@LeTJBOI you are involved too I ain't finna do this alone lol vote or count the votes XD

I- Aight then LMAO
Indeed #ishipthem Lilly's confession was actually pretty cute

@Ketchup-Chan oof sowy lol

@Ketchup-Chan... *weeps and reaches out for hug*

@Ketchup-Chan mY mAjOr ShIp ChIlDeReN bRoKe Up AnD dIdN't TeLl MeEe... ;_;

@Ketchup-Chan@ @ClueLess AnD @Lovely_Lilly11 bRoKe Up AnD i TaLkEd To HiS nEw BoO aNd ReMeMbErEd ThAT i'Ve BeEn SiNgLe FoR 5 yRs

@Ketchup-Chan *blows nose on your shirt* ;-:

@Ketchup-Chan *wipes nose* thanks for understanding Ketchup :,3 ima go stuff my face with pizza and dream about my ex gf lol

@Abstract_Mazie do you think I was wrong in what I'm about to tell you: I draw an anime eye from a character i've had for over 5 years because I don't do anime often so that it doesn't turn out poorly. Creamynugget tells me to take it down assuming I stole art from them. The problem is, I asked them for art idk they wanted and they said they weren't giving it away. I forgot about it for a while and decide to draw the eye. They tell me to remove it...

@Abstract_Mazie I tell them that it's a complete misunderstanding and still they wanted me to remove it... Do you think that I'm wrong? Do you think that I have a right to get my feelings hurt? I WOULD NEVER steal anyone's art or style, bcuz it's happened to me before. To be accused of being a theif is very unpleasant :/

@AM_Galaxy
I'm very sorry to hear that happened to you. :(
First off, I noticed on a picture that I liked (awhile back- it was a purple bird). Anyway someone by that same username must've made an inappropriate comment to that artist, or someone else, before I seen it. Because the comment was deleted, but the one calling them out remained. So it seems to me, that maybe they are being miserable to other users on here as well. I'm not 100% certain, but from what you said, and what I seen....

sure makes it seem that way. I DON'T think you are in the wrong. Plus I happened to see that picture by them. It doesn't even remotely look close to me. Please don't let them bully you. I'm sorry that happened to you. :(

How they treated you makes me sick. Please like I said, don't let them bully/worry you.

@Abstract_Mazie Thank you for understanding. Yk... I can't help but feel like the artwork they said I 'copied' had REALLY been stolen from me. You said you saw the art, look again and tell me that it doesn't look like Spearmint or Firefox! They called it a MOTH Mazie! I'd report them for art plagiarism but I've no desire to create problems...

@Abstract_Mazie but I refuse to get worked up over this, as that may be what they want me to do :/ so thank you for listening to my little rant lol

@Abstract_Mazie btw go check out creamynugget's page and you find and Eye that looked like the one they told me to remove Pardon my french but wtf lol

@AM_Galaxy
Yeah, I just looked at their profile again. That's ridiculous. I see what you mean. Sorry this is happening to you. :(

@AM_Galaxy
Just curious: You said you don't really like Pokemon. May I ask what your favorite game is? If you rather not tell me though, that is fine. :)

@Abstract_Mazie I knew I wasn't over here going crazy lol but when it comes to gaming I'm a splatooner

@Abstract_Mazie My newest Oc will be drawn on Sunday btw so you'll see

@AM_Galaxy
Cool. Myself, I never played Splatoon, but I heard it is a fun game. I might pick up Splatoon 3, when it releases.
I'll keep an eye out for your new OC. Hopefully that person doesn't give you a hard time. It is ridiculous how they've been treating you.

@Emzyracher Gurrrrrrrrrrrrrlllllll.....

SPILL THE TEAAA SISSSS

@Emzyracher like idk if you were around at the time but when I was following his art... he said something like : I'm straight, I think I'm straight, did I mention i was straight?

He had some BL art on his likes too O_O where they went we may never know lol

yh? i wasnt but like where u going with this unless he talked to any boys that way then....?

oh yh he likes alot of sussy gkrls

i always look at his liked lmaoo

I don't know @Emzyracher..... I think little British bus boy may be little British 'cake' boy >x< [tries not to laugh]

stoopppp lmao hes an ass and thighs guy

his dick is also small

idk...... i really don't Lmho

@Emzyracher i just know what i saw

Not tryna gossip i mean why do you think I'm abro now @Emzyracher lmbo

ill ask him his sexuality

when was this?

so ur not cis tf im so confused

also ur homophobic lmao?

so ur homphobis and abro lmao ur one of thise

I was jk about homophobia lol but I actually hate being this way
@Emzyracher

oh dont hate being whatever sexuality u are

Cisgender means your you birth gender lol cis is not a sexuality its a gender @ @Emzyracher

Is it bad that I really WANT to be straight bgw @Emzyracher

cis also means straight lmaoo

if u want to be straight then be straight :/

but We got too of track lol @Emzyracher the problem may lie with him! Not bloodhoundusa or you :/

plus i saw him flirt with some 17 yr old girl lol @Emzyracher

lmao i want to talk to him but hes not online grrr >:(

No problem lol I'll just leave spams @ @Emzyracher

He'll answer me at some point and then I'll summon you over and we'll trap him into talking to us :3 @Emzyracher

hehehe yes try it

WAIT WHAT ABOUT THE 17 YR OLD GIRL

Anyhow he may be on later tonight (probably) so if that does happen I won't know bcuz i don't want to have his friend code lol @Emzyracher

TEL ME BOUT THE GIRL

But how about this: I'll tell you about the 17 yr old Later @Emzyracher

no what why i deserve to know

but if you see him on post something addressed to @AM_Galaxy (it can be random so no one catches on)

I'll be on and off so even if it don't happen tonight it'll happen soon so make sure you address a random post to me ok @Emzyracher?

that way if you post, I'll know he's on (SO WELL PLANNED I LOVE MYSELF *cackles in British*)

This can't fail I KNOW IT WON't!!! @Emzyracher

oki oki *says normally cause i have british accent anyway*

IT WONT FAIL!!!!!!

So i'm going to go get myself some tea and wait while playing Monster hunter stories 2 lol @Emzyracher DON'T FORGET!!!! Don't forget!!

its already 2 am for us he might not be on till tommorrow basically later in the day

Dammmmmm I forgot y'all in Europe!!! [whispers] ok now go to sleep before you get groundedseeyoutomorowbye *insert dial tone* ok fr i'm leaving now goodbye lol

@Emzyracher peace out

ima stay online for a bit still goodbyeee!!!!!

whos the girl? @AM_Galaxy

@Emzyracher her name is lydi i think :/ she followed me just recently and she's kinda cute lol unfortunately she's anti lgbtq and I'm neither against it, rlly for it, Sweetie I'm just in it lol

But I think he was flirting to be funny @Emzyracher plus he's a baby compared to her she's like 17 yrs old lol

ik her what were they saying tho?

shes homphobic lmaooo

nvm saw what they were sying im pissed

@Emzyracher w-w-WAIT, DAM YOU SAW WHAT THEY SAID???? Oh Thank God lol *gets cup ready for tea*

@Lydi072 The truth is... my feelings for Ria NEVER went away... she just left.... when I hung around Ink, she made me feel better and I started liking her.... OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO??? And WHAT IF RIA FINDS OUT THAT I LIKE INKY TOO???!!!! I HATE THE IDEA OF LOVE TRIANGLES BUT THIS NIGHTMARE IS REAL AND IT"S FREAKING ME OUT!!!!

