still going to get you a gift

@Clawy
how am i emo!?! XD

because you're emo??? also NO GIFT

@Clawy
yes gift

im not emo!! XD

no gift

YOU ARE EMO!!!

@Clawy
YES GIFT

HOW AM I EMO

YOU'RE EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no gift or im deleting my colors account uvu

@Clawy
DONT!!!!! I JUST WANNA
DO SOMETHING NICE FOR YOU!!!!

@Clawy
IM NOT EMO!!!!!!!!!

are my partners are emo

well, you ARE gonna turn emo :3

@Clawy
T_T okay

@Clawy
btw
im not going to be on at all tomorrow or
the next day
i have work all day!!!! sorry!!

dw, not your fault ;-;

heya guess what? the anti virus deleted MY OWN GAME that i compiled :DDD
(**** me already)

anyways how was your day

@Clawy
oh no!!
im good!!
im going to make a discord soon!!!
so i can add you or something..

anyways i had a long day at work :..(
old men hitting on me >:c

what the fu-

male Karens (im so not sorry)

gurl go to sleep

@Clawy
FR :skull:

@Clawy
no :skull:

yes :skull:

@Clawy
why? :skull:

it's like 6am where you live right??

@Clawy
lol you right :skull:

@Clawy
i go to school in like 3 hours :skull: :sob: :skull: :sob:

i'm lunelyyyy :>

@Clawy
lol how?

im just lonely and bored and hungry
i might just buy a croissant rn

and when i say a croissant i mean 4 of them

@Clawy
:skull: !!!!!

and i'd probably get outside again to buy more

@Clawy
omg
my school was on fire last week lol

what the-
gtg outside

@Clawy
why you not at school??

@Clawy
opp-
dont weary just a kitchen fire lol

school starts at 28 September

@Clawy
WHAT!!!!!
I STARTED SCHOOL FREKING 2 MONTHs AGO!!!!!!

@Clawy
i got you a b-day gift!!!
its a 10$ one coz money tigh righ now :skull:

omg thanks it means so much to me i don't know how to say thanks-

@Clawy
yeah, np!!
just want to do something nice for you :v

im going to give you the code tomorrow

um okay, thanks again dfghjkl;lkjhgfd

@Clawy
np!!^^

i got too excited im dancing like jevil

@Clawy
:skull: !!!!!!

@Clawy
happy birthday!!!!

C0PLL140P2SXPFPC

here you go!!!!

aww thanks :sob: it means SO much to me you're the best
i'll be sure to give you the double when i can

i'm so sorry i wish i could talk to you more but i have to go out today sorry

@Clawy
yeah, im just so glad a could make you happy!!!
and im at school so i cant talk ether lol

why did you bring your switch school

@Clawy
lol its just always in my bag :v

don't let anyone steal it or break it ok?
also HOWD YOU GET INTERNET-

don't ask why im awake owo

@Clawy
schools Internet

why are you awake???

reasons

@Clawy
you ok?
or just cant sleep?

i'm just bored ;-;

@Clawy
what time is it for you?

its 8:00pm for me :3

1am

@Clawy
nice c:

at a moment like this i'd be listening to music, but i don't have earphones
still, thanks for the game

@Clawy
same, but im watching anime rn

and np!! just glad you like the gift!!^^

thanks
i wish i could watch anime ;-;

IM GONNA START DOWNLOADING SEASONS NOW!
any suggestions? im gonna try re:zero

@Clawy
oh im watching
Mushoku Tensei season 2

but i like
Jujitsu Kaisen
Demon Slayer
assassination classroom
Dr.Stone

and more :<

i already watched dr stone (I WAS WAITING FOR SEASON 3 SINCE LIKE 2019), and demon slayer, i also might re watch assassination classroom and try jujutsu kaisen

@Clawy
fr!!
i got more suggestion if you want some :3

welp- thanks imma change my name back again

@Clawy
okay :3

@Djane
IM SO SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO UNFOLLOW YOU!!! :sob:

dw

DJANIIITOOOOO

@Djane
EEEEEEEE

i have to go to sleep!!! :sob:
im sorry!!! ill bring my swich to school so we can talk!!
good night!! love you!!!

love you too- but i may not be able to talk alot ;-; good night

@Djanocide
sorry i was not on yesterday!!!
it was home coming football game and my brother plays so i had to watch!!

OOOHH SO THAT'S WHAT YOUR BROTHER WAS DOING

dw

@Djanocide
what do you mean?

@Djanocide
i got asked to go to the home coming dance..
its tonight and i dont wanna go..
should i go?

your choice, dunno personally whenever i go to these parties i end up being bullied in the family, not sure if they do that to you

also, i meant that i didnt know your brother was a footballer

@Djanocide
oh okay :3

also i dont get bullyed at partys coz theyre scared of my brothers lol

@Djanocide
yeah i have 1 brother that play football lol
hes is ''popular'' at my high school
i have another brother that plays but only for fun now
coz hes 26 now lol

i remember when my brother used to be cool

now he keeps insulting me

**** it, enjoy your life

@Djanocide
i have 8 brother and 5 of them hate me for no resin!!
i have 6 sisters and the all hate me..
but i have 3 more little sisters i have never met -_-

@Djanocide
wdym ''enjoy your life''??

i mean, my siblings aren't cool anymore, they just use me

@Djanocide
im sorry..
my sibling just make fun of me
and so do my partners

i'm sorry i know i'm a terrible partner

@Djanocide
no you are not!!

@Djanocide
im sure your boyfriend loves you c:

thanks

@Djanocide
np!!^^

btw im sorry i have not been on a lot
i have some drama going on in my house (again)

anyways have a good day!! i love you!!! c:<

thanks and dw

HAH I FOUND YOUR SECRET ALT ACCOUNT!!
i know you're maggotz, i just KNOW
now say thanks for my :sparkles:awesome:sparkles: piano techniques

@Djanocide
AAAAAAA >0< YOU DID!!!!

@Djanocide
and thx!!^^

you're so predictable- tbh you didn't even change the artstyle

@Djanocide
aaaaaa i cant just my change art style LOL T-T

i just practice on this account
im not hiding or anything
i just dont like this account anymore :/

i like my now one though!!!! thx!!
and the name!!! my sibling call me maggot so yeah T0T

new*

@Djanocide
HELLO??
you still alive???!!! :..0
why are you not on!!!

@Djanocide
what happened?!?!
why are you not on!!!????!?
i miss you!!!!

@Djanocide
hey i have discord now
if you wanna friend me ill give you my user name :3

sorry- my switch wasn't charging-
also that's cool, let me try and guess your username first... NOPE I'VE ACCIDENTALLY ADDED THE WRONG PEOPLE-
ok i won't guess again- what's your username?

@Djanocide
lol
its wabby0998

i'll add you whenever i'm able, i'm salad croissant

@Djanocide
okay c:

hey, sorry, i might go offline at any moment as i said

also did i tell you im single again-

@Djanocide
oh no what happened??

welp- he was so rude, and he wanted me s3xually so yeah, he appeared nice at first but then he showed his true colors

@Djanocide
what a rat
he should respect your boundaries

Rats are much better-

I'll probably stop romance or whatever and do something real with my life tbh, i honestly deserve what i got because of what i did to you that one time

I mean love made me crazy, I'll just focus on real stuff before i regret it

Anyways they'll get enough of me in less than 6 months

@Djanocide
well love does make people do dumb thing

@Djanocide
you dont deserve any of that!!
you deserve to be loved and not used!!
what happened between us is in the past
we both grow up and solved the problem!!

i dont want you to dwell on what happened in the past
i want you to be happy with your partner or whatever!!

just let go of what happened i forgive
you so mine times c:
i just want the best for you!!

Thanks but it'll probably be a slim chance

... Or look for someone as desperate as me

@PianistCookieAddict
I'm sorry I overreacted

i'm gonna block you owo

@PianistCookieAddict
OwO do it i dont really care
youre just looking for attention form me and i don't care :3 so block me

can't handle a joke?
you seem like you really don't care, and i don't either
is this really how you want to make it...?

