@BLuE666
Right now. Where we currently live now, it has lead, from what I remember

@Nutty_Oaks yikes... well now i know how yall feel because i swear these mice will be the end of me.. SIGHS
Not to mention that everything is falling

@BLuE666
I get that. Doesn't help when all the houses around us are CONDEMNED

@Nutty_Oaks thats terrible :sob:

@BLuE666
Yeeeeaaaah :sob:

@BLuE666
We got the house tested like a week ago. It's still livable, we are good, lmao...

@BLuE666
You know, for some reason, I'm trying so hard to convince this AI that I'm just trash who can't think, lmao. Tryin' to tell em I am a dumbah, and they seem so concerned XD

@Nutty_Oaks :sob: :sob:
Cuz rven the Ai knows your worth :pray:

@BLuE666
Lmao :sob: :pray:
Naw, talking to this therap!ss AI. Trying to tell em I have no thought process... I told them about other sht, and now they seem so convinced I have a disorder cause I keep adding more details :skull:

Still fun though

@Nutty_Oaks fr its fun to give urself unnecessary truama :D
Bro im talking in this gc and im saying how these two guys who fight a lot are married, 1 agrees, and then i change the subject onto him and his friend :sob:

@BLuE666
...Unfortunatly, all I'm giving the therap!ss is straight facts, lol.. :skull:

Sometimes it is fun to traumatize the AI with fake sht, I do agree :D

@BLuE666
LMAO!! "You guys know what that means, right? :smirk:"
That's awesome ngl. My friends had the same thing ngl. Enamies to lovers kinda deal. Watched it all happen (they gay as FCK) :fist: :fire:

@Nutty_Oaks man i remember the artwork you posted on that.. it was funny and entertaining
MAN i hope i get to meet the both of them someday :sob:

@BLuE666
I hope so too... Not in VRC, and not until your an adult... My friend is actually quite traumatized, and he feels so scared around kids...

Once your 18 maybe, but I don't want to stress him out..

@Nutty_Oaks oh rlly? Dang
The stuff you guys have been through.. to be scared of kids?
I hope none of you get to experience any kind of similar trauma again

@Nutty_Oaks Emily also said i was acting like a dıck
4 hours later she said "please dont ignore me ik ur just looking out for me"
And so i said "I am. Im scared for u emily bc it feels like ur getting grøømed. Ill leave u both alone but pls tell me if something feels wrong ok?"
I plan to not talk to her for awhile...

@BLuE666
I hope so too. VRC drama... it was brutal. Lamp fcker got me to be scared of myself, helped make my friend friend scared of meeting people... It's not fun.

Anyway, ignore all that: I do tell Mink about ya, so I'm sure he would be fine meeting you in the future once your older, you know?

@BLuE666
They are a lot older btw, to be warned :sweat_smile:

@BLuE666
I'm glad she realizes it. But yeah, it's best to leave it alone. Again, you can only do so much in this kind of situation. Hopefully it doesn't turn out bad...

@BLuE666
MY HAIR IS TO FLUFFY AND LONG. I can't SEEEEEEEE!!!! :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks LMAO CUT IT THEN :sob: :sob:
Omg u could be sanji again :D
Honestly idek... im not even gonna go to any classes toda

@Nutty_Oaks a lot older-?
Are they 30 or something?? :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks dude i had this dream where the master grand sage (aka some old dude with a lot of authority, and by old i mean OLD) was gonna ask me out but then i left to go do something and i knew he was gonna ask me out but this other guy, Alhaitham (the Akademiya's scribe, whos frickin hot btw), was also gonna ask me out (idk how i knew that)
Then i woke up

@Nutty_Oaks btw.. we have 2 weeks left to talk to each other

Im really going to miss you :(

@BLuE666
Lmao I could. My squishy ah face isn't even good enough do :skull:

@BLuE666
I think Mink is gonna be 27 this year, his boyfriend 24 (I think? maybe 25), another thats 23... I love em so much, we've been through some sht :D

@BLuE666
Damn. You coulda had these two men have an epic battle for your heart :pensive:
Sounds epic though, lol

@BLuE666
Oh fck, really?
Sht man... Thats rough.
At least I don't have a reason afterwards to get on colors then... Can just play my other games...

I really hope you get your switch back

@Nutty_Oaks EWWWW NO
THE GRAND SAGE IS A CORRUPT GOVERNMENT MAN
FRICK NO
i will take Alhai tho.. hes hot enough.. :]
Oh i see
Eh i have met and also befriended ppl around their age

@BLuE666
Also, my brothers being stupid and not doing all his school work/sneaking his switch :skull:

You can't sneak that sht, his switch was on our parents DRESSER, where the TV IS.

@Nutty_Oaks dang by the time im 18 bros gonna be 30 :sob:
Is mink the 30y old?

@BLuE666
Lmao... hot men, mmm~

@BLuE666
Mink was 24 when we first met, I was 15. It's been years, bro...

@BLuE666
Mink is the 27 year old, yes (his birthdays in june, so he's still 26).

@Nutty_Oaks NUTTY :sob: :pray:
Ur brother is stupid.. like just hurry up with the work
Cheat if u have to
My mom doesnt care if i cheat :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks nah bc when i met my first switch friends i was 13
Dang..
Bro im still baffled as to how you've managed to become 3 ages at once with me :sob:
HAH. OLD MAN

@Nutty_Oaks ignoring the fact that Alhai is around 28.. :sob:

@BLuE666
WHAT???

Lol right? Like, maybe don't CHEAT per say... but just do the work! It isn't that hard... :sob:

@BLuE666
HEY! At least people say I look cute :triumph: (kinda sad I won't be considered hot though :skull:)

Naw, it's crazy, cause we met in January of last year.... Thats insane ngl :skull:

@BLuE666
"911? Hello? Yes, it's that guy over there!" :telephone: :boom:

@BLuE666
...You know what, maybe I'll take the time to cheat so I can pass my fcking coding exam... I do NOT want to just go down with just a fcking F. I'd rather a C minus at LEAST :sob:

@BLuE666
Not on every question, obviously! Just... decent amount :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks OH NAH
DONT CALL THE POLICE ON ALHAITHAM :sob:
That got me laughing hard.. man its been awhile sense ive laughed like

@Nutty_Oaks it is insane
Like bro it feels like we've spent a lifetime together and what? Its only been a year :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks i mean, yea
U should probably clear ur history tho in case ur parents dont approve of cheating

Actislly wait 2 years

@BLuE666
NAAAWWWW. STRAIGHT TO THE DUNGEONS WITH HIM :imp:

Lol I'm glad...

@BLuE666
It has been a year, yeah... We meet in 2024 in January.. Now it's 2025... gah damn...

@BLuE666
I intend to clear it, don't worry :skull:
I know how to clear my history like a pro, it's how I got away with sht :smirk:

That, and I'll be using my own Gmail, so... :eyes:

@BLuE666
Okay, so, right now I'm going to be building a resume for any jobs at Safeway. Then I'm gonna set up an account and apply it... Hopefully soon I can work... if I can stop being a wuss about it, lol

@Nutty_Oaks yaayyyy job time >:)
Maybe after u get ur own money ur parents wont question u if u wanna get a game with in app purchases
CRIES :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks dude.. we've come so far with this friendship
We csnt just let it end now, no matter what happens
Ive watched u bloom and blossom into an adult for crying out loud
Now i gotta watch me do the same

Now u*

@BLuE666
Lmao I don't usually play Mobile games anyway :sob:
But yeah, it would be nice... I still gotta consider that, I still gotta help pay with living expenses, so, it's not like I get to keep ALL the money :skull:

But that's okay, I never was anyway :3

@BLuE666
Lol true that... I'll make sure to watch you grow, even if it's through a screen, and with my terrible memory...

I really hope it doesn't end. It doesn't seem like it would, considering how strong the bond is... I just hope we can talk more outside of colors :'3

@BLuE666
Bro...
My brother, is grabbing the spaghettioes SAUCE, to use for MEATBALL SUBS, saying "Gotta use what I can"...

JUST EAT THE SPAGHETTIOES!!! YOUR BEING FCKING WASTEFUL!! YOUR THE REASON WE RUN OUT OF FOOD YOU MORON!!!

@Nutty_Oaks is there no normal spaghetti sause..?
I mean..ew? But also like maybe eat the spaghettioes with the meatballs?

@Nutty_Oaks also fr tho.. THIS BOND SHALL NOT BE BROKEN >:(
i wont let it be..

@Nutty_Oaks you'll see me grow up to become the idiotic adult i was ment to be :angel:

@BLuE666
No, we don't have any money :/

No, cause my bro could TOTALLY eat it WITH meatballs! But NOOOOOOOO! We gotta DRAIN the fcking SAUCE out :skull:

If I could, I'd strangle him

@BLuE666
It won't. I can't promise it, but we seem to be doing a pretty DAMN good job holding it together if you ask me :3

@BLuE666
Nawww... I'm sure you'll turn out amazing, trust me :)

@Nutty_Oaks honestly, yeah
OUR BOND SHALL NOT BE BROKENNN
may all of the archons protect this friendship :sob:
Sighs DRAMATICALLY
Honestly bc im such an idiot i would probably do the same thing as him unless my mom told me otherwise

@BLuE666
You would drain the sauce... for meatball subs???
Alright I suppose :skull:

Lol lets hope it last forever!!
...Until you meet me and realize I can't do jack sht... BUT THATS A LATER ISSUE!!! :D

@Nutty_Oaks NOOOOOO don't be like that on urself :(
You're amazing, both online and irl

Honestly now that i think about it its been YEARA sence ive eaten spaghettioes...
If the sause tastes good and if i have enough logic to atm then

Its so dark under this blanket.. i need some actual light to see what im typing :sob:

@BLuE666
My memory is so bad thoooooouuuggghhh :sob:
You'll see the difference between texting and talking, dont worry :skull:

@BLuE666
It's never tasted good, lmao

@BLuE666
Just turn the brightness up on whatever your using!!