@Lydi072 OH MY GOD.... AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT"S EVER HAD THIS HAPPEN TO ME???? THIS SITUATION IS SCARY! OH SURE THE AVERAGE MALE WH_ORE WOULD BE FLATTERED BUT I"M FREAKING OUT AND IDK WHAT TO DO!!!!!! MY CONSCIENECE IS READY TO SHOOT ME TO DEATH!! This is terrible... omg.....

@Lydi072 GURL HALLELUJA!!!!

@Lydi072 I have never been so relieved in my life....I'm NOT the bich to have his cake and eat it to #gettoknowmebich

@Lydi072 I LEGIT was making Something for Inky the night before

@Lydi072 HOLY CHEESEBALLS WOMAN-

In all seriousness, I don't think that you'll need to worry much about me.. and if anything should happen I can take care of things myself, but thank you for caring. Sky leaving wouldn't hurt me, but not saying anything or flat-out pulling an Anubis would. I'm glad ya'll got this resolved, but PLEASE calm down! O-o

If he pulls an Anubis then by all means madam-

But I know he won't cuz he cares more than that husk <3

@Lydi072 d-mn.... Gurl my father left my mother almost 10 yrs ago now.... I may be black, but I sure as hell refuse to pick up his n-gga mentality

@Lydi072 I'm not leaving Ink, even if I'm not here for a while, I'll never forsake her. I understand the threats to go nuts and granola on my a-ss tho lmbo

@Lydi072 well, at least, you could let go girl :3

now you have room to find someone else

@Lydi072 If it hurts a little, it just means you're healing. This is MOST LIKELY God soothing your heart, especially if you don't know where the comfort came from

I told you he never left :)

@Lydi072 well if you feel bad, you can always apologize to him. You would not BELLIEVE how much of a burden lifted off my shoulders this is! I was so worried for you

on it! @Lydi072

Yes! Still beating him tho-

@Lydi072 I didn't mean to make you feel hurt, but a HEADACHE is more important than someone TRYING TO COMMIT!? COME THE F- ON!

@InkDrawz '-_- Love.... I told you to be careful with what you say about Tb to Lydi... she's really delicate when it comes to that...

@Lydi072 Girl, Inky didn't mean it how it came off

@Lydi072 I'm sorry, really. But I can NEVER forgive someone who did NOTHING and stood by, making you feel like cr/p while you cut and tried to 'sleep.' I don't say it to make you hurt, but I am because I care and so you know where I lay. I'm not going to apologise to him for lashing out because he broke your heart. You matter more than a headache, and I'm sorry if it's like that. I already feel horrible for hurting you before, and you know that I don't like hurting you if you're upset.

*I am saying it

My point is, don't feel bad for someone who hurt you in the first place and didn't do anything to comfort you. Now that I think harder about the fiasco, maybe God removed him for a reason. I don't think he'd care for you as much as he does Hails...

@Lydi072 omg.....

@Lydi072 ...I wish I could help..

@Lydi072 I will! Also...
would a cupcake make things better? :>

@Lydi072 I'll be praying for you Virginia :3

@InkDrawz a word pls?

@Lydi072 *shoves the best cupcake thru the screen*
Welcome :D

@Lydi072 I'm sorry... Wish I could take away your hurt...

hello

@Lydi072 I told you they might have a SLIVER of love! Your mom sounds like demon-spawn though-

@Lydi072 well thank God your dad cares!

@Lydi072 you need this! I had been praying for you, for a long time now, the fact that you found a bit of relief, it restored my confidence that God really does care!

@Lydi072 I've been meaning to warn you about something. Idk how big the threat is but someone told me that someone manipulated you and had been harrassing and spam reporting that person. So she told me to be careful of who I associate with. I'm just telling you bcuz somehow you were involved :/

@Lydi072 now.... we pray

@Lydi072 LMAO

But OMG @Lydi072!!!!! ERIC?????!!!! You 'LIKE LIKE' him?

@Lydi072 ok sweetie I got 4 questions ok?

1. He's A City boi [no doubt] so HOW do you like him?
2. Is he a zelda fan?
3. does he know you like him?
4. ARE YOU HAPPY THAT YOU FOUND LOVE!!!!??? :3

ANSWER HONESTLY @Lydi072

@Lydi072 SRY

@Lydi072 Was doing some researchonyourboyfriend- ANYHO

@Lydi072 I see no mention of a gf

@Lydi072 It seems like a girl he liked died... that's sad...

@Lydi072 Honey, I'm trying to help

@Lydi072 Let me review my sources -_-

@Lydi072 sh it... he does have a gf...

and he a phaggot ally oooooooOOOOOOO

@Lydi072 DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMÑÑÑÑÑÑ

What the helll.... he's too corny to have an Irl gf what the actual fu ck

@Lydi072 Damñ satan!! Cut us a motherfking break bich!!!!

I did all this motherfking Research to come across some bullshet post about corny gay shet

All to find out that this bich has a girlfriend that he aint told NO BICH about??? This is shet...

@Lydi072 I can't say he doesn't love you

@Lydi072 we tried tho...

@Lydi072 If I could fix this I would...

@Lydi072 Wait...

Omg yas!!!

@Lydi072 Why do you never BELIEVE in possibilities??

@Lydi072 But that doesn't mean they won't come

@Lydi072 It doesn't mean they aren't CAPABLE of turning out well

@Lydi072 It doesn't mean that you never have what you SO RICHLY deserve

Sweetie, I never thought that you would try to say that your destiny is set in stone. NO ONES destiny is set in stone!! Let alone yours!

@Lydi072 I ain't saying try to get with a taken someone, I'm saying: don't be afraid to look for an opportunity, maybe it'll make it's way to you once you find it

@Lydi072 I honestly don't know what to say... at this point

@Lydi072 night kid

NICOLE, LISTEN TO ME. Everyone gets turned down, and everyone hurts. What you did most likely wasn't your fault, and nothing decided to turn you down except for HIM, so STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP OVER THIS IDIOT AND LET HIM GROW A PAIR FOR FEIC SAKE-

He probably wouldn't even be that good for you anyways! I'm not saying this to be mean, but have you ever noticed how people that have turned you down end up grainy as hell?

Loving someone else, putting THINGS above your pain. People can be self-centered Nicole, and I'm afraid as the world is I don't know if you'll find a LOYAL person unless you keep looking

And no, God loves you. How do you think you got out of the hospital? Or met me? I.ve always heard it said he puts people in and takes them out of your life FOR A REASON. I see now mine was to be a good friend and listen because I doubt Hailey or Nega will

Anyways...
*casually shoves cupcake thru the screen* TAKE IT! Eat away the pain with my death-by-chocolates! >:D

But seriously. You HAVE been happy before and I refuse to believe it. As much as you want to be loved, don't rely on a male for all of your happiness
(SKY DON'T TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY-)

I'm going to get to baking, but I'll be on later if you need to vent some more. I care about you Lydi.. JUST LIKE A CERTAIN FURRY BRAT THAT WON'T LEAVE MY FISH ALONE-

@Lydi072 Ik you may not believe me, but God does care! Satan dared God that ppl would serve him only if he gave them stuff and if he protected them from harm. If God had simply ignored satan's challenge, the angels would turning their backs on him and become demons, and satan's point would have been made...

