@Lydi072 no but the thinb is almost no one knows im feelin like this... they just know i broke u with a really gud friend of mine... we where really clse and i had her as my family, my sibling... my other half...
i was always with him everyday... we used to play roblox together now... i just play with myself..

i feel so lonely... lets not forget the fact that im single my hole life... no one likes me enough to date me... im just a loser on the Internet... no one likes me..

@Lydi072, as you know my cats are the only thing helping me! I don't get to see them until late at night on Friday, and I haven't seen them since last week! This week has been really hard for me..... I hate f*cking life!

@Lydi072 that last comment- I get it :/ I'm a third wheel now and it sucks :/

@picklejuice no one cares to date me either- I HAVE dated one of my friends before bc I liked her, but for the fact that she broke up with me so fu-king easily because some idiot [fake friend] told her to means that, that was all a lie and she was probably leading me on. I mean I'm he best friend now, [her name is Rylee] as I was then. She actually asked my bsf [in the whole frickin world, Jordan] to "be my person"

lol- her exact words. I don't really care about that anymore because for once someone likes me and I don't even know why, but I like them back...

idek at this point. haha.

I also dont know who to trust anymore- umm the not trusing thing is on my alt [@/woahdude] where I had like 500 comments just from me-
but like idek if i can trust my bsf
and idk if addison [emoaddison - shes on here now once a week for 5 seconds] will [hypothetically] hurt me again bc when she 'apologized' it meant nothing the next day and she was being an as-hole to me :/

@Lydi072 ok :) be prepared for me to start ranting on about sh-itty things my friends do towards me at school- i mean... i dont have any rn bc i wasnt at school thursay or friday

Awww... dear...
It´s okay... everything it´s going to be fine, i promise
Sometimes life punches our faces untill we bleed, but when we have the chance, we get up and still walking like we used before
I know we are not really close-friends or something, but i really love you so much and i apreciate your company always ;w;
I hope this helps .////.

make sure to take time to do the things you like. dont worry about school so much because you are more important.

@LouchanSan :sniff: WAAAHHAY TYSM FOR UR WORDS IT RELLY MADE MY DAY LOUUU!!!

im in a bad state too.. but what helps me is destractions.. im going back to anime con tdy and when i go to events or theme parks it destracts me from it for a good while sense i have no time to think of... things, even if its a small thing get out of your head and do somthing even if you dont want to cuz i never want to but my mom forces me out of my dark attic and the fam leaves to do somthing fun. sorry idk how to help im really bad at this.. but just know im here for you qnd this should be-

-a safe place and to not be alone, we all got your back, so dont fall

sorry my words must feel hollow but ill try my best till i succede

@ChaoticMess88 tysm for your kind words! i will try to even tho im really busy with school and stuff i gotta go to but i try to forget things i dont like or just make mee sad sometimes but other times.. u just cannot do that. like ur unable to. and tbh running from ur fears and things thta u dont like isnt a gud answer. cuz then they will only grow and grow until the booble pops...

i didnt mean it to come out that way.. sorry what i meant was that sometimes you need a break from all the sh-t and ik it wont SOLVE the problem but its nice to help yourself regulate and actually have fun! im sorry i really am and i cant get things right but you are love and you can get though this just sometimes let your body rest from all the troubles sense it takes a hard toll and you need it, i didnt mean it to make it sound like i was running from it which i dont i just need a mental break

@ChaoticMess88 u dont need to apologies! i got what u where saying! but yeah its gud to take breaks and rest sometimes!

To be honest it was Colors and a person called @angelbear that introduced me to Animal Crossing that kept me alive in one of the lowest points in my life. Everytime I loose everything I pull out my villager and go Hard. AS. a Mofo in my town and when my PTSD and bipolar kick in I take out the madness on an empty page in colors. IF YOU FEEL LIKE DIEING let the you that is hurting do so and let art be your revival loose yourself in what you are drawing so that all of the energy is spent constructively on something you can appreciate later proud that the real you (the depression is not u remember that it is only a condition I take no medication and have dealt with my issues for my whole life to be able to do this I have to realize What is my mental issue and what is me the real you is not defeated.)

As I was saying proud that the real you has survived because you made a simple adjustment and realized you are just as worthy if not more to experience good in life as anyone who does not have these issues. I'm a total freak of nature and proud of it because God gave me all the natural meds I'll ever need. And Remember this most great people are totally mentally ill like us and went through trials every day just to live. Yes I Have been to the gates of despair and hatred, loneliness has been my best friend. At times hatred ruled my mind, my thoughts constantly on suicide. I've questioned my worth and saw no purpose in my living.i know what it's like to spill tears when I woke and tears when I went to sleep with nightmares and I think it's called Rim sleep (waking up in nightmares still actually in them). Let me tell you this you are worth it. If you need advice leave a message on one of my last pics I post so I get it. Please keep living