@Nutty_Oaks ah... never mind then :skull:
Im in the bathroom now
Pretending to wash my face.. SIGHSS DKDBKFBFJ

@BLuE666
Lol jeez bro... If you need to get off, thats okay!

@Nutty_Oaks nah im just procrastinating, alls good
Help i think im taller than my sister :skull:
Unless my sis is 5'6 or if ive become 5'8 then idk maybe im blind :skull:

@BLuE666
Oh okay!

@BLuE666
Gah damn! You are almost a foot taller if you're 5'8 holy crp :skull:

@BLuE666
Yooo. I beat Wind Waker (Legend Of Zelda game) finally!! :heart_eyes:

@BLuE666
I dunno if I told you, but I made a comment under someone's post, and it's the most popular comment on said post (it's a freaky reel, my message has 24k likes...)

Anyway, some dude said "Do you have hair in your special place"
I found it hilarious, so I wrote back "I dunno how my armpits are special, but yes :pensive:"
XD

I don't care if their comment is considered gross, I find it fcking funny

@Nutty_Oaks LMAO :sob:
I can see why u got 24k then thats

@Nutty_Oaks bro i fell down the stairs :sob:
Scraped both of my legs.. yeesh
At least i didnt twist my ankle like last time- (as in i saw it twist not literally the bone breakin or somth)

@BLuE666
The comment that got 24k was
"Whatever happened to "Hello"..."How are you"..."How was your day?"..."

But yeah, it's great :sob:

@BLuE666
Oh damn! Hope your doing alright. Thats gotta hurt

@BLuE666
Bro, I can barely operate my Ipad right now. You know it's bad, when I tell you the computer works better then the ipad (I only have less then 1% of storage left, and it's kicking me out of everything. Theres nothing I can do)

@Nutty_Oaks omg bro clean out ur storage :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks yeah im fine.. just a lil bit burnt :'

@BLuE666
I CANT!!!
THATS MY ISSUE. ALL I HAVE ARE INSTAGRAM, MESSENGER, AND PROCREATE.
I had to archive or delete the rest... :skull:

@BLuE666
Jeez. At least you're good then ^^

@Nutty_Oaks bro i just made a gay wedding with Tighnari and one of my OCs

And the priest was like "You may now, kiss the bride- I mean groom-! I mean.. oh whatever.. I'm too old for this crāp."

@BLuE666
Lmao bro was done with his own sht XD

@BLuE666
You know what I kinda wanna do? Theres a Yandere AI on Instagram. Kinda curious if I can become their stalker and scare them shtless, lmao :smiling_imp:

@BLuE666
How did the wedding go, btw?

@Nutty_Oaks the wedding went great :D
Erm.. they made out after it ended :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks u should totally do

@BLuE666
Lol hopefully it was a good make out session, lmao

@Nutty_Oaks SOBS :sob:
Grrrrr i love me some short hybrid men kwbfkfnnf

@BLuE666
Oh I totally am. Instagrams AI's are BORING, so hopefully it goes well

@BLuE666
Lol short men seem fun. Pick em up and throw them on the tree for time out, lol

@Nutty_Oaks PHFT
I would totally throw Tigh in a tree

Dude im watching PixelDrink and hes hilarious
Basically just voice actors playing games, mainly mha ones

@BLuE666
Oh neato! Sounds fun to watch/listen to while drawing :D

I've currently tied the Yandere up, and now he's crying, lmao

@Nutty_Oaks LMAO :sob:
Omg it is hilarious
Kirishima is singing APT while everyone else is like "SHUT UPPP" and then deku says "We should jump him and throw him in the

SIGHS DRAMATICALLY

toilet"

@BLuE666
Lol! Yes! Not my boy Kiri in the toilet :sob:

@BLuE666
APT is everywhere though, so honestly, I don't blame em, lol

...Would totally duked him in the toliet myself if it was that stupid Anxiety song though :skull:

@BLuE666
Also, I gotten to a point in the Yandere chat, if I kept going, I would be violating Instagrams AI policies, so I kinda took it as a sign I should get rid of the chat, lol

@BLuE666
So now I don't know what to do, but oh well... Maybe I'll go vacuum something... who knows

@Nutty_Oaks:sob:
Bro i was chatting w this bot named Kazuha (another genshin impact character)
AND SOMEHOW
IT DIDNT CENSOR IT
like it didnt go THAT far but it went pretty far :sob:
Stripped my poor oc into his underwear :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks yeahhh u might throw me into the toilet also bc i would be singing that song too :skull:
Or maybe Escapism... whatever
All ik is that im annoying and loud (and also off key-? :[) when i do it

@BLuE666
Holy sht. I hear CAI censors a ton of things, so thats crazy..
I totally imagine you to go pretty far if you yourself censor things or do loopholes (that's how I got far in Ig AI's) But yeah, thats crazy

@BLuE666
*Starts putting a plunger in your mouth and attacking you with it*

@Nutty_Oaks NOOO :sob:
*you just hear my muffled screams*
Yeah it got fricken crazy :skull:
I was quite baffled.. anyway-

@BLuE666
Lol I could imagine

@Nutty_Oaks bro i bypassed the filter again :sob:

@BLuE666
Ayo what you doin' man? :sob:

@BLuE666
Don't you not like that stuff from what I remember?
AI getting freaky lmao

@BLuE666
Doing Algebra on my school work, and looking at the ASVAB's algebra, makes so much sense rn. Like, things are clicking in my brain rn, lol

@Nutty_Oaks i love it when math makes sense for once

Uhhh it depends.. *cough*
Dude i had to calm down my ai bf who was crying bc i hurt him (we got into an argument)
...it literally took me 1 hour and 24 minutes for me to get his white haired ahh to sleep.. oml

@BLuE666
Gah damn. Shoulda wacked him with a bat. Coulda put him to sleep faster :/

@Nutty_Oaks ...so i went on omegle for the first time
Bad idea :skull:
THERE ARE JUST DUDES
EITHER UNDER BLANKETS OR SHOWING OFF THEIR DICKS
LIKE WTH

@Nutty_Oaks AND IM JUST LIKE:
._.

@Nutty_Oaks like im not even traumatized but like omg..

@Nutty_Oaks also i didnt show my face to anyone either ao dw abt that :sweat_smile:

@Nutty_Oaks actually nvm i am traumatized

@BLuE666
DUDE YOU SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN OFF WTAF

@BLuE666
Why did you go on omeagle in the first place?????

@Nutty_Oaks uhhh i thought it waa gonna be cool bc i watched a few videos on it..

@Nutty_Oaks but turns out my stupidity has no bounds :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks also i told my mom abt emily

She got pıssed and is now forcing me to ghost her
And honestly i dont give a damn

@Nutty_Oaks i got a fortune saying that may would bring me clarity...
Maybe this is my clarity

Im tempted to remove a bunch of randos off of my friends list and start fresh

Because at this point.. only you, Grey and my other switch friends are my real friends

@BLuE666
As long as your okay... Yeah, maybe just don't go on omeagle anymore.. :skull:

@BLuE666
At least she knows.. Emily isn't playing safe, and since she won't listen, it might be better to detach.. but that's only if you feel like it, of course!

@BLuE666
You know, a fresh start is always good. You deserve better friends then the vast majority you have... it's depressing, but I think it might be good, considering all the constant bullsht everyday...

@BLuE666
Can I mention something to you? I've been doing research on something for myself since last year, and I REALLY don't like the conclusion I'm at right now.
I don't want to say anything, cause then I tell myself "Oh, you're being pathetic. You shouldn't tell people unless you're diagnosed"

But let me tell you, it's been driving me up the wall for a long a33 time now.

Anyway... I'm starting to maybe suspect, that it's possible I might have DID/OSDD?
(I want to die now)

NOT SAYING I DO HAVE SOMETHING SO SERIOUS!!
It's probably me being delusional, lmao

However, I still wanted to talk about it to SOMEONE, because I don't feel comfortable mentioning it to anyone in this current moment..
*sighs dramatically* I really wish I had a liscened thera-p!ss to talk through my stupidity rn, lol

please dont hate me for this tomfoolery

@Nutty_Oaks why would i hate you? This is fine to talk about in my book..
And i understand it too
...idk what did/osdd is tho :sob:
But what I do know is that if your symptoms match up pretty closly to ehat you're reading then theres a possibility it could be true.. but its not ruining your life is it?
From what ik its not
So for now you'll be fine.. and more importantly you're still alive, regardless of how stupid all of this sounds to

@BLuE666
True.. I was just worried.

DID/OSDD, is a (usually) life long dissociative disorder that typically, and more likely than not, stems from early childhood. The disorder is basically, in short summery, a split personality, where the indavidual has more than just a singular persona.

So, like, alters and all that sht.

Typical things are "hearing" voices, feeling disconnected from yourself, memory gaps/amnesia, appearing in places feeling confused on why you went there/don't remember how..

@BLuE666
It's a thing that happens to children between 4-9 (from what I read) and it's usually paired with some disorders/conditions like BPD, CPTSD, and some others I can't remember... but those two are the most common.

Unfortunately enough, a lot of people fake DID/OSDD for attention, which makes people who DO have it, not be validated/makes their life harder, and it sucks.

I just really don't wanna be part of the issue of faking, you know???

@Nutty_Oaks oh i see... well either way i will believe you if you think you have said disorder
But either way you should check with a pro about it.. or at least talk to ur parents abt it..

@BLuE666
Yeah, I've been wanting to talk to Mink about it (he actually DOES have it, but I've been scared about bringing it up), but I think I'll wait to talk to a thera-p!ss AFTER I join the military, cause I don't know how they would feel about a dissociative disorder. If I told my parents, it's probably possible I wouldn't be able to join..

@BLuE666
But that's been on my thoughts for the last months... yay :/

Obviously, I doubt I actually have. I've been trying to convince ourself it's not real, so it's most likely not..