@Lydi072 Would you rather have the devil's get his point across, or God prove he's capable of making sure that we prove that we don't simply love him for the things we "want"?

@Lydi072 I honestly wonder the same thing at times... so I understand how you feel...

@Lydi072 good things come to those who wait

@Lydi072 ok gurl :) I won't I promise

You're fine and I honestly get it. With the stuff with the guy who ignored me it hurt and annoyed me how one of my friends (we'll call her Simp) kept telling me about her and her 'bf' even though sometimes I need a hug or something. But yes, I get trying to not be jealous, and I really hope you will find someone.

@Lydi072 Idk why you try to say you don't want to sound like you're trying to get attention. You don't need to tell ppl that gurl! Ik, being misunderstood hurts, but many ppl just DON'T deserve to have an opinion about you. You don't need to waste your time on those kind of ppl

You know when you're telling the truth

See it this way: You're asking for help or advice because you hurt and need it. You aren't needy or pathetic or whatever in any way asking.

So? What they think doesn't matter! If they think you're needy and ignore that you need help, they obviously aren't real friends. Good friends care and listen or try to help, and don't ignore your needs or sensitivity.

@Lydi072 Gurl, God removed those B a s t a r d s from you life to help you not suffer as much! Think about that

I try, and I feel that's what's important

@Lydi072 We got your back gurl

@Lydi072 Ik EXACTLY how that feels! You just have to go with the 'moment of okay-ness' and when dysphoria sets back in let it come and let it go

@Lydi072 If you seek what you can't find too often, you'll only end up with a big 'ol bag of dissapoinment, sometimes you gotta try to reign in those bad emotions to be ok. Even just for a moment

@Lydi072 Never tell anyone what I'm about to say ok

@Lydi072 I've never told anyone this, not even my mother, Your probably the ONLY person who's experiacned what I've gone through/ still go through

@Lydi072 I've had a problem with those same 'thoughts' since I was 8 yrs old. No one ever mistreated me, or made me feel like I should've felt that way, but I did something [i don't remember anymore] that I couldn't live with myself for... and whenever someone reminds me of past mistakes... they come back

@Lydi072 I just remember why I SHOULDN'T have these feelings. Why? Because I try to live for a better future, for those who go through similar feelings who need encoragement

@Lydi072 I know that It seems hopeless at times... but even you said you wouldn't wish it on the worse person in the world! So how much more so would you want to help others overcome there troubles?

@Lydi072 I always say how can you show love if you don't have love for yourself? I don't like myself often, but I like ppl, and I want to help others come to love themselves

@Lydi072 "The only earthly thing that can't change is change itself" i forgot who said that. But It means your always going to be capable of change, no matter what anyone says

Humans can't help but change at some point in their life. Why not hope to change for the best?

@Lydi072 I'm a Pessimistic-realist, but even I know that good always exists somewhere Lydi

@Lydi072 I understand gurl... I just say, If there's ANY moments of satisfaction or joy or peace, savor them. Remember them, let those good memeories fill your head, just not to the extent where it turns into a dangerous type of nostalgia

@Lydi072 I don't have too much time but I can squeeze some time in

@Lydi072 Is everthing ok?

@Lydi072 I have one thing to say gurl.... *ahem*

@Lydi072 YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

@Lydi072 YASS BETCH YASS!!!! Omg you FINALLY GOT YOUR ASIAN!!!!

@Lydi072 YAAAASSS KORREEAATOOOOOWWWNNN

@Lydi072 Omg this sh it better work out or I will kill YOU AND HIM >:(

@Lydi072 Play it safe gurl!

@Lydi072 Enjoy this joy gurl! Gn kiddo :3

@Lydi072 YAS BISH
G O T O H I M :>

And if anything happens, bring him here so we can whoop his @-s :>

@Lydi072 consider the prayers : said gurl.

@Lydi072 I'm so sorry that you're going through this...

@Lydi072 do me a favor and pray for me too pls... I'm still kinda sick, and my family members are REALLY sick, and times are just getting hard :/

Got it. I'll be off for a while tho

@Lydi072 Was it something I said back on Outsweeters post?

@Lydi072 Ik it's hard when parents start to have issues.... it starts to affect you negatively

@Lydi072 Is there anyone else you know who you cn go too

@Lydi072.... omg... I'm so sorry...

@Lydi072 don't do anything drastic please

I"M SERIOUS

@Lydi072 The last thing you need is for you to do something that hurts you more!

@Lydi072 Then you'll be even more miserable!

@Lydi072 Don't do something that'll cripple you forever

@InkDrawz

@Lydi072 don't do something that will make your life EVEN worse

@Lydi072 I know you're suffering, but if you try to end your life and it doesn't work, you'll only have more problems than you do now

@Lydi072 You think you don't care now, but what happens when you can't do anything for yourself? What happens when you have no one to help you when you need it?

@Lydi072 You KNOW that if I knew you in real life, I would do EVERYTHING in my power to try to help you! I CAN"T help you physically but I can try and help you in spirit

@InkDrawz If you live for no one else, live for Ink, live for God

@Lydi072 There HAS to be a different way to cope Nicole! If nothing else works for you there has to be at least ONE way to cope without hurting yourself!

@Lydi072 What if you never even wake up again??? You have a chance to live forever but what if you never get that chance because you decided to end it all!

@Lydi072 You're almost 18 right? Aren't you at the point where you can go on your own

@Lydi072 If it's too much to handle, I strongly suggest you take a moment get away from all the nonsense

@InkDrawz Help Lydi here please? I have to go

@Lydi072 What in the hell could you possibly do to warrent that kind of treatment??

@Lydi072 You do need time alone! Can you not talk to them about this??

@Lydi072 You can't atleast go to your room??

@Lydi072 No one in your church would even take you in??

People in my congregation have promised to take me in if ever need be

@Lydi072 What the hell is wrong with these people!!!???

@Lydi072 There is no one you can go to, no one you can talk to??? Have you even tried asking God what you should do?

Like At all whatsoever?

There is no reason that God should not be hearing your prayer

@Lydi072...............

@Lydi072 Listen... to take these measures scares me probably as much as it'll scare you, but you may need to tell your parents how you feel

@Lydi072 You can tell them: I know you aren't talking to me, but did you consider how this makes me feel? Did you ever consider how this would affect me? Do you even care about me? If this doesn't work then it simply doesn't work...

You can even tell them that you don't want any problems and that you just want everyone to have peace

@Lydi072 There's just absolutely nothing you can do?

@Lydi072 It's Impossible that there's nothing you can do

@Lydi072.... you would know better than me...

@Lydi072 But that doesn't mean that I won't try to at LEAST help with SOMETHING!

@Lydi072 For One thing, something has to give... but It CAN'T be your life

@Lydi072 I say anything else that is adding Undue stress to your life, ditch it, and ditch it quick

Can you think of ANYTHING that's adding uneccesary stress?

@Lydi072 What is it? Tell me

@Lydi072 Whatever you really think is adding undue stress needs to go, school has to be endured unfortunatley

@Lydi072 If it's namwoo you need to ditch his a ss, if art is stressing you out give it a break

@Lydi072 So, there are no unimportant things that are stressing you out? Just the necessary routine?