@PianistCookieAddict
i didn't want this to happen
i was trying to apologize but you said you were going to block me
i tried to make thing right but you didn't want that!!
dont blame this on me
it's your fault that this happened
if you didnt make dumb ràcist jokes this wouldn't have happened
i dont want to stop being friends, but if you dont stop making ràcist jokes i dont think we can be friends

i prefer not replying rn

@PianistCookieAddict
okay, i just wanna know if you still want to be friends.. if not just please tell me

but take all the time you need. i dont want to rush you

i guess

i mean we don't talk that much but i unblocked you

ok so i read some older messages

are you like mad at me because i have other partners? because one time i told you i got a partner you just said "ok and? look at my kitkat"

(lol i showed it to him and he said "she won't share it any time soon :skull:)

and yeah you just seemed not to care about what i say, so i didn't really hesitate to let you block me

@PianistCookieAddict
i don't care who you date i didn't get mad
im just not the person to get happy over someone getting a boyfriend/girlfriend

@PianistCookieAddict
and i showed you my kitkat cuz you said you liked them

um
kitkat supports Israel-
anyways i don't really know why bother to be a friend to someone like me
i made enough mess already

um
forget it
i grew up, not much, but better
if i make raсist jokes it's because i was extremely pissed

@PianistCookieAddict
why were you mad?
i dont think we were talking about anything that would make you mad
but its fine:3
as long as you dont make those jokes again we will be fine c:

sorry that day i had a breakup
i really loved him

but now everything's fine, sorry you can add me im @ murasaki.the.salad

i also got a new 3DS so yeah

@PianistCookieAddict
sorry, i didn't know
if i did i wouldn't have been so mean

@PianistCookieAddict
a new 3ds!!!! yayyyy!!!

hey i forgot to tell you i gave my account to someone, i didn't block you on discord

also, shiт happened

you might have heard about Ben's situation... or whatever his name is :sob: look, i do love him but like
HE GAVE US UP FOR AI-
i feel hurt, man

and character ai just says "i love you" in the first second, they always say that you're correct, they even support you talking abt crimes at some point, and even though they give you all you want, it never replaces real friends

and it gets depressing over time

@PianistCookieAddict
friend me on discord
and i didn't know Ben did that o-O

i added you, im Zero

@PianistCookieAddict
okay

hey, i'm gonna be more active

i miss you

another thing is that i really matured up, and i'm not as dumb as i used to be

@Djaneee
i missed you too :3

hey, i wanted to tell you something, so if you can, can we talk on discord 2 or 3 hours from now? it's fine if you can't

@Djaneee
okay
i'll try to get on in an hour :]

sorry i was asleep ;-;

@Djaneee
im so so sorry i cant get on today!!
i have work right after school today
but im off tomorrow!!

since you aren't replying on discord i'm sending you this message her; there's something extremely important that's going to happen and there's no time to waste, so i have to pray now and i'll be back in an hour, try to come by that time

@Djaneee
ill try and go on discord after school today
but i wont be there long i have work tell 9 pm today

@Djaneee
i was on yesterday but you weren't there
i can go on today but i can tomorrow
but i can only be on there for an hour or two cuz its Easter and im going to have family over

@razenT-T I'm so sorry i wasn't able to, i also completely forgot about easter, and i also wasn't able to use my switch, tell me when you have free time if you're ever able to

also they're gonna do something to the Colors app on the 3DS and it's going to stop working after a week, on April 8th, so I will be on much less, i'm so sorry

you're really busy and i'm sorry so take your time i don't want to waste your time

Hey, I just really have to talk about it

I just miss spending time with you, I remember last year I'd come back from school and wait for you to come online most days, and there's a reason why I was like that, even before we started dating
After I broke up with you because of my religion (and of course I was wrong) I just completely broke you without even caring and then regretted it like a day later and I have to say that I was heartless and was doing bad stuff to people who didn't deserve it

so I just completely ignored my religion after that like a complete аss and I asked you again but you weren't ready for a relationship, and the feeling between me and you was just really special to me, being with you was the best thing anyone could experience
after that I was just being an аss again so I kept looking for relationships, wether straight, gay, whatever I'd simply just accept it like a complete bitсh

and that just lead me to manipulators and fake people and psychopaths, and thank god it was like that, I deserve it so much and i've experienced what i made to you multiple times and I still deserve worse so I'm sorry, I already knew that I caused damage but at least now I feel it, you don't know how much it took me to be able to say this I've been struggling to say it without feeling humiliated for months, but at least I'm better, and I hate my old self so much, but I'm never going back to that

and when I said I was wrong about the dating thing, of course I had to screw it up just because of what people say, I swear I only try to be religious in the wrong way
but the true way dating is viewed by Islam is that it's permissible as long as I'm aiming for a life partner and as long that you're either Muslim, Christian (and you are) or Jewish

okay I know I talked a lot I'm sorry, but we'll continue the religion talk some other time