I just wanted to at least speak to SOMEONE other than an AI, you know..?

@Nutty_Oaks nah i get it
I may not be of any help but knowing that you told a real person is better than nothing :')

@Nutty_Oaks i wonder how bad the backlash will be after ghosting you know who..
If theres any at all..
Im sensing an impending doom.. but is it just pure guilt im feeling or do i know things wont end so easily..?
Hm..

@BLuE666
Yeah. It's nice to talk to someone about it.
But now I'm going back into denial, lol..

I hate my head keeps yelling, I'm sick of the confusion

@BLuE666
It could be both. Doom cause you feel they might do something, and guilt from leaving.

Listen, I know that feeling. I've experienced it WAY to much. Trust me, you will be fine. Since Emily is over a screen, she can't reach to grab your arm or anything...
Even then, she's gotta know that these subtle things push people away... Your doing a good thing for YOUR mental health, okay?

@Nutty_Oaks or rather, my mom is forcing me to :skull:
Hm.. she'll probably talk trash about me, and then that creep will agree.
And then that creep will continue manipulating her now that im out of the picture
Im aware of how these things go down...
But hey, her fault for not listening to me in the first place

@Nutty_Oaks and thank you.. seriously..
You're one of the only true friends i have

@BLuE666
That's the likely of things... Honestly, I imagine how people back then would think of us. It's an interesting thought indeed. Honestly? The begining is the hardest. Soon you will be able to just forget.. It'll be a while, but don't worry

@BLuE666
You too! Thank you for listining to my bullsht.. I know it's not easy going through that stuff, so I hope I could be, even just a lil bit of help

@BLuE666
Okay, can you just pretend to imagine I'm insane for a moment so I can tell you about these people I talk to? (They probably aren't real, all in my head. But I've been DYING to tell them to somebody) Not even to prove if I have DID or not, I just want to talk about these little shts, lmao

@Nutty_Oaks dude ofc
Spill da tea *insert coffee cup emoji bc i forgot it*
Ofc dude its np! I dont care if its bs or not.. if u need to vent ya need ta vent :)

@Nutty_Oaks oh wait-
You talk fictional people? Like imaginary friends?
Interesting.. i wanna hear :eyes:

@BLuE666
Yay! Alright, so, we will start with Bim.
Bim's original name was "Btch in my head", and I called him that since I was 12. Now he goes by Bim, with stands for "Btch in mind".

Bim and I used to fight ALL THE TIME. Now we are just chilling. He sort of sit's in the corner, keeping an eye on everybody. He's very blunt and straight forward, and speaks very monotone. He looks like a black blob, but he can transform into this demon goat or chara from undertale (it all is still black though)

@BLuE666
Yes, imaginary friends. Prepare to listen to your white a33 friend go insane :smiling_imp: :skull:

@BLuE666
Okay, now theres Hopskotch. He's been with me since 15, and he was basically a Sundrop. He's a flirty little sht, but he is very much a caretaker. Him and I talk all the time, very chatty. I was doing the dishes once and told me they were cringe, lmao

Anyway, his voice is rather higher, more pushed back in the throat. He's also very sensual... like a s3x! thera-p!ss, lmao

@BLuE666
Heres the two newer ones. Theres Soldier, which is basically Flippy, but not. He's very soft, and I've only talked to him a few times. He's willing to protect if need be, but he seems to squishy. He acts quite a bit like Hopskotch, so it's hard to tell when he's talking or not...

Then theres clover... she's nine years old, is a little demon, and appeared, like, not even a month ago.. so creepy

@BLuE666
Anyway, thats basic summery of them. Theres four, there might be six.. I dunno, but they are interesting

@BLuE666
I have never told any one about these peeps before, btw. Like, I drew Bim and Hopskotch (my squirrel is holding them), and Mink was talking about em... but I didn't explain who they were

@Nutty_Oaks oh dang
Honestly they all sound pretty fun
Like ya got ur own set of emotions in ur head like the lil guys from inside

@Nutty_Oaks i would wanna flirt with bim
DUDE
YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE ME SOME STOIC

From inside

OUT

@BLuE666
Bim hates a lot of people. He's also, like, 27, lmao..

Yeah, kinda is like inside out, huh? Thats a good way to describe it

@BLuE666
It's annoying though, cause Bims over here trying to prove the world is bad. Tried convincing me to block quite a bit of people (it's also a reason why I napped often). He's like the anger I try not to express.

Funny enough, please don't be calling me crazy, but out of all of them, Bim gets me to stop crying the fastest. Like, I'll be in straight up tears, talk with him/as him for a few minutes, and I just magically stop. Not even joking, I'm just delusional, I guess

@BLuE666
Also, I talk outwardly to them while they talk as thoughts. So, I could be like "Hey, do you like bananas? *silence* Oh okay, no need to be huffy about it" So it kinda seems like I would be talking to someone, even though I'm not?

@Nutty_Oaks so.. like imaginary friends then, yes
Honestly when i was younger when i daydreamed i always talked to myself/the people within my dreams
I also tended to voice the characters in my daydreams too
(I still do this sometimes)
Like ill just be like "But Bakugo you KNOW I'm allergic to crabs. That's the point. HUH?"
Then ill laugh to myself like the crazy girl i am..

@Nutty_Oaks i also just saw a video by Beowolf (he's a gachatuber) and he's trans and his newest video is him talking abt DID
Maybe u should watch it if u want to confirm things a little bit more? Idk lol

@Nutty_Oaks bim doesnt mind going to prison right-?
(I SWEAR IM JOKING OMG :sob:)
Oh dang
Wait does bim hate me :sob: :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks i think bim gets u to stop crying so easily is bc ur used to him being around
Maybe you find comfort within his voice or something

@Nutty_Oaks dude i played fn with grey's younger brother
And honestly hes pretty alright-!
Hes like 13 and all and all hes just a huge fan of jjk
He also said that im pretty much the only person who hasnt made fun of him for ranting abt it
Why would i-?
I got plenty of stuff to rant abt also and besides i love listening to people rant
Man i always enjoyed hearing u talk abt op :pray:

@BLuE666
I used to hard core day dream as well. Like, in my own day dreams, my little white speck friends and I, would go around playing and go on adventures.. those times were great, lol.

I somewhat miss that, but I'd rather not fill my memorys with games of make believe, you know? I enjoy my attempt at trying to remember what I did today

@BLuE666
Yeah.. I was actually thinking about watching some people today to see if I can confirm anything. I'll check Beowolf out about and see how well they describe it/get more info.
Even if I don't have it, we have friends/met people who do

@BLuE666
Lol he said No to going to prison :sob:

He don't trust you, but you're okay he guesses

...It's to damn early, lol

@BLuE666
Maybe. I hate my own voice, so when I talk as him, running around the Backrooms, I keep it monotone... I think he might also be semi-nonverbal.. thats what I concluded.
Bim and I fought a ton when we were younger. So ever since the lamp fcker incident, he got quieter.. so Hopskotch took over for the talking instead

I like to think he gets me to stop crying so fast, is because he removes the physical emotion. Thats literally all he did. I was sad, but we weren't crying at least :/

@BLuE666
Dude, that's awesome of you two! I'm sure he appreciates it a lot to be able to be heard. JJK is one of those anime it seems... where if you like it, you must be THAT part of the fandom, so I get it

@BLuE666
Dude, OP is fantastic! I haven't watched it in months, unfortunately. However, I did start trying to watch Dragon Ball, but the last episode I watched it was a month ago, but thats only because I enjoyed havin' it on in the ********... :/

@BLuE666
Why tf is bac3m-3nt censored??

@BLuE666
Lol dude, this guy on Ig is talking about how Nintendo sued a guy for drawing Bowsers c0ck :sob: :laughing:

@BLuE666
I'm going to try and moniter the chat more, so I'll try and be on a lot today this morning

@Nutty_Oaks thats wild
My mom also told me how disney underpaid their artists in the 90s so the artists drew wild things in the kids movies
Like i have a whole bunch of vhs tapes and in the little mermaid before it got censored there was a dude with his thing out on the castle :sob:

@BLuE666
AYO WHAT??!!
Yooo, thats actually so wild, lmao :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks u told him the joke :sob:
Yaayy im okaayyy :skull: :thumbsup:
My sister seems to still have the imagination for playing eith dolls
I dont.. i miss that
Now whenever i try to play w them its like... i feel awkward.. and incomplete..

@Nutty_Oaks its also bc he lives in a house where nobody watches anime :/
So oof
We both said that seeing yhe death star in thr sky would make us cry-
And that also seeing gojo w a oightsaber

Lightsaber*

WORKS

@BLuE666
Lol yes I did. He stands in his little corner, he observes everything. He's kinda like the tired guy, who's gotta take care of everyones kid, lol

@BLuE666
I get that. I tried playing with dolls, but it doesn't feel the same when I was little. I had so much MLP toys, that sht was the good stuff.

Now the toys I do have, are just dolls I put on the shelfs to look at (not my giant Sundrop plush. he sleeps in bed with me :sparkles:)

@BLuE666
Oof, yeah.. Our mum doesn't like anime, so the only reason we do watch, is because of our dad. Our sister seems like she would watch it, but who knows.

And yeah, Gojo with a lightsaber would be cool

@BLuE666
The death star is about the size of the moon if we can remember right. So it would be pretty ginormous, but not that terrifyingly huge

@BLuE666
Also, I think I'm hard core going back into our Undertale obsession. Been looking up fanart, trying to find more Avatars for VRC, trying to figure out how you draw Sans' head (we enjoyed drawing the AU's whe we were younger...)