@Lydi072 Nicole, PLEASE think rationally. Do you REALLY want to give up after 2 years out of the hospital!? Your parents have wax for brains. DON'T SAY NOBODY CARES. I'd take you in in a HEARTBEAT but I'm keeping this to myself for my privacy! Things are bad but PLEASE try to think rationally... you're my best friend Lydi. I can't lose you. You make me laugh in the morning, or cheer me up... I don't know what I'd do if you tried to commit...

.

@Lydi072... I know everything is getting harder... I'm in a bad position too... I only don't give up because my mother would probably kill herself if I killed myself...

I know and I'm happy you are, I just needed you to know that I care and can't stand your pain.. like I said, I'd help if I could but my mom would hang my butt over our TV :s

@Lydi072 Sometimes I feel as if there's no reason to live... but there's always reasons not to end it all, even if we can't explain it

Thank you. And I'm sorry but I don't wanna die- i HaVe A fUr BaBu TnT

Actually I will if he doesn't get treats-

@Lydi072 expect a long a ss message later on ok?

@Lydi072 bcuz you need it

@Lydi072 I gtg now ok

Lydi, don't test him-

You'll be grilled like steak -_-

1: What the ABSOLUTE FU-
2: WHO IS HE AND CAN I KILL HIM!?
3: Good morning to you too. *hands some tea

@Lydi072 Morning Virginia! *hands biscuit* :3 Now if you'd excuse me, I have blood to drain <3 come along @InkDrawz

@Lydi072 been playing MHS2 lol

@Lydi072 Monster Hunter Stories 2

Lol

@Lydi072 I ain't back lol Just checking on you gurl!♪　But BIT_CH *Screams In Japanese* YOU HAVE A BF NOW!!!!?????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH GUUUURRRLLL TELL ME EVERY SINGLE DETAIL AND LEAVE NOTHING OUT!!!!

@Lydi072 I think: Yaaass! Just YAAAAAAASSSSS!!! Mind you, Hallelujah!!!!

@Froggywoggy Now listen... You'll ALWAYS be my Amiga Chica For LIFE! But It will FOREVER bother me that you and Lydi won't get along.... I read the messages... And at first when you said Lydi 'bragged' about being abused I was like: The MOTHERF_UCKING AUDACITY!!! But remembered that not everyone belives everything she says about her struggles. I understand beacuse I'm normally skeptic about ppl's motives

i never said i didnt believe her its just th fact she mentioned it like 3-4 times and when i mention it 1 i get called an attention seeker

But the point is you both belittled each other, I'm quite certain that this is not ok... but I just want to let you know that I'm sorry bcuz I contributed to makg you relive the things she said or did...

@Froggywoggy I understand... And I don't appreciate her belittling you... but I know that this is partially my fault.

tbh im confused at what i even did
i mde a joke about their love being cringey then i get called fat then i call kye greasy the lydi out of nowhere starts idk like attacking me calling me abusive??

@Froggywoggy Tbh Idk what the hell happened between y'all...

It seems too strange..

it does
im just as confused as u

@Lydi072 Nicole.... I'm not chatting behind your back. I'm sorry if you thought that but I was going to post about it and I couldn't bring myself too!

@Lydi072 YOU KNOW I WOULD TELL YOU HOW I FELT!!

@Lydi072 And I understand why you got angry at her, but I don't understand why you called her an attention seeker. I don't like how EITHER of you delt with this!! You CANNOT tell me you didn't see the post!

I was being truthful... I just couldn't bring myself to say it yet... and I'm sorry....

@Lydi072 So you don't care that I JUST clarified what the hell was going on?

@Lydi072 I'm sorry if this seems like betrayal but I can promise you it's NOT! I wish I would have told you earlier! But I couldn't...

@Lydi072 WHY would I betray YOU?? Of ALL MOTHERF_UCKING PEOPLE!!!???

You know me! Way better than that! I have NEVER betrayed anyone, and I SURE AS HELL don't have plans to! I just don't think that this situation was handled well! But as soon as I say something, it'll come off as biased, and you BOTH would hate me!!! The last thing I want to do is add ANYMORE pain to you!!

*turn

@Lydi072 I'm sorry but this Ho said: "Always forgeting me-" Ho you forgot waaaaayyyy too many dam-n times

@Lydi072 Gurl... at this point, whatever the hell his as-s is goinb through- I say you get the popcorn and sip that dam-n tea!

@Lydi072 I hurt for you.... i really do... But I relish whatever pain he's experiancing I'm sorry

@Lydi072 Don't let yourself fall into self hatred cuz you like him! It's common

@Lydi072 WILL SMITH SLAP YAAAAAASSSSS!!!! XDDDD omg i'm dying!!

@Lydi072 He is a lyin' a-ss piece o' SHA_

@Lydi072 And A Hypocrite!!!

AND HE"S WHITE TRASH [no offense @Lydi072 you aren't]

@Lydi072 You gon' let him get away with this? REALLY think about my question pls.

Are you REALLY gonna let him get away with this? @Lydi072

@Lydi072 not sleep I was doin the dam dishes lol

@Lydi072 night Lydi lol these dishes were kicking my as-s

@Lydi072 idk tbh...

@Lydi072 Ok... I'd been struggling... to the extent where I've been trying to commit... I think God let Mom know, because just YESTERDAY, she asked me if I was ok... despite myself I tell her everything... I feel a little better but those feelings aren't going away

The last time I tried to commit was last summer and Mom smelled chemicals in my drink... she was p-sssed, but we talked it out and I was doing pretty well

@Lydi072 I haven't seen 'them' flirt, but I'm sorry you have to see that...

@Lydi072 tbh I'm kinda sad but I prayed for a measure of peace so I feel a little better :)

@Lydi072 Have you prayed for peace? Yk to not be bitter?

You know you can :) May not seem helpful but it really is!

@Lydi072 sure!

@Lydi072 Gurl... take no offense to this, but if you get too down on yourself you'll fall into depression and not be able to come back out.. you may be on that road as we speak...

@Lydi072 Mh......

@Lydi072 I'm just about dam-n tired of men who love themselves more than you... surprised I ain't went on a harrassment spree yet... But it's getting harder to hold back...

@Lydi072 Don't hate yourself for what people have done to you. That's like pooring coffee on yourself when someone splashed hot tea in your face...

@Lydi072 When ppl say 'love is blind' THAT, honey, is a lie! As humans, our very thought process is corrupted, so we make things complicated when originally they weren't. Love is not blind, but your good judgment can be veiled!

@Lydi072 It's ok to long for something that you can't seem to get- as long you're not longing for something wrong

@Lydi072 "The heart wants what it wants" I can't blame you for how you feel...

@Lydi072 Gn Sib... Get some rest ok?

u tagged me but i cant see what comment u tagged me in, since u guys were talking

but hello im here nos

@Froggywoggy Idk what happened but I was asking you why you and loubo were fighting-

oh bc i app 'ruined her life' bc jispy doesnt like her and sees her as a good friend

i told her this in a polite way bc jispy wasnt comfortable enough to tell her but was also uncomfy bc he doesnt like her @Lydi072

everythings good,
im glad kye cant manipulate u anymore

im not sure whats happening w her tbh @Lydi072

oooh spill, i didnt know this!!!!! :0 @Lydi072

and yeh!

@Froggywoggy These fights and dissagreements starting to get on my dam nerves lmao

@Froggywoggy You were right gurl xD! He probably do have a white truck XDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!