I just hope you still love me, because I promise you I'll treat you with the best of my heart, and I won't blame you for my problems, and if you accept I will do it by respect, honor, and of course all the love of my heart

if you refuse, it's fine, I respect your choice, and I'll still be a good friend

hey, I was just thinking and I don't want to bother you

back at the time, we used to be each others' only one, if you know what I mean, I don't think you still see me that way, you probably got better friends and you probably like someone else, it's fine, i won't force you, it's just that being with you always made me happy and I want to make you happy too but i'll probably just become a problem, you're becoming busy and all, you got work all day...

i don't know, but seeing you like this is like seeing my brother which is 29 years old, i don't really like him anymore but you get the point, since he left he changed a lot (im not saying you changed) and i had nobody because he was basically everyone to me, he was my brother, my friend, and better than my dad, now he just yells at me and fights me over nothing like everyone else, I just had you in that time, you always made me happy as always

I always felt like the relationship between me and you was just different than anyone else i loved, you treated me better than anyone did at all, and it's fine if you don't want to get back

I had the best time with you and it's already a lot

@Djaneee
STOPPPP YOUR MAKINGME CRYYY
ik how you feel
befor we dated i would get home from school i would just go to my room and sleep tell dinner
then when we started i have staying up all night just to talk to you. i was more happy with you. you made life not so bad
i would get home from school and would get so happy when you were online.
but when we broke up i felt so hert and i just wonted to sleep. i haven't felt that tired for ever..

@Djaneee
after all that i just started working all the time.
i started traning ppl and i met some really nice ppl there.
but i was still in pane
until i met this guy Draky he was so nice!!!
he would do everything i didnt wont to do. after 3 month working with him he asked for my number
AND HE ASKED TO BE MY BF!!!
and thats where i am know.
i cant date you coz im in a relationship with someone
hes the niceness guy ive ever met and i love him (i haven't told him that i love him but im going to)

@Djaneee
i know this is not the answer you wonted but im happy now

@razenT-T
Okay, it's fine, I completely understand, good luck for you two

I'm still sorry

Sorry I won't bother you again I'll try not to get too attached I'm happy for you but I have to move on because I don't want it to haunt my life, I'll probably repay that 20$ gift card as I promised but I don't think I'll be here anymore, I'm also going to unfriend you on discord (not blocking) because I'll just keep on remembering every time I see you on my friend list, I really hope you two the best, I won't be checking my notifications here so often anymore

@Djaneee
we can still be friends but if its to much to bear i understand
maybe some day everything will be fine between us but until then
goodbye Djane, i love you ♡ and just remember that
i hope the best for you

@razenT-T sorry i just put too much hope onto it i'm really sorry it hurt me (and i deserve it ngl) and i told my friends how much you mean to me and they said that i should just should move on because i'll just get more attached, i genuinely love you more than myself but i shouldn't be like that because i'll just get too attached and it'll make it worse

i've been just too attached and everything changes to the better, so just have fun, you don't need me that much anyway we haven't talked properly in months

most advice (not by friends) are like "don't let her break you she's not worth it" but i can't be like that

sorry the reason why i'd rather not talk a lot is because this whole "i love you" thing between me and you will later feel like cheating so i don't want to do it

it's just that i really love you more than anyone and anything else and trying to get over you is basically me trying NOT to love, i know i didn't lose you as a friend and i'm grateful but i can't just continue loving you romantically, you can't be friends with someone that loves you if you're already in a relationship, so i just have to close these feelings till a good time arrives
i did love a lot of people but i guess it was temporary, maybe it was because i was lonely at that time, maybe because i tried to replace the feeling i had with you, i don't know man it was just special with you because you're the only one i actually did love but i don't know how to show love so i screwed it up, probably because my first time was with you
and you deserve him, i really feel like he's gonna be a good partner so the next time you meet, go give him a big hug for me

if he makes you happy, then he makes you happy, simple

sorry because there's a delay between messages it takes me a lot of time to think

well you're literally my pc password

@Djaneee
im sorry
i cant control my feeling if i could i would make myself love you non platonically
but i can so i cant do anything about
i know your hurting rn but i cant do anything about it..

