Doesn't do anyone any good to beat yourself down like that. I'm glad you've matured. Personally, I never noticed that about you, or at the very least, I never saw that side of you.
I don't mind receiving more than one request from the same person. My only issue is that time is a fleeting resource, and I don't have enough of it to get through all the things on my to-do list. this time around, I've been working on the ones I'm most inspired to do first, so I can more easily power through them. I am still considering your request, though to be blunt, I'm more inspired by some of the others. So it may be a while longer before I get to yours. That's just what I'm trying to do to avoid burn out. I hope you understand.

Also, everyone goes through that phase. We handle it differently, but I look back at my school days with some discontent as well. I wish I payed better attention to others. I wish I was more out going, and not so shut off from those around me.
But I think that's how life is meant to be. The fact that you can recognize yourself as better now is evidence of improvement. Never let that slip into stagnation. Retrospectives help us see things as we used to be, and if we learn from that, and change the principles that drive our behavior, we can take steady steps up an admittedly long and arduous road. But one that leads to a grand view of the valiant vistas around us.

Thanks Adjudicater, I just wanted to make a self reflective vent, and I'm happy I changed for the better as a person.
I also hope you enjoy working on the requests your making and stuff. Thanks for the kind words too man.