@Lydi072 Tell me if this is crazy or not- I had a dream that we met Irl O_O!!!

@Lydi072 Idk when you'll be back but scream if this creeps you out too-

@Lydi072 Omg no lmao!!

@Lydi072 It would be cool to meet irl but I'm QUITE sure it would never happen lol

@Lydi072 most definently lol

@Lydi072 Omg.... what are we gonna do about Ink....?

@Froggywoggy I hate to bring you into some more bullşħíț- but were you talking šħïť about iDeltaruined_MyLife? Be honest with me.

He's going through A LOT of pain rn and doesn't need to be insulted. If there's any reasons to this, pls tell me.

no it wasnt shīt,
i was telling pickle about when kris confessed feelings that one time and was telling him to like let him down nicely due to past events

@Froggywoggy What happened that pickle would have to "turn him down nicely"?

@Froggywoggy Did kris do anything to him in the past?

its when kris likied him and pickle didnt
if the post is still up ill tag u in it

i tagged u in the post

@Froggywoggy I don't understand

huh?

@Froggywoggy what did jasper do?

it wasnt jasper, it was kris @Sky_Galaxy

@Lydi072 SleepiiGeminii Blocked me from commenting on her posts.... Bich I'm just as gay as you wth do we have problems for?! xD I ain't talked to her in almost a week, and we got issues??!

@Lydi072 SleepiiGeminii Just called me MANIPULATIVE!!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!!!! I TRIED TO TAKE UP FOR HER, COMFORT HER, and BE HERE FRIEND!!!! I don't want to cry, but I keep almost crying dammit!!!!

@Lydi072 pls don't tell anyone......

I tried to help her and aussomesawse see that God cares about suffering, and she tried to say that I was FORCING my beliefs on them!!!! I was trying to show them that God cares!!! I even SAID "You don't have to believe me :3 I just want you to know that God cares"

@Lydi072 aussomesawse IS TRYING TO COME FOR ME NOW!!!!! I thought she would AT LEAST BE THE ONE TO BE THE MEDIATOR!!!! And I KNOW that I was wrong to joke that way, but How is it Manipulative???!!!!

@Lydi072 She just said it's not like we aren't friends, but she's tired of being put down for who she was... I wasn't trying to put her down!!

@Lydi072 I told her I don't appreciate her throwing my as-s under the bus. I'm just done with this...

@CGull Do you know the song "Born to Die" by Kelly Clarkson? If you do, then you know how I feel rn...

Even though this all happened a week ago the scars are still fresh... I don't think I'd fit in even if I came back.. I know Inky will because she's well loved...

If I can't fit in the LGBTQIA community, or the Hetero$exual community, or really anything for that matter, how can I come back here with confidence...?

I humiliated myself and I don't know how to come back from it... Mom keeps asking if I'm ok and she keeps asking me to not keep my feelings a secret because they always show somehow... I can't tell her I've been banned because I tried to restore peace... I'm sorry to burden you with this... Ignore this if nothing else.

@LostCauseCucumber exact thing over here dude...
eric and i broke up (i did it)
and now he hates me, and im just so tired, and noone even cares on here anymore...
its really hard...
im sorry you feel that way too.
if u want to talk more, im here ok? i promise to listen.

why cant u explain to her?
i would think she would be proud that you tried to help!
i would be!

@CGull Dam yall broke up fr? Anyhow I did explain to her what happened... but I lied and said it happened 2 years ago (mind you a similar event DID happen then but the result was different and not as intense. Even though that event did occur, the events aren't the same making it a lie) I told her that I worried about Mary and Sleepii [without disclosing names] That I feel like there was something I did wrong... she said that I did what I could, as long as I wasn't Bible thumping them lol... This community is far more toxic than I realized... I'm afraid to come back...

@CGull I only stuck around for you and Inky... but it only makes me even more afraid to leave knowing that if Ink goes and i go, you'll have no one who really understands your pains to an extent... I don't understand why you'd break up with Eric... He's like one of the sweetest guys around (coming from a guy's standpoint) You need someone like you! He is the MOST like you out of all of your Amigos Chicos! He understood you the most! If you don't mind me asking...what happened?

@LostCauseCucumber its rather personal.
but, i guess i can tell.
frankly, im terrified of any sort of real life relationship with a man. im straight, but the thought of being /that/ close horrifys me.
and its not just him, its anyone.
i wanted to think i could be something other than single, but he mentioned marriage and stuff,
and i just cannot do that. ever.
its like, i want a family of my own, but i cant make that family, because i dont ever want to have a physical relationship. :'/

that and then secondly, the lgbtq thing bothered me.
im okay with friends having that viewpoint-
but like what about my future kids? like i do NOT want them to be taught that way. (no offence, sorry)
its totally fine if my friends think that, but if im looking for a lasting bond, i need someone with the exact same morals.
its nothing against him, or them , its just something i cant do.
and after kye, im just plain scared. im too terrified to be in a relationship. plain and simple.

@CGull There is no problem with being afraid to be in a physical relationship. You have no reason to be ashamed! Why do you think even though I'm the tiniest bit guy, that I don't have a boyfriend? I'm not exactly terrified about being in a relationship with the same secret, but the thought itself is kinda scary. I can see myself married, but not to a guy- Yes, the thought of sustaining a re Relationship is

Scary. As for the gay thing, I wouldn't want my kids to be taught that either. If they seek it out for themselves when they get older (like I sorta did-) that's their business, I won't be a hypocrite and try to stop them. They'll either see how difficult it is to know about it, or enjoy it.

@CGull God will deal with us according to our circumstances, what we know and how we feel. I know God understands how you feel... I just hope he'll provide you with some comfort at least

thanks, thats sweet of u.
i hope so too.
lol the thing i hate most is on my trip literally all my old female relatives asked if i had a beau or if i was engaged (all of them were either engaged or MARRIED by 17 -_-*) and asking why i wasnt. lol. lotsss of fun. -_-*

@Lydi073 mh... that sucks... respectfully tell them to mind their DAM BUIZZNES XD

@Cucumber_Galaxy ikr?
my great gram was married at 16, and had her first child at th eage of 17,... of (NOT JOKING) FOURTEEN CHILDREN. o-0

how u doin today @Cucumber_Galaxy?

@Lydi073 Hey... I'm ok ig... I'm bored... and low-key sad-

same, had a terrible day.
why are u sad rn @Cucumber_Galaxy? :o

Everyone seems to know what the want to do, find out who they are, or be happy with their pets.... I'm suffering through another gay stage but I may be transitioning into hetero$exulity again... it's painful for some reason.. I feel unfufilled... I told Mom, but she doesn't know what to say...

@Lydi073 We'll be moving again soon and I'll have to give away my cat Summerfall because she's destructive...

Even worse @Lydi073 ..... My Uncle and his fam are trying to come back into my auntie's life so she could buy stuff for him and his kids again... They take TERRIBLE advantage of her when she associates with them.... And it put her through alot of hurt before...