i really hope you find someone nice and that treats you well and makes you feel the why i made you feel

@Djaneee
ill give him the biggest hug c:

Thank you, I guess we'll still try to be friends if you want but we won't talk often I ain't causing problems with the lucky guy
I really gotta talk to Maria about this (she's like a big sister to me) when we get back to school she'll tell me how we could find a way, she has the best relationship advice

Also no one is gonna make me feel like you did, it's "special" for a reason, I may not even find someone else, who knows God's plan? I mean a lot of people have a crush on me but I think I've been punished enough for what I did to you lol, I don't want to date a manipulator again

@Djaneee
maybe you just need a break from dating
idk whats best for you i just hope you fine someone that treats you well
at lest better then the ''manipulator''
i just dont want you to get hurt from dating ppl who dont treat you well
you are amazing and you deserve someone who is just as amazing as you!!

yeah no i'm not even amazing but ill find a way around, thanks
ALSO IF YOU DIDNT GIVE HIM THAT HUG ILL LOCATE YOU AND ASSASSINATE BOTH OF YOU-

Hey sorry long story I don't feel like being happy would be easy I have to put some effort in it, I'm in a really bad state in my life and my parents keep on getting worse and worse every day and so are my siblings and most people I trust, I feel like I have no one right now and I lost and I'm getting hallucinations for some reason idfk and I just resorted to self harm like a complete weakling, I feel like I lost my principles and the people that are by my side so what's the point now? I genuinely don't have anyone anymore I'm really lost, everything I have is shame
Everyone including my family is calling me a crazy person or a demon now I'm hallucinating, great

I'm going to deal with this, but if I don't reply for a few days I guess me and maxwell are going on a date
Yes I gave a name to the silhouette I saw, I hallucinated something and named him maxwell and he later came back to hold my hand at 5am
... This is funny but it's real, I'm serious

I mean I'm not going on a date with a Jinn but if I don't reply for a while then I'm just dealing with crap

My "dad" is going to take me to the hospital
Not because he wants me to be safe
But because he wants to get rid of me
If I don't reply after Monday that's what ACTUALLY happened I guess
And I'm done, I'm so fucking done with this abusive hypocrite racıst careless "family"
I don't care, I don't give a fuck anymore, if I'm going to a hospital then I'm leaving this family, I don't care if I'm staying in an orphanage, I've been resisting so much already, even if they don't actually send me to the hospital I'm leaving them when I become older, I fucking swear I'm done with being tortured mentally, eitherways I WILL leave Algeria, I WILL leave this so called "family", and I WILL change my name so they don't get any credit if I do something important, I want to cut off this family forever, they've been treating me like a crazy psycho for years now and here am I, I hallucinate and have insomnia
It's discusting how a Muslim doctors would do this to their child, and my sister is clearly crazier she's their favorite kid so ofc she's safe

I may not reply for months, maybe even years, but I'll be back, or I may just come back on Monday and be fine, but I've set my goals for this life

YO I HAD A DREAM ABOUT JESUS AND ACCORDING TO ISLAM IT WAS ACTUALLY HIM AND NOT JUST MY BRAIN MAKING THINGS
Also I didn't go to the hospital but it's okay

You're probably busy and I won't bother you anymore, sorry

I really screwed it up? I'm sorry

@Djaneee
no you didnt
sorry i haven't been online for a bit
i've just been stressed about school
im going to be a senior next semester so i have to find out what college i want to go to and what major i want to study for next year
so sorry ive been gone ive just been stressed out
ill try and make time to come on here but between school my job, boyfriend and my mental health im a bit busy
i will try and get on discord if not here C:

okay sorry I wish I could even help

hi we haven't really talked in a while so how are you?

@QlawyUwU
im doing ok
sorry i haven't been on for a bet :.c
i will be on more cuz school is out
how are you?? c:

@razenT-T oh hi
we just really haven't talked in a while, i forgot what i had to say, i may add you on discord tonight

@QlawyUwU
okk imma get on discord tomorrow :3

@razenT-T oh right sorry my new username is exorcistqlawy