How do you satisfy a (heartshapedobject) that feels shame for receiving love?

What do you do when she shatters your eyeball across the room, calls, you, life and death a sham of theatrics to hurt her, a cruel love, cruel to me? Cruel to her? Just cruel?

But. Where am I supposed to go?
I don't have anything else, I don't have friends, I don't have a life, I've just been rotting for so long, I want to make things right.
I want to be a big shot.

#Shroomie #Vent