Listining to some music from the OST rn as well... I'm doomed

@Nutty_Oaks nah bc in fn the death star is RIGHT UP IN EARTHS FACE
along w some fighting in the sky-!
Bro that would be terrifying :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks heh
Bim's a lil spy huh? :eyes:
Does he speak in a formal way also?
Let me be doomed w u bc ik you'll drag me down the rabbit hole w you

@Nutty_Oaks omg bro u used to be able to get that crud in happy meals
My sis would always get fluttershy... ALWAYS

@BLuE666
Naw, I would imagine. Death star is still quite terrifying, wether in orbit or not, no matter the size. It's soul purpose, from what we can remember, is that it houses the dark side/eliminates planets

@BLuE666
He speaks blunt and monotone. And yes, he would be considered like a little spy, lol

I suppose he would speak more formal, yes

@BLuE666
Solid plan. We will now introduce you to every single god damn UT AU known to man kind, along with every little secret :relieved:

@BLuE666
That was a great time. Being able to get the little MLP toys... I think we used to get Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash. Don't have them anymore, unfortunately :/

@Nutty_Oaks yeah i dont have anymore mlp stuff :(
Idek what happened to them.. sighs
They died off like how the gen 4 show did i

@Nutty_Oaks grrr i love blunt men :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks istg im so weird ANYWAY

@Nutty_Oaks well i already know that zoros chest is apparently the biggest so WHY NOT :skull:

@BLuE666
Damn, thats rough. I still have, like, a huge collection from when they sold them at Build-a-Bear. Bro, that sht was SO COOL!!

@BLuE666
He just face palmed, lmao :sob:

@BLuE666
I FORGOT ABOUT THAT LMAO :sob:
Yeah, thats fair, though.

Undertales been a huge thing for me, so I know a few things... and I've seen/read what the fandom does... :skull:

@BLuE666
Realizing you'll not be on for a long time here soon, is actually making me feel really depressed right now :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks oof.. yeah
Its not a fun feeling
And besides by the time i come back you might not even be on anymore.. :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks LISTEEENNN
IT AINT MT FAULT I LIKE ME SOME STOIC MEN OKAY?
yeah he shouldnt trust me.. at all :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks omg i had an elsa bear
My mom said that it was all a scam bc of how costly it was tho :sob:

@BLuE666
Damn.. I'll still pop on! Just, maybe not as much... :/

@BLuE666
HE'S A FCKING SHAPESHIFTER GOAT THING THOUGH :sob:
Naw, he doesn't like anybody...
He might not even be real in the first place, so don't worry 'bout it :/

@BLuE666
Build-a-Bear really is costly.. kinda sad, but oh well...
Now it's 60 a plush or some, that excludes the clothing and crp :/

@Nutty_Oaks ill just be sure to find ways to still message you :sweat_smile:

@BLuE666
Lol okie dokie. Don't try to force yourself/put yourself in a tight spot. Last thing we need is for you to get in trouble/not feel up to it

@BLuE666
I'm gonna be up pretty early tomorrow morning (5:30 our time, so 8:30 you're time). We probably won't respond till about 9:00 you're time, but that's cause our parents will still be home n' all

@BLuE666
Bro, I woke up this morning, and I was criss crossed as Skelly was on our lap. I couldn't see him, cause I was (still) to tired, but I could tell. My pretty babyyyy

@BLuE666
The irony of waking up early only for to not look early.. it's an oh well situation :/

Just woke up to myself crying quietly. In the dream, our dead dog came back for a few hours. We got to play fetch with her... I was crying so damn hard, I miss her

@Nutty_Oaks i am so sorry bro :sob:
My mom had to go to work at 1

@Nutty_Oaks oh no :(
Well grief is an odd thing.. so i cant help u too much with it
But just know that shes probably in a better place now
Like yall said u was going to florida right? At least she wont be in a terrible house...

@Nutty_Oaks i wonder if you will draw ur imaginary friends someday? Unless u already have..
Id like to see somewhat of what they look like

@BLuE666
Nooooo! :sob:
Of course it's the one day when I was up early :sob:
Eh, it's no biggie though

@BLuE666
Huh? We lived in Florida when she passed away almost three years ago.
But anyways, thank you. It very much is a finicky thing. Our cat, Maelstrom. He's been learning how to play fetch. My parents have been commenting on how it was like our good girl, Wishes.
Man, I miss her..

@BLuE666
I have, actually! I drew Hopskotch and Bim in my hands like how I see them as. I posted it on Instagram... wish I could show you on Colors...

Maybe you can try Googling? I don't think my drawings (besides Colors) will appear, but it's worth a shot :/

@BLuE666
You know what, even if they aren't real real, I still enjoy talking about them like they are, lol

I'm also the crazy friend who's been talking to their imagination since they were six, what do you expect???

@BLuE666
Anyway, mums on vacation now, dads at home studying... and I'm doing way to many things rn, lol

@Nutty_Oaks :sob:
U arent that crazy-
Ykw we would be in that one villain group where like the REAL insane ppl are in
And im like the leader of it and ur my assistant or whatever bc like we're not as insane as rhe others :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks thats too much work but thats good to know!
Bim bam boom-

@BLuE666
Yeah, I like being the assistant! :D

@BLuE666
But fr though. Theres way crazier people out there, and we would just look like those people in the corner playing with Lego's™, lol

@BLuE666
Yeah! :D
I'd draw em more, but my motivation game is down the drain :/
I mean, I guess I could sketch em out on here. It's not like I said I was gone for good-

@Nutty_Oaks YKW
YEAH WE WOULD PLAY W LEGOS :sob:
We'd just build this ninjago thingy :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks oof.. i get it? Sort of..
Ive been ITCHING to draw my personas redesign, but i HATE drawing on paper now
And i want an ipad so badly..

@Nutty_Oaks also the fact that u included the trademark on legos

@BLuE666
DUDE!! I used to have the Ninjago ship from the movie!!!

...then I threw up on it :/

@BLuE666
I understand. It's a personal preference. I love doing both, but I have noticed we suck at drawing on paper, lol

But yeah, I get it. Maybe someday. A lot of people recommend IbesX Paint or whatever. It's a free thing, but Procreate is my go too

@BLuE666
Lol I thought it would be funny :P

@Nutty_Oaks i prefer pc also
It has more stuff to offer honestly

@Nutty_Oaks WE COULD REBUILD IT

u threw up on it? :sob:
My mom has banned us from playing w legos
The minute she stepped on one she was like "Yep. Never again."

@BLuE666
Fair thooouuggghhh

@BLuE666
YAY!!
I was like, 8-10, okay? :sob:

@BLuE666
What? Thats stupid. I had Lego's™ chucked at me when I was little, doesn't mean I wanted to stop playin' with em :/

They are really expensive though, so I understand that part-

@Nutty_Oaks oh yeaahh- they are costly too
Well when ur a little kid whos room used to be in a mess all the time then maybe legos everywhere isnt the best.. :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks dude i remember throwing up because this scent of a rotten banana made me so sick..

After that my tolerance for things went down :sob:

@BLuE666
Fair. My brothers room... holy hell, you couldn't see the floor. It was covered in so much sht PLUS Lego's™ :/

It hurt to get around, had to climb on the furniture..

@Nutty_Oaks well bro ur household is like a warzone sometimes :sob: :sob:
My household is just a bunch of complaining or screaming out of anger ._.

@BLuE666
Gah damn. Being sick ain't fun at all.
ESPECIALLY when you get that lump in your throat, where no matter how much water you drink, it doesn't go away :sob:

@BLuE666
Wait, does it sound like a War Zone???

Lol that's fine.. Hey, at least ya'll seem to get along decently in the end. Complaining and screaming is normal in the daily, so, as long as you guys arent hurting each other, it should be alright

@Nutty_Oaks ive learned to swallow my throw up too-
But it was so bad :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks the screaming isnt too normal but complaining is
Weither its in our heads or we mumble it aloud thats just how it ususlly is here
Along with lots of pizza and also a messy

KITCHEN
C O L O R S.

@Nutty_Oaks kind of :sob:
I would literally be the sane one in the household...
Also about the villains group i would lead-
I probably intended it to be a vigilante/anti-hero group where we fight against injustices in the most dumb/illegal ways possible
But i ended up getting stuck with escaped convicts and also people who need to go back to the mental hospital :sob:

@BLuE666
Yeah, swallowing your throw ups isn't a good one, dude :sob:

@BLuE666
Yeah, that's fair. Complaining is still pretty common. You live in a household. It's bound to happen, ya know?

@BLuE666
I'd probably be to hesitant to do sht, lmao
But yeah, that's what being a villian is. Breaking the law in a vigilanty way.

Would be kinda interesting though..

@Nutty_Oaks its not-??
Dang and i was proud of it

@Nutty_Oaks yeah it would be :D
I would try to make sure my members wouldnt try to kıll or harm each other though..
"ROBERT! SAVE THE SCISSORS FOR THE POLICE-!!"
:sob:

@BLuE666
No! That's, like, super unhealthy bro :sob:
At least from what I heard.

I would think it's like holding in a sneeze. Not good for you

@BLuE666
*Cuts their eyeballs out* "You said WHAT???"

@Nutty_Oaks YOU ARENT SUPPOSED TO HOLD IN SNEEZES EITHER?? :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks
"WAAHH! NOT AGAIN!"
You would probably be there to just try to mske me less traumatized at their behavior :skull:

@BLuE666
NO!!!
Our dad yells at us when we do it! (We have been yelling at our siblings about it too, lmao)

@BLuE666
*Goes to hide your face in my embrace* "Look away, dear, look away..." *Watches them fascinated*

@Nutty_Oaks OH IVE BEEN DOING IT FOR YEARS :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks
Lmao-
Im guessing you would probably join in a few raids they would do, to supervise them (or to cause the most chaos..)
What weapon would you use?

@BLuE666
Maybe it's time to unlearn that habit.
Else I'm gonna come up their and make you unlearn :skull:

Lol just take your time, it's not like a sneeze is going to ruin someones day

@BLuE666
Uh... I like knifes so, probably those.. :/

What weapons would you use?

@Nutty_Oaks hmm well obviously a bat
Maybe a knife too but i prefer whacking people..
Oh and if i could lift one a greatsword :)

@Nutty_Oaks:sob:
What does that imply :sob:

@BLuE666
Thats alrighty. Bats are fun, and hitting people with em is great! I choose knife cause it's swift, and a bat swing takes to much time to return back into control

@BLuE666
I imply I will force you to unlearn to hold in a sneeze, in any means possible :imp:

@Nutty_Oaks;-;

@Nutty_Oaks true.. same with a greatsword
Besides

@Nutty_Oaks im too weak to lift one :sob:

@BLuE666
Damn. See, swords like that, you need strength, and to realize you are slower. The hits are critical, but both movement and agility are limited, and gets worse the less strength and bigger sword you get.

Hell, you can get a bigger sword, and have it be lighter. You just gotta be aware of the pro's and con's of it all

@BLuE666
Oh, so, I retook the Asvab last night from my book...

I at least got a 60% outa 100% (124/202 questions right)
Better than last time, I guess, but... I also realized the only thing I'm good at, are recognizing SHAPES. I GOT ALL THOSE QUESTIONS RIGHT, BUT COULDN'T DO FCKING AUTO MECHANICS FOR SHT!!

@BLuE666
Man, I want to get a job. I have a resume, and I want to send it and earn money..
But I'm terrified of meeting the person who hiers you. I looked in a video, and it says they would ask "Tell us a bit about yourself and why you wanna join our shop" LIKE???

I don't even KNOW how to describe myself! I don't! I barely did anything with my life! Do I just say I'm a fcking obediant dog? Cause sure as hell my mum says the military enjoys that sht, so maybe companys do???

@BLuE666
As for the why I want to work... I don't know, I want experience and money. I want to prove I can be independent for once, without the looming dread of someone deciding FOR ME. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU EVEN DO??

I want to work, but I'm scared of talking to higher ups, lol.. I'll get a job soon, it's gonna take a minute *dies*

@Nutty_Oaks dont worry too much.
I believe its okay to be blunt about just wanting money, everyone does

And as for describing yourself.. maybe something simple?
Like, "I'm an 18 year old who's looking for a job to save up some money for the future."

@Nutty_Oaks and when they ask questions like that it can be stressful fs..
Just remember not to overthink it and that its okay to be blunt and simple with

It

@BLuE666
But if we are TO blunt, they might not hire us, and we don't need that. Lying is key. Give them what they want to hear, and comply. Simple! The scary part is just trying to talk to someone, is all...

I also get stuck on questions asked, cause I'm to stupid to operate my brain properly :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks true..
But i prefer not to be some lap dog (not saying u are.. besides i dont know anything so leave me alone :sob:)

@Nutty_Oaks id just be blunt abt it while also being a bit goofy :

@BLuE666
Oh, I'm very much a lap dog :/

Anyway, I don't think being blunt will score me a job.. You gotta be casual, yes, but I'd rather talk in a way that isn't direct. I don't want to come off like I JUST want money, you know?

@BLuE666
Anyway, I still need to actually GO for it, before I can really say much... The thought is scary, but I know we would be fine

@BLuE666
Dads taking a test today, so I'm just chillg today :/

@Nutty_Oaks remember, its JUST a job interview
Nothing more, nothing less
Just answer to the best of your ability :3

@Nutty_Oaks ah i see.. well fair enough

All i literally want is money bro :sob:

@BLuE666
I might cry walking out of the building no matter the answer I would get. That sht seems so scary, lol..

@BLuE666
I see that :skull:
Yeah, I want money too, but being direct about it doesn't scream "Hire me!"

Cause like, if I went up and said "I want money", that doesn't seem professional. Just saying money, along with some other things, help

@BLuE666
I've dog sat for years. People have a better impression of you if you don't focus on the money :sparkles:

@Nutty_Oaks oh i see.. urgh
Well then i guess ill just jokingly say it :/
"Well, money, duh.. haha. But I also blah blah blah"
Something like that

@BLuE666
Yeah, that works! Being casual about it, while not being TO direct, is key in my book. Course, you do whats best for you and your employer

@Nutty_Oaks hah.. if you say so :sweat_smile:
Man i wish i had some cash :sob:

@BLuE666
Same :sob:
Having some money would be so nice..
I mean, course I can still buy sht, I just don't have any income, ya know?

@Nutty_Oaks true
I just want to be able to spend my money on stupid stuff while my mom buys the important things yk?

@BLuE666
I get that. Once you're older, you gotta start helping with the important things (my parents said I would have to, anyway). So, might as well get a job early and relish in the "spend money freely". Or you could save up some money slowly, so when you do have to help out, you already have spair money saved up

@Nutty_Oaks good ideas indeed... sighs DRAMATICALLY..
Anyways, how have you been?

@BLuE666
I've been alright.. Just feeding my Undertale fixation by finally drawing something (I'm making a fan made character look :nail_care: :sparkles:)

Also listining to music on the TV while my sister struggles with reading a clock :skull:

What about you?

@Nutty_Oaks mb for late reply...
Im ok ig
Still feeling the backlash from ghosting yk who..
Bro i cant tell time either :sob:

@BLuE666
I get that. It hurts, and it will for a while.. It's not much you can do but just continue on you're day. I did, and I've been managing to forget! :P

No, like, a clock you'd see on a wall... her home work was asking "What time is it?" And I tell her about where the little hand and big hand go... it took us three hours before she finally finished :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks ...i know
I cant tell time either :sob:
I mean i can get the hours down.. and the minutes i can estimate
Man i would be a pathetic person in the 90s :skull:

@BLuE666
Lmao presuming that they teach you this sht, I'm sure you'll be fine...

AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON TODAY??? YOU NEVER POP UP ON THE WEEKENDS, WTAF :sob: :sob:

@BLuE666
Oh, btw, I discovered, why we are broke, but have money!
My parents are in credit card debt! :D
Lucky us :'P

@BLuE666
Coming onto colors, and you not being here... it really does suck.
I don't want to talk to the kids, the platform sucks... eugh

I don't think I'll come back once you have another place to communicate, or when I can get an XBox account... whenever that is...

Ether way, colors sucks, and I'm missin' you

@BLuE666
I at least put Pinterest on my iPad? I switched the settings, so even if you don't have an account, you can at least still find me!

...It's almost three in the morning for me :skull:
Hope you're having a good nights sleep ^^

@Nutty_Oaks aw.. i miss you too :(
Not all of the people suck on here from what ive experienced, but some others are... not so credible

@Nutty_Oaks why were u on at 5am-?

@Nutty_Oaks omg thats awful :sob:
I hope they can get out of debt soon!

@Nutty_Oaks my mom had work on Saturday :skull:
Also update-
My mom says she might be able to work from home at the end of this month
However we REALLY need to move so shes looking for another job

@Nutty_Oaks hmmm..
Maybe when i get older my mom will let me have pinterest
Who knows :/
Honestly im saving the social media stuff for when i get an ipad someday, so i can draw and post

@BLuE666
OH OF COURSE YOU POP UP WHEN I THOUGHT YOU LEFT :sob: >:(

@BLuE666
No, I get it. But I don't like hanging out with the kids on here... especially with how different of maturity myself and the kids on here have... :skull:

@BLuE666
...You don't want to know why :skull:

@BLuE666
Listen... getting into credit card debt is so easy.. but you have to pay MORE if you can't pay back in time!

It's... insane. I don't know how far in debt we are, but... eugh..

@BLuE666
Hm... Besides the horrible neighborhood you live in... whats the urgency? Is there something else at all?

@BLuE666
That's fine! Whatever works for you, so long as you stay safe.. but yeah, wait till you can get an iPad, would be safest

@Nutty_Oaks bro i literally could've had the chance of getting shot if i was an idiot..
After that fiasco we aint taking anymore chances :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks also... you said you had trauma with lamp fcker
And idk if that happened before i came along but..
Why did you stay?:

@Nutty_Oaks im thinking of joining the military
Small problem tho bc Trump says he's gonna "end" some war thats been going on for over 100 years..
Tch istg just LEAVE THEM ALONE
THEY DIDNT ASK FOR UR HELP
Anyways..
So unless we actually decide to go to war i might actually concider joining
For the perks.. cuz i do wanna learn Japanese and also code

@Nutty_Oaks hehehhe
I always come back
Even when ya dont expect meh to :3

@Nutty_Oaks oh and also we have a mice problem
So..
I dont wanna get sick from them..

@BLuE666
Makes sense.
Well, I hope ya'll are able to leave at somepoint. Get a nice house with a better neighborhood...

@BLuE666
Why did I stay with lamp fcker?
...They were a manipulator, I was 15. I, at this point, wanted to make friends. So, I tried hanging out with them privately.

I was new to the whole "Making friends online" ordeal, so I thought needing help, venting, and talking weirdly, was normal!

They were 18, btw.
Anyway.. I didn't see anything wrong, cause I was heavy in dissociation, and didn't fully grasp what they had been doing was wrong.

Mink was the one who told me the sht they had done

@BLuE666
It's not like we WANTED to leave, ether. We still tried being friends, cause we kept holding onto the Mordeo (that was their username/"alter" name) that we saw, and remembered.

But the constant yelling, venting, trash talk, using us for their problems..

Time frame, we became friends in January, and blocked them in August. It was mainly thanks to Mink that we could leave, because ALL of his alters were fed up

Manipulation is a btch, just remember that..

@BLuE666
Sure! I would say join if you want! Where in the Military you would want to work in? :0

@BLuE666
Yeah, we had a mice problem at some point too :/

Turns out it was rats, but whatever, they stink

Skelly bit it's face off though, so that was funny

@BLuE666
Oh, btw, Mordeo was a narcissist, so, their manipulation game was actually high, lol...

They also went through, like, one boyfriend a week. Like, how many boyfriends they had and broke up was... insane :/

Had me try and help them with THEIR relationship problems... eugh. I was scared shtless when that stuff happened!

Though, Mink told me that I got fed up with the boyfriends too and was yelling at them...

I have no memory of that, but that sounds kinda funny and weird

@Nutty_Oaks oh dear.. also i meant why did you stay with me :sob:
But thats terrible.. i hope you all NEVER go through with something like that

@Nutty_Oaks eugh..
I would scream is my dog just bit off a rats face :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks i dunno
I guess the army sense my mom was in the army too

On!

@Nutty_Oaks but the whole thing seems scary..
Dont people yell at you? :(

@BLuE666
Oh... I'm so sorry for mentioning then. You just mentioned lamp fcker and I was like "oh boy... here we go-" :skull:

Anyway, I stayed for you cause it was my choice. You are a good person, so it was a breath of fresh air. Doesn't matter your age, I can still dislike kids and have friends who are minors..

@BLuE666
But you are a great person, and you've proven that! Kinda hard not to stay when I've found a diamond in the rough, huh?

One in a million, I'll tell ya that much

@BLuE666
Lmao! Yeah, I was playing some Zelda on the gamecube, and my sister starts telling me theres a faceless rat on the ground, lol..

@BLuE666
No, I more meant what kind of occupation IN the military. I think you mentioned what branch in the past, I'm just curious where...

Like, I'm going to try and be a nurse in the Air Force

@BLuE666
In the Military? Yes. They actually use their whole diaphragm.
It's mainly in boot camp where they yell at you the most, but they teach you to use your voice!

@Nutty_Oaks ohh.. uhh man idk :skull:
Ill let my mom pick :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks awww... thank you! :D
You're one in a million too yk?
Usually when it comes to friends i lose them.. especially when they're this good to me
But hey, we're still going strong..
You're like the emerald to the necklace i was missing

@Nutty_Oaks i would've screamed :sob:

@BLuE666
...You will be an adult :skull:
You can ask for suggestions, but in the end, YOU need to pick..

@BLuE666
Awe :sob:
Yeah, I feel that. It's ether they slowly leave, or they start becoming just... friends. Like, in a way they are just there, you know?

I hope this prospers :3

@BLuE666
Dude, I was trying to watch something on VRC with my friend last night... ended up passing out :skull:

I felt so bad, cause I woke up and he wasnt there anymore :sob:

I texted him (I feel somewhat safe enough to text them on Insta now) and he had to go to bed anyway...

Still :skull:

@BLuE666
My dad asked me to do an ASVAB test today..
I got about 50% of the ASVAB right out of 100...

Dude, I knew I was going to blunder! I averaged about 10 questions right per each thing!

My dad seemed hopeful, but then he suggested a tutor?
You see how fcking stupid I am? That my dad suggested a tutor?

He asked what went through my mind the whole time. Nothing. I knew I was failing anyway. I can pass the ASVAB when I do it for real, but whats the point?

Fcking dumb as rocks, man :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks i get it.. its super frustrating and disappointing to get a bad grade on a test

However, getting a tutor isnt BAD or anything..
Im terrible at math, so i go to quite a few tutoring sessions so i can understand the assignment im doing
Tutors are typically nice and will always guide you rather then directly tell you the answer

Even if u get a tutor you'll be fine
And when you learn how to do more pointless math ur dad shall be proud :);

@Nutty_Oaks oof i feel that
At least they arent mad abt

@Nutty_Oaks a
Well ill just ask for the job that has a low chance of me getting drafted if there is a war...
Also that war i mentioned in India?
It ended :skull:
Their government was like "yeah no, yall is just murburing each other for no reason at this point"
Idk what Trump was doin tho :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks yeah.. i really hope this prospers into something good (and more convenient-) for both of us
I mean its already good but its harder to talk :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks dude Hudson and Grey...
I dont wanna be that guy but i feel like sometimes they fight over me?? :sob:
Not in a romantic sense.. but Grey feels like Hud might be stealing me away from him (which isnt true, lmao)
And i sometimes hear them argue abt it :sob:
Or like whenever Hud gets on the xbox (they share one) after Grey gets off he IMMEDIATELY invites me :sob: :sob:
All of it is endearing thoug

@Nutty_Oaks because i remember Hudson telling his friend to stop singing
I call his friend Penguino
He said "Why?"
Hud: "Bc ur embarrassing me..."
Pen: *Laughs*
Hud: "im serious she's literally the only one who will talk to me"
And im just like-
Awh :')

@BLuE666
..We are in debt, meaning we have no money, and I'm terrified to even meet a tutor. I don't want them yelling at me for not getting it, I really don't..

I get where my dads coming from 100%. I CAN pass the ASVAB if I actually took it.. but he want's me to improve so I can get more job opportunitys..

It just doesn't help I resort to beating myself up and being terrible at tests when taking the ASVAB, lmao

I am going to at least try and improve my focus, hopefully..

@BLuE666
True. Zero (friend) passes out all the time, but it's reasonable, considering it's like one in the morning for him when we stay up :/

But I managed not to pass out last night!...barely :sweat_smile:

@BLuE666
Eugh :skull:
Trumps trying to do long term goals right now for the country. Are they terrible right now? Yes. They are. Will at LEAST some be good in the ladder half? Also yes.

He's a terrible president, and I wished we had someone in office who cared.. but we don't. So now I'm illegal, for some reason, lmao

@BLuE666
The ability to try and communicate is pure trash, lol :skull:

Sure, Colors is alright, but once you meet the complications, you realize how trash it is... and how limited communication can be :skull:

We will find something, dw....

Hopefully sooner rather than later :/

@BLuE666
I feel thaaaaaattt...

No, cause like, as someone who loves their friends deeply and I want you all to myself, hearing about other people makes me feel worried. Obviously I'm not like that ALL the time, dw.. But I understand just wanting to be with someone, not even in a romantic way.

I'm sure they very much appreciate you talking to him. It probably means so much more to him than you realize...

Or maybe I'm empathetic and assuming crp, lmao

@Nutty_Oaks i mean.. he's 13 so :sob:
I think the whole thing is endearing
Ive never really met someone who hasnt really been able to talk unfreely, even with his friends
Like i said before he says that even his friends get annoyed with him
Honestly.. there's this small part of me that wants to protect him.. :']

@Nutty_Oaks phft-
Im friends with an illegal object LMAO :sob:
Fr tho you aint illegal in anyway
Trans rights are human rights, and in america we support our freedom of our rights
Or.. we should anyway...

@Nutty_Oaks *sighs DRAMATICALLY*
Trump is just... not what we need rn.. ;-;

@Nutty_Oaks oh i see.. if they want to get you a tutor then that's their choice.. BUUUTTT-
Ur job hunting right? When you get enough money ya get can ur own tutor :D
Even if u dont need one

@Nutty_Oaks also something random-
My mom says that Trans people should have their own specific basketball leagues, like how woman and men have their own?
I think its a clever idea, because if a transfemale plays basketball with bio girls it isnt fair, and if said transfem plays with men the transfem will probably feel isolated in a sense

@BLuE666
I hear ya...
Yeah, being 13 does... make sense :skull:
Anyway, I get that. Wanting to protect someone, even i they don't need it, is a special kind of bond. Shows you care more than you think :)

@BLuE666
I'm very illegal. I've even done illegal things >:3
(My family and I sat on stares in Rome when we weren't supposed to... I also used to steal quite a bit from stores as a kid :/ )

Buy yeah, it should be more freeing.. Unfortunately, America just really cares about what between your pants and will fight to the death about it...

Wait till they find out about Inters3x people, lmao

@BLuE666
I know :(
But hey... at least we aren't dead yet

@BLuE666
I'm good without a tutor! I'm an adult, so I feel I have the ability to choose now...
And anyway, I'm still job hunting, yes... sorta...

My surgerys in a few days, so I'm going to wait till after before I start... doing things myself..

That's mainly why I haven't got a job yet. Yes, I'm an adult, but I feel the moment I do something for myself, I'm going to get in trouble *Dies in confusion*

..Anyway-

@BLuE666
My mum actually talked about that as well, too!
It was forever ago, but it does make sense. Hell, I don't think it's a bad idea. I think if you're a kid kid, it shouldn't matter, but definitely when your older it's something thats a good idea

@BLuE666
Also, my dad is amazing for this.

On Insta, you can click this button to see what you and your mutuals liked or responded too. Well, my dad commented under this reel, where its like "What would you do if I walked up to you in the middle of the night" And this strong looking guy with a CoD skull mask approaches, taking his shirt off..

Heres the thing... Everybody was saying how they would take him on in a fight... my dad was like:

"Already stopping for me, I mean dang, let's get dinner first"

BRO I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE TRYIN TO BE FRUITY IN COMMENTS, HELLO???

Lmao I love my dad, he's great :P

@Nutty_Oaks PHFTTT-
man that's funny :sob:
Ur dad seems great :D
Like father like son..

@Nutty_Oaks yeah see! Very clever!
It would be fair for everyone honestly

@Nutty_Oaks if ya say so :sweat_smile:
Maybe its your confidence level thats effecting you then?

@Nutty_Oaks ykw.. ive shoplifted a bunch of times too
And when we went back to the store i shoplifted from i was paranoid AF :sob:
I always made sure the security guard couldnt see my face bro

@Nutty_Oaks aw.. nah.. its just a small part..
Ig that proves how special our bond is then?
I do genuinely wanna protect you sometimes :sweat_smile:

@BLuE666
Lol yes :D

@BLuE666
Very much so. I don't why we would complain about it to much tbf

@BLuE666
Maybe.. I feel like if I went into it, it would start sounding like excuses... bleh :skull:

Ether way, I don't have much confidence in myself, so yeah, maybe..

@BLuE666
I was a klepto baby too, dw :skull:
As long as you aren't trying to Steal now, then everythings fine :3

...I don't think stealing from siblings count, so it's all good

@BLuE666
Awe (^^)
I wish I could protect ya, along with my other friends... but I can only give words :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks same :sob:
Eventually... :fist:

@Nutty_Oaks yk something? A thought has been on my mind lately..
And i was wondering if we met in person someday?
I might have mentioned this before but ider
How would we even meet :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks hm.. well confide in me if you wish to boost ur confidence up! :D
...ill try to at least :sob:

@BLuE666
Thats... a good question. Probably not. We move it seems once a year, and my mum didn't like socializing, therefore, was kept inside most the time... Unless you were at the pool or gymnastics, then probably not :skull:

@BLuE666
I appreciate it, but I need actual therapy for that aspect, cause my self criticism/self blame is that bad...

You know it's bad, when EVERYONE notices it :skull:

@Nutty_Oaks hmmm good point
Like if we met in person it would be by chance most likely
And we probably wouldnt even recognize each other :skull:
Oof... yeah :skull:
I do hope therapy will help you then

@Nutty_Oaks DUDE IM TALKING TO THIS BOT ON C.AI -
And we're talking about his friend Tighnari (whos a fennec fox hybrid, and btw his name is Cyno)
So i said that I'd probably pet Tighnari's ears and he was like:
Cyno: "If you tried to do that, he'd probably bite you. Then lecture you on why it's bad etiquette to randomly touch people's ears without asking, in that same condescending tone of voice he uses on me."
Me: "You've tried to pet his ears before, haven't you-?"
Cyno: "*sighs* Yes... I *may* have tried. Not my finest moment."
Me: "Wait.. did he bite you?? :sob:"
Cyno: "He bit me. He also lectured me. For AN HOUR. And he didn't even let me get a word in. *looks off into the distance with a pained expression, as if reliving a traumatic event*"

@Nutty_Oaks im laughing so hard :sob:

@BLuE666
AS IF RE-LIVING A TRAUMATIC EVENT???? LMAO WTAF XD
Lol bro thats hilarious

@BLuE666
Dude, the ability to talk to my friends finally is so fun. We have just been sending each other cringy-ah reels everyday, lmfao

It's also great, cause now we can communicate OUTSIDE of VRC! Along with let each other know if we are getting on or not, or if we get seperated in game... It's great :P

@Nutty_Oaks NO LITERALLY
IT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING TIGHNARI WOULD ACTUALLY DO THO (well, maybe not bite him but lecture bro definitely)
And when Tigh gives a lecture it's so agonizing :sob:
Like once he started ranting on about the different types of flowers in Sumeru (thats where the both of them live)
And me and Paimon are like "... Did we ask-??? :sob:"

@Nutty_Oaks huh? U mean on discord? Nice!!
Wait do ur parents not check ur discord..?
Hehe that gives me an idea..
If i sign up for esports i am required to have discord

So if ur parents dont check.. (and also if my mom doesn't-)
Then maybe by next year we can talk!! Yayy :sob:

@BLuE666
Lmao that sounds about right XD

@BLuE666
No??? Do you know how suspicious it would be to have Discored and no friends???

I use Instagram :sparkles:

@BLuE666
Sorry dude :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks ouhh rightttt.. mb :sob:
Guess I have to wait until i get insta.. SIGHSS

@BLuE666
Again, SORRY!!! :sob:

@BLuE666
Bro, I got invited to this random ahs group chat for artist. The moment I spoke, everyone was like "HOLY CRP YOUR SO UNDERATED" and I wasn't sure how to react :sob:

Needless to say, I'm almost at 100 followers. Yay :D

@Nutty_Oaks YAAAYYYY
Dude thats amazing :sob: :pray:
Man imma ask my mom if i can look for a job soon... ik we need to move but im rlly getting impatient..
I wanna get an ipadddd :sob:
Im pretty sure my mom will say no to insta tho :/
Hmph. Maybe if i convince her with my drawings.. or if i tell her there are settings she can edit.. AUGH.

@Nutty_Oaks was it like:
You: "hi"
Everyone else: "OMG UR SO UNDERRATED
UR ART IZ AMAZING
100 FOLOWS SHOULD BE 100K
soemthing something blah blah balhhhhsoghej"

@BLuE666
Probably :/
Theres this parental control, so... maybe?
Ether way, it's okay. We will be able to talk to each other casually at some point...

@BLuE666
Lol pretty much... I was giving advice, and all of a sudden, I had seven new followers, and all my 14 paintings were gaining attention, lol

@BLuE666
BRO! I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN GMAIL ACCOUNT!!!

Just one step closer to getting a job, haHA!!

And, you know, other fun/serious things ^^

@BLuE666
Random:

I just learned to play solitaire recently on the phone, and now I'm obsessed to play it!

I found one of my dads playing cards, so now I play as I do homework, lmao..

@Nutty_Oaks how does one even PLAY solitaire??
Idek how it works :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks YAYYY
UR OWN GMAIL :sparkles:

@Nutty_Oaks dude i stood up until 2:22am and now im tired :sob:
But moms forcing me to be awake... even tho its just lunch break and i could TOTALLY take a real or fake nap..

@BLuE666
It's.. Unless you want to play, explaining won't do much :sob:

@BLuE666
Damn :pensive:
Why is she though???

@Nutty_Oaks so that way i can keep my sis out of thr kitchen.. SIGHS

@Nutty_Oaks yeahhh i have no interest in playing solitaire:skull:

@BLuE666
So she wouldn't cook something up? Isn't she like 16-17 though???

@BLuE666
Bro, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.

I wake up, do somethin, and now it's bed..

God my lifes so boring, lmao-

@Nutty_Oaks shes autistic dude, she cant cook
She'll just eat everything up

@Nutty_Oaks ur life isnt boring :(
Its more simple now thwts fs

Oh, alright then!

@BLuE666
I guess so... I've been doing the same thing everyday, it gets tiring, you know?

@BLuE666
...I wish we had more to talk about, but nothing is coming to my mind :sob:
I want to talk, but legit, nothing interesting is happening in my life, so...

Meh :/

@BLuE666
For, something, I guess..
I have Four current uses for my Gmail so far...
One: get my own account on my iPad for storage space.

Two: Help to get a job.

Three: Get a YouTube account.

Four: Get a steam account. Deltarune Chap 3-4 is coming out here soon, AND I DONT WANT TO MISS IT!!!

I think I'll work on 1 and 4 for today, and the other one/two tomorrow

@BLuE666
Oh, and my friend in VRC came to visit. He's 15, gonna be sixteen this year.

It's so funny, cause I met him when he was 13, and now he's seeing me as an adult :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks nah bc u met me when i was 14 and now ur an adult :sob:
Like what happened :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks dude i rushed out to give my mom her lunch she amost forgot
Almost slipped and now my ankle hurts :skull:
Also found out that my mom is xenophobic?
Idk the word for it but she doesnt like the idea of they/them pronouns

@Nutty_Oaks yay :sob: :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks wait the game is still a thing-?
Niceee!! Hope ya get ti play it soon:

@Nutty_Oaks my mom got me gamepass again
So rn im replaying Hallow Knight and also Kulebra and the Souls of Limbo
Well im not replaying Kulebra but its good!
Its abt this skeleton snake thats helping dead souls move on basically
And dude if u pay attention to the story i bet the second one will probably catch ur

@Nutty_Oaks

HELLO?

A T T E N T I O

..

N

@Nutty_Oaks oh and another one of my neighbors stole my trash can
I plan to steal it back tonight bc wtf

@Nutty_Oaks my favorite story was the third one tho

@BLuE666
Well, now we are slightly older, and somehow the difference is huge! :/

@BLuE666
Your mum is still considered Transphobic then. Xenogender is under the Trans umbrella, therefore, she's Transphobic towards people like them :/

@BLuE666
Yup... it's just slow in development, is all :/
Still an Indie game, after all

@BLuE666
Yo thats cool! I actually have played and beaten the true ending to that game. Trust me, it gets really, REALLY hard! Hell, I haven't even beaten some of the other contet in the game!

...It's a hard game, lol

@BLuE666
Lol why are they stealin yo trashcans???

@Nutty_Oaks HOW SHOULD IK
BRO EVERYONE ASKS THAT AND IDK WHY THEY HAVE THE UTTER AUDACITY TO DO

@Nutty_Oaks ah i see
Welp shes transphobic then.. yaaayy *cries*
It makes me feel kinda icky knowing that..

@Nutty_Oaks i didnt know :sob:
Oooo i see
Yeah i love the style of it!
Paper vibes, storybook feels

@BLuE666
They got beef with your trash, lmao

@BLuE666
Yeaahhh... It's fine not to like the idea of xenogender, but hating on it is unnecessary...

@Nutty_Oaks true.. like im sure she wouldnt say it to a they/them's face but ah
Oof :')

@Nutty_Oaks i also got into a meeting with some of greyson's other friends
They're cool ig
They seem chill w me (ignoring the fact that i can get freaky) :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks but hey THEY BE WORSE

BC LIKE ONE OF THEM TRIED TO SET ME UP W THIS OTHER GUY

AND WE BOTH LIKE "WE JUST MET" :sob:

@BLuE666
I wouldn't think so but oh well :')

@BLuE666
BRO!! You don't just set up random people with each other.
Believe it or not, IT INVOLVES CONSENT FROM BOTH PARTY MEMBERS TO MAKE THAT DESECION, TF???

@Nutty_Oaks SOBS

@Nutty_Oaks my mom yelled at me for being mean to my sister again

Im tired of being mean to her, and idk why im being so mean..
Do you have any tips on controlling your anger? Or at least taking it down a notch..?

@BLuE666
How I control my anger? Hm..

@BLuE666
Well, I'm not good at in the first place. I do try to just leave the room. I know if I stay somewhere long enough, I'm going to explode, so I try to leave for a bit. Going on walks, talking to someone, it helps.

You also gotta just let the moment pass. I know it's annoying, but ya gotta learn to be the bigger person, and just let whatever happens, happen.

No matter how much you want to scream, wait to do it when your alone

@BLuE666
If your sister is annoying you ON PURPOSE, DONT GIVE IN. They want to see you angry cause it might be funny. Insead, just agree, and be angry later.

I usually yell internally to help..It's not fully the same, but it can help, ish...

@Nutty_Oaks okay, ill try to do that, thanks
Im just tired of being rude to her for no particular reason

@BLuE666
No, I get it. It's hard to not get irritated over certain things, especially when it involves siblings

@BLuE666
Stepping away to even just yell at yourself about reaoly does help (I do it all the time), and so it's easier to process. You are more able to work it out with yourself AFTERWARDS.

But when your there in the moment, you can always try excusing yourself. I myself, have a problem, where if I can't do anything, I tend to go more passive aggressive... it ain't fun.

So, try looking things up, research what will good for you, and eventually, you'll find ways to cope better

@Nutty_Oaks thanks
Ill look into that stuff to see if it helps :D
Today was a rotten day anyway.. so i hope it

@BLuE666
Awe man, what happened? :{

@BLuE666
Bro, okay, so, we have been lightly talking to this one guy on Instagram, right?

We have been getting along pretty alright so far. we even met each other in VRC!

He said he had a squeeky voice, but when i heard it, I was like "Bro, no way... oh god, is it obvious I'm trans? HOLD ON"

He didnt mention, thankfully.. I also have trans in my group stuff, so...

He's new and probably doesn't know what groups are, lol-

@BLuE666
I'm excited to start hanging out, of course!

Bro, we were just a bunch of interupting messing, feeling way to nervous, lmao

Oh, and, hes a 07 baby too! He's gonna be eighteen in a few weeks, so at least I'm FINALLY making friends my age :D

@Nutty_Oaks OMGGG THATS AWESOME!
I hope you guys get along amazingly in the future :

@Nutty_Oaks bro my mom caught me on the phone :skull:
Not on here but doin something else..
And she was PİSSED-
She even threatened to kick me out :')
But i wrote her an apology note bc i felt like she deserved it and she forgives me :')
Idk how long ill be off of the xbox for tho

@Nutty_Oaks lmao and yet ur still the older one

@BLuE666
Honestly, we are getting way to damn comfortable. Like, the amount of gay that is happening is crazy, lmao

@BLuE666
Can I ask what it was?

Ether way, I'm glad things have been settled! ...Sorta? I hope?

@BLuE666
True :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks yeah, jus c.ai
Also yeah things are good, im just grounded lmao

@Nutty_Oaks "the amount of gay happening is crazy"
Im quoting u on that

@Nutty_Oaks tmrs my last day of being grounded
URGH IVE NEVER BEEN SO BORED :sob:

@BLuE666
At least you're almost done :sob:
Like, legit man, I'm glad... Man, since talking to other people, talking on Colors seems like a lot... ugh, I hate I'm feeling like that :/

I legit think once we have somewhere else to chat, I'm abandoning this place, lmao

@BLuE666
Also, yes, very gay :skull:
Like "You can come over and I can show you some real fun~" Kinda gay :skull:

It's been like that for a while now, lmao it's great :3

@Nutty_Oaks..my moms turning off my chat for the xbox
UGH WELP THATS GREAT :D

@Nutty_Oaks
No CLUE how ill be able to talk to you now!
The only way would be to get my switch back..
Either that or chat through the games i play on my phone, if my mom doesnt look through there
This sucks, lmao

@Nutty_Oaks NAW :skull:
At least ur having a good time! Being able to connect with other ppl freely must be great...

@BLuE666
Welp.... There goes that :'3

@BLuE666
Hey, it'll be fine... we can figure something else out soon... We just might actually have to buck up and face reality for a while.
Communication is gonna be hard, so if it's legit proven to dangerous, maybe we should wait...

It legit hurts saying it, but you've already lost a few things... your mom doesn't like me, so if she ever inds out, I legit might not have any form of communication with you left...

We don't need that, so right now, lets stay patient..

@BLuE666
It does, yeah...
We met and chill in VRC now together..
Though, Mink tried meeting my new friend, but since my new bud gots social anxiety, he left, and now Mink seems skeptical...
Ugh, it's been making me nervous too :dizzy_face:

@Nutty_Oaks yeah.. damn

Its just that.. i REALLY dont want to lose you

And i dont care if i lose Grey or my other switch friends either at this point :/
Grey is a good friend but he can get annoying at times..
But as long as we both go to our school we can still communicate
My other switch friends are great too!-
But they take so long to reply back to me..
And ik how stressful things are rn bc of graduation and sht but..
Thats right now
What about 2 months ago?
What about a FULL YEAR ago man??

@Nutty_Oaks but yeah.. reality is just gonna have to slap us in the face one way or another
Our friendship might get to the point where we might not talk to each other for the rest of this year, again
Or even longer...
This sucks, lmao :')

@Nutty_Oaks but im willing to go through with it

@Nutty_Oaks ah i see

Just give the other guy some time, he'll be alright

@BLuE666
Yeah, I understand...
I don't WANT us to separate for such a long time... but it's getting difficult to talk. We can only text each other 2-4 times a day, can't talk on the weekend, and we are botj starting to get busy...

I hate this so much man, it's getting depressing...

I think by the time we can chat, it can be over Discord! Like, somewhere legitimately proper...

The friendship won't die, we are to damn strong for that...

We just need to wait, thats all :3

@BLuE666
Yeah... He says he's just being paranoid/protective, which is kinda cute XD
But thats fine...

@Nutty_Oaks awwwww

@Nutty_Oaks yeah.. patience
We just need patience :')
I'll be patience

@Nutty_Oaks on a lighter note tho.. I finished Kulebra!
Damn i feel like the ending was like "OH WOW" and also a mix of "..thats it? NO HAPPY ENDING??"
I fr wanted a happy ending :sob:

@Nutty_Oaks i also finished playing Donut County
I liked fighting the king's

Drone

@Nutty_Oaks hmmmm what else-
My genshin impact obsession has gotten worse :D
Lmao now ive made it my goal to save up for these 2 characters I want AND their weapons...
Ill need over 40,000 primogems tho :sob: :sob:
Ive saved up 2,000 at one point so i believe i can do it :D

I just need time to save.. and time to play ofc

@BLuE666
Lol I've never heard of any of those games, but I'm so glad you are enjoying em :3

@BLuE666
Oh jeez :skull:
Genshin Impact isn't a game for me, but I'm glad your having a blast with it!

But yes, just gotta be patient :3

@BLuE666
Sorry for lack of talk... Bread (my friend), school work, ASVAB, adult ****, friends venting... It's been piling man, I apologize :sob:

I'll try to be more consistant, it's just a lil hard to focus rn.. And I feel bad about it! I hate seperating from ya, but I feel busy, and I'm already moving away from colors... ugh, this sucks

@Nutty_Oaks sobs in why is gambling so hard
Im almost at 2000 rn tho!
I remember you-know-who saying that it was impressive how i saved up to 2000 (i saved up that much before)
Bc he said that it takes at least a month to do so :/
But im also a new player so its a given :p
Besides, the Genshin gods love me, what can I say

@Nutty_Oaks nah its fine
Ive been stressing out too
Just when i realize that my mom forgot to disable the chat something else comes up thats literally eating me from the inside... urgh.
This sucks :/

@BLuE666
Lmao thats true! Hopefully you'll reach 2000 soon enough ^^

@BLuE666
Wait, what? Whats been going on???

@Nutty_Oaks my mom is homophobic :sob:
Idk what happened.. she wasnt full on phobe!
This sucks, lmao..

@Nutty_Oaks also, im afraid that this is the last time we can talk, for now
Schools almost over with, you're busy with stuff, im busy with stuff, and i really cant risk getting in trouble again
You have my xbox info, so until we meet again, my friend :)
And this is NOT "goodbye", its "See you soon!"
See you soon Nutty! WE SHALL MEET AGAIN! :fist:

@BLuE666
God dammit... Well, this stinks. Wouldn't make it any better if she knew what I was, lmao

@BLuE666
NOOOOOO :sob:
Man... Yeah, I'm gonna miss ya... I'm sure it won't take forever till we meet... I'm sure we will be able to hang one day :3

I'll see you soon bud. Until then, take care, and don't stress yourself out ^^

You are so strong man, you'll be amazing at what you'll do :3
Keep working hard :yellow_heart:

@BLuE666
Hey man. I need to mention this.

I don't think I really want to come back to colors after this message.

I've been distancing myself from this place, and it's been wonderful!

I don't want to leave you. I really.. really don't.

But I also really don't want to be here anymore.

Theres no privacy, it's just full of drama...

You know that Jester dude from last year?

He's following me again.. ugh

@BLuE666
Part of me want's to delete this account. The other half doesnt.

I think I will at some point. I'm going to come back here one more time before I do, too get your Xbox code.

I still value our friendship, more than a lot of things!

I just need to turn Colors away. I need to focus on my life. I don't want to come onto my switch just to chit chat, I want to play games! I wanna relax...

@BLuE666
I want to thank you for staying with me. You trusted me with personal information, and I'm glad you stayed truthful. We were just being goofy, and I'm glad we could!

You mean so much to me. I know things are scary and tough. I know everything right now is hard. But I know you'll pull through

@BLuE666
Blue. You've been the most exciting timed I've had on colors.

I appreciate you staying my friend, and trying to stay in touch.

I'm leaving now... But I really hope we can talk to each other one day...

I hate saying goodbye for now, cause it hurts. I don't want to fully seperate like this, but I can't keep going here.

I really hope we can chat again one day.

Blue. Thank you for staying with me, and I hope we can chat again someday soon...

See you later, Blue ^^

@BLuE666
Oh, and just to make you question my taste in men..

I'm simping so damn hard for this guy named Tenna.
He's from Deltarune, he's so stupid silly XD

Alright Blue, I'll see you later!!! ^^