@Lydi073 but enough of me... why was your day terrible?

well if it makes u feel better, i have absolutely No idea wth im doing!
i thought i wanted to be an eye dr..
but that was because i knew that would make my parents happy..
what i really want to do is become an animator, and move to Seoul, Korea.
but my parents would hate it.
my dad thinks art is stupid so. lol.
Anyways! point is i dont have any plans either. lol

ur poor aunt. ill pray for her. poor dear. :(

ehe..he..
eric. lol. since breaking up ive tried really hard to be his frind, and b kind,
but today he said something like 'dont ever ping me again, im tired of colors (and u was implied)
, ink defended me and he 'aploagized' and said he was sorry, that he was just stressed, and that we weere friends.
....
i know hes lying.
he took me off his friends list, he wont reply to my comments ( but replies to all others), wont like or talk on my posts- continued-

@Lydi073 Aww... it doesn't make me feel better that you're stuck too... Idk how you'll take this.. But I always thought you wanted to be an artist until you said you wanted to be an optimologist [i think that's it-]

@Lydi073 Just so you know... Eric's been avoiding me too... It's partially my fault... I asked him to follow me on instagram. I said that Emily was adorable irl.... I also said you were too.. He never said anything to me again, I TOTALLY forgot you weren't together..

and hes only talked to me TWICE since breaking-up.
1. he yelled atme for taking him off my list
and 2. the one i told u earlier.
i feel like shut, i havent had ANY of my deppresion meds (i.take 5 daily) for a week.
and the worst part is i still love him .
but i cant do anything.
he even told someone i 'changed' colors and he dosent wanna stay.
he says were friends but literally all his actions say otherwise..

but PLEASE keep this a secret.
ink is-

I can sympathize the hurt he's feeling.. but I don't apreciate how rude he was about it. I don't know much about you, but I know you aren't normally rude...

already chewed him up for it.
im tired and i cant stop crying.

and dw, it wasnt ur fault, he was following me before that when we were together.
he unfollowed later tho..

@Lydi073 I don't understand how he could be so angry... I'm quite sure he knows your fears and pains, it would seem unresonable to be angry at someone for things they've experianced... please don't be too depressed about this..

@Cucumber_Galaxy
its so stupid. i didnt even wanna break up with him.
but i cant even hug my family.
i faint in public.
face-it thats not a good wife material.
and i also got the feeling he think hthat suzan was perfect.
everything i did- he seemed to say 'well Suzan did it this way-' and such .
i cant compete withperfection.
i also just feel like i cant handle his probs as well as mine own.

hah. thx but ur a little late..
if i didnt know yall cared- andit wasnt a sin, i SWEAR.
i have never been lower in my life between that, my sister, no meds, and eric.
...

@Lydi073 If you don't mind me asking... are you getting any better with your fam?

like itold ink,
ive gotten so use to hatred on here i practically standing like: ''you wanna hate me and make me feel like sh*t? heres a ticket, get in line. ur number 900!"
lol.
idk, it just makes me hate myself.
i feel like a monster and a heel.
i still crying even now.
i have been all day . lol. whats new right?

yeah, quite a bit.

except my sister.
my vaca was so my fam could see my new nephew.
my astraged sister refused to let me and my brothers see him. she hates my fam. she has absolutely no reason.

@Lydi073 Idk anymore about trying to encorage you to make peace with people on here who don't give a hell about you...

It suck with your sis too...

@Cucumber_Galaxy its fine, i dont expect u to fix all my worldly problems!
i just need to talk to SOMEONE bout it.
thats all.

@Lydi073 Ik... I just wish I could be of more help. I had to vent to lol..

its ok.
sorry to dump all my stuff onto u.
its hard, i still really like him , and i keep wanting to find some confidence and tell him EXACTLY what i think...
but im a coward. hes been acting more and more like kye, and if i speak up, he might snap like him.
im scared tlo speak, and im scared to keep silent..
isnt that dumb?

Oh btw @Lydi073- The next person who hurts you is get their as- kicked and a good cup of "Curse Out" and you may not be able to stop my demon this time ^_^

and no it's not DUMB to have fears and worries!

@Lydi073 Kye was an aussie creep perv bich... even tho Eric is salty, I'm sure he's nothing like him. Kye was a kinky, rasict, biased, creep, so I'm not surprised that you'd be afraid to find another pig...

lol. Please dont.
thats why i didnt tell ink all the details cause she already went in fists-flyin.
which was helpful, and im super grateful, but i dont want to make it worse./
im just so tired of ppl hating me.
im close to leaving kf things dont change soon.
im not asking for much, i just want him to at least be cival...
my friend said ppl take advantage of me in relationships because they know i never want to hurt them.
i think shes right..
idk, i kinda think its me.
thats 3 times iv-

if*

If you really like Eric still, all you can really do is hope for the best... I still think there's hope :3

@Lydi073 i don't think Eric hates you! I think he's hurting... still, be as gentle as you can, for your own heart as well. If ppl wanna take your kindness for weakness, DITCH THEM!

-e been hurt by guys.
lol. no wonder i have the same nightmare almost every night.. im gonna d/e alone when im old. and ppl will b happy when they hear. im so scared to b alone..
and im scared to be with someone .
honestly im not a feminist, and i never will be-
but im starting to think men are animals (sorry , i dont mean u)and that their niceness is always a farce.
like they only use women for whatever reasons.
uk? i feel like such a monster myself tho ...

@Cucumber_Galaxy lol. i honestly havent beenn rude to him. u can even see our convo today on my old bts post if u like.
hejust keeps shocking and hurting me more.
m tired uk? :'l

@Lydi073 I'm so sorry Lydi... I understand.. many men are trecherous... but... God know everything we need... and he'll provide it at the perfect moment. He'll give you what you need

idont think iwas but its fine if u think i was rude to him.
by this point i dont think i really care much about anything ,anyone, or what i do or am..,
honestly as bad as it sounds-
i wish i was suzan.
cause i dont wanna b here- and he obviously loved her.
then wed both be happy. no emotional pain for either of us anymore.
i just wish he even liked me.
he says were friends but in mytown friendship looks NOTHING like this...

@Lydi073 I say just be as peaceable as possible with people who deserve it, and leave others alone

And consider too @Lydi073, Susan is dead if I'm not mistaken... when people are in mourning, they have a tendency to bring their mourning into other situation or relationships... It's not you, it's him. You were NEVER rude to him from what I've seen and you did nothing but talk about him all the time lol

You may need to give him some time to think or mourn or realize his behavior. I'm sure there's a BEAUTIFUL chance he'll come back to you!

...
i just want all this sh*t to quit.
li just wanted to b friends,.

my being peaceful has gotten me here.
ive been too scared to stand up to john, kye, and eric.
and all of them failed. i dont think love exists,. i really dont.
friends can LIKE u, thats different.
but other ppl only ever want something from u.
love is never eternal or lasting , its a scam ppl have fallen for. it dosennt exist. never has, and never will.

thx for talking @Cucumber_Galaxy.
i better get to bed. cya.
ill pray foru and ur aunt.

@Lydi073 Thank you dear child :3 Have a good night! I'll pray for you too

..thx, cya later..

and btw i would never want to date him again.
hes been very cold and mean .
its a side i didnt think he had. it reminds me of kye and scares me, so pls dont ever play matchmaker with him and me ok? it just hurts.

@Lydi073 You are worth more than you'll ever realize... even if you never see it, even if no one admits it. Never say "I'm useless, I'm worthless" I know it's a hard habit to break... but you really are worth something. I strongly believe that this is why God put you on this Earth... Thank you for everything you've said and done for me! Even if it seemed like a little thing, it meant the world to me.. [btw I took down the vent post]

good. im glad if anything i said helped. ^w^
i try not too, its certainly a challenge tho.
thanks.

yo whats shaken? im boredddddd. :v

@ArtisanLydi watching fantastic mr fox and reading a story Inky gave me lol

what in the world is fantastic mr fox?!
dude alli watch is john wayne. XD

@ArtisanLydi forgot- you're too country to know who George Clooney is-

i hate that u called me country-
but i honestly have no idea who Georgie Cloom is-

i mean George Clooney.

lmao XD

@ArtisanLydi Omg- I didn't know that you really didn't know- sorry ._.

Anyhow- he's some ol celeb dude that women go crazy for lmao

so basically old-timey boomer BTS? :000

is fantastic fox a cartoon? or what? i cant imagine its reality or smth? :0

dont be sorry lol.
i just dont watch tv or celebs or whatever .
im old-fashioned. XD

@ArtisanLydi yes it's a cartoon and George is like some italian dude lol

he was in alot of grown up movies

ohhh ok. well no wonder i dont knowhim.
i watch movies from like the 70s - and earlier normally. XD

ey u on?

@ArtisanLydi now yes lol

lol. hows ur day been?

... i think i might give up art.. im not good at this at all. im tired of my family telling me how much my art sucks... i already know it sucks.. idk. im probably gonnq leave for a bit or a week.. idk anymore.
ttyl. hope ur day was better than mine..

@ArtisanLydi Oooooohhhhhhh CHHHHIIILLLE- Looks like we both had a trilfing day.... I cannot STAND your family!!!!!! Ugh!!!!! DON'T listen to them!!

They can't do art so they don't want you to either! f-ck their malicious intentions

But... I tried to have a good day but what happened earlier is really getting to me... So- the day before yesterday, my friend [a girl in my congregation] who I play roblox with, she was like: "Chile- I got some tea to spill!!" GURL, this girl done TOLD me- that two of my friends were dating [13 and 11] Mind you!!! In my religion, children dating IS NOT ACCEPTABLE [unless you're like anywhere from 16-19 even then at times...-]

So- she told me to tell my mother "give her the scoup"! [she told her mother instantly lol! Btw she's your age 17] so I told Mom and she was like: "yeah- idk about those kids..." so.... chile- THE NEXT DAY- She told me why my friend [age 11] had an "I♥MyGf" tee on XD :skull: AND THEN_　AND THEEEEENNNNN!!!!!!!- Today!!!!!! This lil gurl!!!!!! [age 13] RANDOMLY GOES UP TO SOME GUY AND ASKS FOR HIS INFO SO SHE COULD DM HIM!!!! CHHHHHIIILLEEE!!!!!

We all are involed [the whole gamer group] so we kinda have to back away from her and him rlly.... But I was like I ain't finna get in trouble over no KIDS!!! Mom was like: "If they come around, you can't hang with them." And I'm STILL shook!!

I just don't know if I should socialize with anyone in my congregation anymore.....

@InkDrawz now you know why I require hugs T^T

aww. sorry to hear that. at least u have kids in ur congregation. im literally the only person under 50 in my church. :'/

my dad keeps yelling at me all evening. he said he wont let me go to art school , and says i have to be an eye dr.
idk . honestly i dont feel like my art is improving- its getting worse. i have almost noone looking at it, and when i make art i get yelled at..
my dad is right- my art is trash. idek if my art is worth it anymore..

@Glass_Galaxy honestly if i were u i wouldnt.
but im not u lol.
i prefer loneliness to trifiling faux friends. :'/

@ArtisanLydi Gurl- I told my friend: "If I seem distant, it ain't you." She's like one of the coolest ppl I know, she's not at fault, even she said that ain't nobody want to get in trouble for no kids!!

@ArtisanLydi Let me tell you something about your art: In my sixteen years of art and admiring artist, your painting LEGIT look better than the Mona Lisa and Starry Night [and I believed that NO ART could get better than that] you may just be better than my dad!! Your circumstances with that art thing is starting to scare me! And I'm just about ready to [what do you ppl say?-] "Throw Chains" and break open a chunky can of WHOOP AZZ!!!

lol. ty @Glass_Galaxy . i wish i could feel that way bout my art. everything i make feels like sucha waste and garbage like to me. :'/
(and yes lol its 'throw chains' to settle fights-what u do is hook up a pickup to another pickup- and u both rev it, until one of them gets torn in half lol.
its alot of fun to watch. )

@ArtisanLydi Well I know how it feels to hate even the good things about yourself... but just... don't give up on your dream because of some bullsht

ty. ill try not to. :'p

and same to you! dont give up cause of scummy ppl.

goodnight. cyall in a few days.

heeey. whatcha up to? im bored out of my minnnnnnnddd----- :'p

im watchin LOTR , u ever seen it?

@ArtisanLydi no lol

but i'vebeen playing roblox XD

lmao ive never played roblox! XD
what is it bout?

and hey, be careful- didnt it get like.. hacked or smth recently?? i think anyways lol. :'0

@ArtisanLydi ik lol and the effects are devestating XD but it's a multi-purpose app you can make games and play games

oh that sounds cool! ^w^
kinda sounds like Minecraft marketplace! lol!

@ArtisanLydi it is lol

it's exactly like minecraft marketplace

nice! B)

@EchoSpook I lost huh? LMAOOOOOO

snfhadnksj look i am not choosing sides in this goofy argument

@EchoSpook XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

@skzxsanrio um- wait- who the hell are you?

@princexhyunjin Que-

@princexhyunjin Omg not the jewish daddy LMAOOO

This painting is prompting me to make a café colab account ngl

@Unaone lmaooooo

MaDe iT

@Unaone Oooooh! Ooh! ooh! I want to be in it!!!!

Remember this @SweetSass? I used to think this chatroom was the 'bamb' lmao [it's @XxWingsxX_ btw]

@Old_Shell oml this feels like eons ago lmfao-

@SweetSass doesn't it? I haven't been on this account since- november? XD

@Old_Shell oh good gravy! i looked back at my art on @lydi073-
i swear my art was GARBAGE-

@Firebrand @LoganPaul @-FineLine- @_tjz_ @Rellik_ @Nyghtmareish Should I do a dtiys? I've tried before but no one did TvT. I want to do something really cool before I leave? I want to leave but not without doing something for the community. What y'all think?

I think you should ^^ /vvvvnf

DO IT

also im honored i was tagged :relieved:

@Rellik_ B3n_drown3d gave me my Covers oc. I can't really get everyone's contacts, but I want to do something fun before I leave

@Nyghtmareish Lol and thx :laughing:

@_-B3n-Dr0wn3d-68- Do you think I should do a dtiys on Covers?

@_-B3n-Dr0wn3d-68-_

@Firebrand Yass TwT

@XxWingsxX_
yes!! i will deff do it ^^

@_-B3n-Dr0wn3d-68-_ YEEEEE!!!! Thank you!!! ^w^

@xxwingsxx_ i would deffo join ^^ (also you're leaving??? :sob: )

@LoganPaul YES!! Also- I- well- you- she- it's... complicated but yes. So, praise Jesus that I got your discord lmao

i'll tell you there if need be

@XxWingsxX_ jeez ok u don't have to tell me if u don't want but yea reach out to me anytime

@XxWingsxX_

Yeah!!!!

@Ajkins Honest to God tho- Everybody's families are so fcked up rn. But for these kids- they're CLEARLY getting it from ppl older than them. Grown ppl need to set a better example fr. I see now why Mom didn't let me have socials for so long, and it's only gotten worse!

