ames can we talk?

@J-0ne
sure
speak
but know im still hurt n recovering from whqt happened..
n...pls no more drama dis week..
i dont wann get attacked again
its my bday soon for crying out load

i just wanted to apologize. i still want to be civil and i wont let linnea say anything to you anymore. i just want you to understand that she is the love of my life. and i wanted to ask you a question.
be honest please.
have/do you ever had/have feelings for me?
im not going to judge you or tell linnea but i just need to know.

@J-0ne
nope
i never had feelings for u

i THOUGHT of going out w u
but in all honesty, dats just my instant thought when i talk to a guy
because i am male deprived n wanted a bf for so long
i just immediately think "is dis the guy God wants for me?"
the answer is no

never crushed on u
never had any romantic feelings
never inlove w u

what Linnea calls "flirting" is actually just my way of talking to guys
im extra sweet n darling w em
im like dat w my girly friends too
call them hun or sweetie

back to the other thing

im a over thinker n planner
so when i thought of going out w u (before u got back w lin)
i didnt rly think we would be a good couple
i didnt resonate w u in dat since
(n no offense, ur not necessarily the kind of guy i want as a partner)
n ive made up my mind dat, u camw into my life so i can help u
its from a saying "ppl come into ur life for 2 reasons, 1. they come to help u, or 2. u come to help them"

as for my opinions of linnea
i dont hate her, heck infact, after she read thru our convo n harrassed me, i was actually wprried about her feelings

but she did lose almost all of my respect for her dat day
n did show she is toxic as heck

im not gonna tell u to leave her
but dat is still what i think
i just think u need some time by urself
a break of sorts yk?
to get urself together

it just pains me to see u still chose to be w her, even after all the things shes done

@j-0ne
i dont think shes a bad person n deserves to rot
i dont think like dat

im sure while i gave u advice, uve noticed i also said things i thought she could do better
so u can BOTH grow

i do think she needs lots of help
what normal person curses at a random stranger they dont know nothihg about?

srly "cvnt! get a life, flirt w some other guys!"
my house is a prison.
i am trapped by overprotective strict parents
i have no irl friends
dat hurt sm.
she doesnt know what my situation at all

@j-0ne
her saying that she hates me, wants me to get jumped by a bear, dat im annoying, manipulating u
hurt me more dan u cutting me off
n i hated so much how i cared about ppl.

she hates me but i care about her.
even if she wants me to flipping die.

no one deserves to be hated yk?
not even her toxic head

i do wish for the both of u to get better
ive seen how sweet she talks about u, n dat shows me dat there is a good person there
i rly do want the both of u to get better

i still think u should do it separated

but if u somehow do it together
dat would rly be amazing
n ill be proud of both of u

i never, ever, wanted to break u guys up for my own advantage
i rly just wanted to help u

i never meant to paint her as a bad person, i just see alot of problems dat she should fix (from whqt uve told me)
but i cant form a full opinion on her
cuz ive never interacted w the woman
so i am still a bit bias towads her
my opinion was form from whqt uve told me

@j-0ne
u ever going to respond?
been a few weeks

im sorry ive been going through things lately. me and linnea are on break rn

@J-0ne
oh okay
i understand going thru some things too

@j-0ne
u okay?