I do not know where it comes from, I'm allowed to do what I want but a block in my mind is taking away my autonomy to do normal life things like go to shop or walk around the block. If I lived on my own I wouldn't be like this.
It's stupid. I'm afraid to have autonomy so I daydream about autonomy. In doing that I'm stuck more, because I can go to the park inside my head instead.
I think it comes from fear of leaving, then coming back to accusations or yelling. Paranoid parent, you get the gist.

oh no hope u feel better soon.

oh ive missed you, i really hope you can heal and be safe for whatever is going on in your life. it kinda sounds like your prefrontle cortex is shut down, my mom had that happen for a vary long time and it kinda sounded/looked like that, she couldnt really take care of us much, i dont blame her, we all were going through stuff. take the time you need okay? dont feel like you have to come back fully here, i could be nice if you tasked yourself with something once a day or every other-

but im not an expert on you, so whatever you want to do is totally up to yoy and the only person who knows your body most and what you need is yourself, so its okay, rest up, please drink some water and eat every once in awhile. you got ths :)

@TielTail @yourfavorite
thank you all

@VampireRat
Thank you for your words, I do think I'm coming out of it now, it's happened once before in 2019 and it only seems to last a week or two, then it goes away.
I do want to post at least once every 4 days or so because I like this little site (:

i hope everything gets better soon

i feel that. cept that you have more freedom than i do, it seems... anyway, welcome back, friend

@Zombiedude12524
thank you friend

anytime, friend