what happened?? :'O

@PoodleKingdom
I don't have a job it's just a metaphor of social media addiction

oh! what kind of job did you have? I work with fast food! :O

urr. . . did you have a job? i'm sorry for being confused. ; v ;

@PoodleKingdom

it's okay lol, no I didn't have a job, the "job" I'm talking about in the description is giving social media platforms more hours of my life. I guess the description is a poem

this really spoke to me differently, i really like the poetic outlook on endless straining time we have so little of. and how we're never actually free as time and money chains us down. that is my interpretation at least, really pretty all different ways of seeing this. thankyou for sharing it. :)

lmao #happypaintings

i love how all art can be interpreted in many different ways depending on who you are, what you've been through and what stage of life you are at. again, really cool

@VampireRat
I mean that's pretty much the meaning behind it, but it's mostly focused on social media use.
When I use social media I feel like I'm donating my hours to a giant, multiple lifetimes long jar where the companies collect everyone's time.
I feel disturbed at the giant gaping holes in my memory in my teenage years due to staring at nothing for hours. Like a trance.
I wanted to learn new skills.
Instead, I took time off from my own lifespan.

Where did that time go?
I don't even know.

I wanted to learn how to play the guitar,
I wanted to learn music theory,
I wanted to do claymation.
I wanted to get fit,
I wanted to learn a bunch of pointless skills,
I wanted to learn how to write books,
I wanted to write books,
I wanted to try so many new things.
And most importantly, I wanted to create.

Instead I exchanged years of value for novelty amusement that left me malnourished.

It hurts even more because I was homeschooled, so I had all day, every day of the week of free time.

That amount of freedom in my time is running out, and there I regret not using my time better.

@VampireRat
Anyway uh,
thanks

i understand, its hard to break away from the repetitive habit but you just need to limit it, put those goals into action, right now ive been in a depression slump and guess what im doing, learning how to play 'mad world' on the piano... crazy. it sounds easier then it is, sure you cant get that time back but you can use the time you still have now. but try small steps into achieving what you like.. maybe set.. 40 minutes onto focusing on one thing you can do that is accessible. thats my way-

and then i trick myself and boom. i get into the flow of productivity and get closer to what i actually wanna use my time for. you're probably thinking 'what is this 15 year old trying to say? she thinks shes so smart and mighty' and i get that, its okay if this doesnt work or if you dont want to take this. and i could've got it all wrong and you wernt asking for some dumba*s to share this and were just Sharing thoughts lol sorry if so cause i now waisted more time :(

@VampireRat
I think yeah, if you trick yourself into starting, the rest becomes easy. Starting is definitely the thing I struggle with the most.

What you said was very helpful, actually. Nothing wrong with giving advice

Also advice doesn't equal bad ego or a high and mighty attitude, are you having trouble with saying much without overthinking it right now? Or saying much without feeling bad

It's never too late to start!

@STaRdUst_dot_AI_0_1
Exactly

maybe.. i always end up making people mad or/and offended when i tell them what helps me. so i felt scared to give advice maybe?? i was worried you may have took it in a mean way and i didnt want to ruin anything between us. sorryy

@VampireRat
People often get upset when you give them unsolicited advice, but when it's welcome, it's welcome.
Proper contexts are important really.

@STaRdUst_dot_AI_0_1 yeah i can tell.. i just need to find out the ques on what, who or/and when i can say those things, its really really hard for me and i am definitely trying to figure out

@VampireRat

Well, I'm glad you're trying to improve
:D

Some ppl just really can't handle any kind of critisizm though.

@VampireRat
Yeah definitely I understand that, I guess different people react differently to things so saying what you think can get pretty scary at times. (':
I noticed some people almost think it's a truth that all people don't appreciate advice unless they ask

Luckily I love it when people give me advice or another perspective because I can think about something outside of how I think, so maybe I can get a step closer to finding a solution and get out of a thinking loop because of-

-my limited perspective on things.
(Basically I think too much lol)

And also don't worry, if you ever happen to say something that I don't like (I doubt it though) I'll just tell you without being angry or passive aggressive or anything.

But as well as that remember it's not your duty to change for anyone or anything.

Also yeah finding ques in conversations, especially online, can be so difficult because there's no real tone of voice in text, only slight hints but like full stop or exclamation mark could mean anything ;-;

thankyou so much for clearing the air, im glad to know i dont have to worry as much! you're such a gem from this dying world we live in, i feel like we would've been good friends in real life :)

yeah ikk ques are hardd but i am trying :c

@VampireRat
gjgh8v8h8 thank you, I always want to make sure ppl feel comfortable talking and im glad im doing it right thank youu

and yeah I bet we'd be really good friends irl

yw too (: