itw paint not gore so im not putting a TW - srry
i just sometimes feel like a differnt person to who,i wanna be cos of expectation and how im wanted. Like i feel i have small control over my life, in general.
so yeh srry for this - and i also think my yt doesnt help cos i get stuck into a spiral of numbers - like alwayss asking myself - why not me at 1k - am i not good enough?

its hard sometimes but ill try stay alive on here!

ty for 8 follwers! <3