i always act like im this bubbly person all the time but the truth is im not. i fake it alot and people act suprised when i hold in how i really feel for too long and lash out. im tired of it but the people around me will say im acting weird if i am how i am. kinda sick of it ngl and somebody really close to me died near the end of december and im still processing it. it sucks. ●○,, i dont mind if you respond but wont be upset if you dont!

im single, depressed, i have panic attacks, i cry over the dumbest things, i feel like an idiot, iwas called ugly today, someone likes me and i dont understand why... i feel like.... cripe...
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@jaspers_monologue
i act how i feel a lot...

when im called short: i act like it doesnt bother me
when im called ugly: i act like its something funny and say 'oh wow, i didnt know that. thanks' in a sarcastic way...

@jellyfrog thats what sucks about faking, once you start you cant really stop or youre seen as a bad person

@jaspers_monologue yeah i fake a lot of things.

also i have 3 [maybe more i cant remember rn] trans friends and my bestie [they arent on here] is kinda gong back but not fully... they dont really know... and my other two friends, im used to their names but when i call them b thekr wrong pronoun i feel really bad

im am so sorry about your lose i wish i could give you a big hug and comfort and its okay you dont have to act bubbly your human and process thoughts like no other you dont have to put a sheld up and fake being happy because no matter what you are human and nothing changes that i know sometimes i dont give best advice but just know your feelings or 100% vauld and you dont need to hide about being upset or sad because in the end of the day you will know that its okay @jaspers_monologue

Hey listen little missy you are strong AND IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK BECAUSE YOU ARE MORE THEN THEM they only want to hurt you and see a reaction out of it doesnt matter what you look like wether your skinny, fluffy, tall, short it wont matter because your soul is beautiful THE MOST BEAUTIFULEST THING IN WORLDS HISTORY you are so vauld and 100% better then them because you can over come it even if you have depression you have that will power to over come it @jellyfrog

and they just mad because you fun size :)) you seem like a awesome person and super cool to be around it is alright and here is your safe space you can vent here all you want it wont matter because im always here to listen you are amazing and im so proud of you im so proud that you told someone like me who you dont even know about it im your safe space and you are always welcome to rant or vent on here ♥♥ @jellyfrog

im so sorry that this has happened if i could id give you a long hug and comfort you its really hrd to get over a long relationship i struggled with the same thing but just know that it wasent that you did anything it was him he could see what a wonderful person you are or how talented you are he was blind to see something so good right in front of him its okay to feel this way and its going to hurt for so long but i know your strong and who needs a dushbag like him anyways he knew you loved him

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so dearly he shouldent get the entertainment of your pain he should be he one struggling and unhappy because your amazing and so vauld and JUST DROP DEAD AWESOME AT DRAWING THAT IT MAKES ME SO JEALOUS BECAUSE I WANT TO GET AS GOOD AS YOU AND MANY OTHER PEOPLE ON HERE its acceptable to feel this way your not wrong in any way your feelings are vauld. you can vent as much as you want on here and i will always resond to you because im your safe space and this is you comfort place♥ @SleepiiGeminii

No no!! your all good you shouldent feel sorry at all like i said this is your safe space and you have all the right to vent im not stopping you i just want people to feel more comfortable and reliefed your not affecting me so your okay!! and i understand your situation its not easy to give someone up and losing your first child is the worst feeling ever. i can say that because i have but feeling like you have no where you belong without him is a very true thing ive felt that way im so sorry

i wish i could tell you that you will feel better in no time but you wont its going to take a long process you will feel alot of things but just know that whatever your going through you can always talk to me its not hurting me or affecting me i might not answer right away but i will always resond no matter what im here on your side and care for you and your feelings dont feel guilty and my age doesnt matter because i know no 14-17 year old gonna let you rant like this like im letting you do

@SleepiiGeminii

i hate dumb relationships and i hate this dumb feeling i feel so empty and angry whenver i see stuff relating to love and i hate it i feel so selfish i wanna throw up ●

Today i was told i might have anxiety, autism and adhd and i might have to go back on anti-depressants
my life is going down hill and i have panic attacks every 5 seconds
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im sorry about that is there a reason why you feel very empty inside to the feeling of love? does it make you uncomfortable to see other people in love or show of romantic affection im very sorry you feel this way i could be your change in ********* @startori

It could be change in your $exuality

@startori

im very sorry to hear that sometimes its okay to take meds but only if your comfy with it i dont take meds because of my trauma but everyone is different is there a reason for your anxiousness or is it because of social activity during the day you might be social anxiety if so do you feel paranoid when speaking to others or feel a heat pressure in your chest maybe it feels heavy theres alot of this i could go into but i just want to make sure tha these questions are not overwhelming @Froggywoggy

very sorry to hear about your trauma. im sure its social anxiety, i cant be in public unless i have my one irl friend with me, we both have seperation anxiety with eachother and cant be seperated for too long or do something without the other.
i always feel really overwhelmed in public spaces or sometimes with just socialising

well if i could i would give you a hug Im very sorry u are struggling @Froggywoggy

ahh if only, thanks :))

np! @Froggywoggy

i started s/h again. i havent since about july of last year. i was so close to one year. so close. someone had a crush on me on colors and when i told them that i was uncomfortable they freaked out and left. thats when i did it. i dont know what to do since i only wear short sleeved shirts and i dont want my parents to see. ●

im sorry jazzy, this guy is unacceptable its okay people start problems all the time and sometimes it hard to keep out of it. its absolutely not your fault i would understand why you felt uncomfortable you dont even know this guy and for him to ask you such a stupid question is no excuse your opinions are vauld and your choices are yours it was not okay for him to have done that. do you have hoodies possibly? @jaspers_monologue

i feel like the dumbest thing alive rn...
my heart is broken so many times by past friends i was so close with..
i feel like im being ignored most of the time...

ive tried venting to my now friend and she didnt even understand what i was saying..
ppl really think that when u have family that doesnt hate u and friends u have everything... i feel like nothing.. a black void lost in the sky.. im not hapoy with the way i dress nor the way i look i want to not exist anymore...
i feel like my life

-is drifting away... i dont feel happy anymore... ive gotten so much more depressed than i was used to be... i feel like no one is there... no one to heart me... no one to comfort me...

u can respond if u want to but idk wat u would theres nothing u can do im sry
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bruh k so sketch came back on the 25th of april. *** stg they threatened to off themselves again and i had to talk them out of it,, they made themselves the victim (again) and made it out to be like i was the ******* bad guy for not wanting to talk to them. they hurt someone else because they started dating someone on here and then threatened to leave 4 times,, do sme bad stuff and faked somthing REALLY bad,, ill tell u what it was later because i dont feel like getting banned. anyways less of a

vent and more of me telling u what happened while u were semi-gone,, literally so infuriating
anyways ted talk over,, stay safe and yeah idk
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