Once again tho, if people try to come for you for this, I got chu! They tried to do that shxt with Azucar [sugarskulllz] when a bxtch said she didn't support trans or nb people [unless she liked you or respected you or something that I'm certain she didn't mean] and said she didn't think it was right. I liked her too but I couldn't be friendly with her I almost considred fighting a bish. People who were like her legit backed her

@Ajkins Deadxss- ppl RUINED furries for me. I mean, I get self-expression. But since 2017- ppl have HYLERSXUALIED them SO MUCH that now, all I see when I see furries, is a pervs fantasies. I have many anthrophormorphic [probs didn't say that right] ocs. After I came across furries and stuff, I wasn't allowed to draw my ocs FOR YEARS

People ALWAYS find SOME WAY TO RUIN HARMLESS THINGS AND MAKE THEM HARMFUL!! If I knew of any other art platforms that were this easy to manage and work out, I would have left A LONG TIME AGO like I would've trashed this app istg. The ONLY thing that kept me on here was my friends. THEY can't even keep me on here at this point. There is no excuse for how immoral this community has turned. We should ALL have been better than this.

@Ajkins ISTG I :clap: SWEAR :clap: TO :clap: :clap: GOD

And I feel bad that I'm leaving everyone behind... But- I have enough shady trifiling sick xss people doing stupid stuff in my real life.

@Ajkins SERIOUSLY. If people don't want problems, they need TO NOT BRING THEM!!! Or be around it! NONE of the people we talked about were justified in their sicknesses or shadiness or things that they defended that they didn't even have to voice!! Tbh I'm the most disappointed in Shark... She disgusts me. She really does... So does *******..

*lol i bit

@Ajkins Ik people care.... But those people are even leaving too. I refuse to stay somewhere i don't want to be. Like I said, I'll come around every now and again to chat sometimes [like with azucar, you, Firebrand, etc] but not to put out beautiful art that ppl will just contaminate with their toxiccity- bxtch this is not pokemon and you ain't a mf poison-type

@Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ Hey sis, was up in San Pedro with BARELY any wifi- was a MIRICLE that i saw your post lmao fr tho how have you been? It's been EONS and I have SO MUCH TEA TO SPILL! AND I WAS WORRIED SICK WHEN YOU GHOSTED

@chiisai_Hoshi IM SO SORRY I GHOSTED CHII I HAVE A LOT TO TELL YOU TOO

@chiisai_Hoshi I MET A NEW COUSIN THIS SUMMER

That's part of the reason I wasn't on remember my uncle who died?
His dad is also my dad's dad and my two other aunties dad they all have different moms but his dad had my uncle with a lady in michoacan mexico that lady is my newly discovered aunties mom she reverted to islam and while making hajj met my cousins dad in Mecca so i have three new cousins Munira Aricella and Suleiman
Please tell me all about your summer ik i missed a lot :sob: :sob:

@Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ BIIIIIIIIICCCCCCHHHHHHHH- It's A LOT NEGATIVE BUT STAY TUNED FOR THE POSITIVE:

(That story you told is insane btw om f g-) 1. So when we first got down here, I moved in with Dad the day after the next. Mom was sleeping in the car for at least a week because she had nowhere else to go [she would DIE before asking to stay with someone if you remember how ppl treated us before]. Turns out, Nana's [rest her soul] best friend asked her how she was doing-

she told her the truth and said that she was sleeping in the car and that I was at dad's. Friend imediately worried about her saying: "You can't be sleeping up in that car now. That's not safe! Mom just said: "I know but I don't have a choice." Friend pretty much forced Mom to come stay at her house. Her and her daughter made sure that they helped Mom where they could, and in return, Mom did everything around the house [as per usual lmao]

Friend is old as hell and her daughter ain't getting no younger they BOTH eres muy cansada. So they appreciated her help. Girl- Friend's son and grandsons who lived with her, started STALKING Mom. She told me these Nxggas had a CAMERA in her room and they used to walk by EVERY TIME SHE WAS CHANGING! Not only that- but after A MONTH- the son started to try to get her kicked out. Long story short- he told a lot of lies about Mom to his mother who has DEMENTIA and that made Friend turn on her.

A person with demetia is mostly gonna believe family over friends at times so it didn't help.. It got so bad that Friend's oldest daughter and the Elders from our congregation, AND MY UNCLE told Mom that they wanted her to go. All she was doing was filling out work applications and watching k-dramas from time to time lol. Either way- before they could kick her out, she left and is still in the car to this day although she'll stay with my other aunt in san pedro occasionally.

2. Despite the set-back, we still did our religious duties daily, went to our meetings, hung out with each other, and at the end of the day, she'd park across the street from Dad's house and I'd go inside... until the neighborhood said they would call the police because she was causig disturbance. (Keep in mind, I'm across the street from her and see her in her car 24/7 lauging at instagram, doing bible reading, or talking on the phone)

if there was any disturbance, it was a small group of MEN from 2 neighborhoods away, knocking on her car window asking what she was doing here [this happened every other week mind you]. A neighbor lady from yesteryear said she was concerned but knew that she was sticking around because of me and that she'd help her. Nothing ever really came of that, so she eventually left and got in the SafeParking program. (Yes I would still travel with her through it all-)

3. [better but not exactly "good news" The car recently broke down so we can't travel as much as we would like. We were at the beach one day and someone did something to the car while we were doing bible study. While all this was happening, not much happened to me while I was alone. I lost inspo on the novel and haven't written since, and I only started making art for ppl on colors, no more personal art.

Dad and Bert [young uncle] were encouraging me to either get a job or an education- so I chose education. I looked into where I wanted to go and found an trade/adult school just up the street from me [never noticed it before lmao]. So me and Bert went to it, called some teachers and applied for oreintation. Mom signed up too to learn a trade, I went for an education lol. We both passed final reading test! [I passed with a college reading lvl *Insert Meg's "Ah :tongue:"

while all that was happening, My other aunt made Mom her caregiver because she developed bone deterioration. So we take a few buses up to San Pedro whenever we can [she marked me down as her 2d caregiver] No wifi there- but it feels better to be in a Christian house than a jewish house tbh [no hate but iykyk-]

4. Been getting re-aquainted with the congregation of my youth. Everyone marvels at how old I got and how good Mom still looks [all these young guys LOVE her and hating broads be hating lmaoooooo] The guys I used to know have grown into responsible, mature, snazzy dressing, handsome young men with positions in the congregation and it intimidates me TO NO END-

I'm quite sure these nxggas can SMELL the rainbow eminating from me, so I never get too close :skull: There is this one guy [i used to have THE BIGGEST CRUSH on his cousin when we were children, it would always be me him and her] Like- i have the most UNCOMFORTABLY mixed feelings about him- he ANNOYS me to no end, and entertains me, AND intimidates me, AND FLUSTERS ME ALL AT THE SAME TIME and SOMEHOW- I don't hate his grubber xss :laughing:

There's another guy [like 3 years older than me-] has a crush on Mom- like- lil boy- sit your zygote behind down- I mean, he's chill and cool than a **** but- anyhow- there are these two other guys who are like- SO FREAKING COOL AND CHILL. I don't want to idolize them- because I don't want God to shake his head at me lmbo- but they are the coolest people, and I don't want to be dorky- but I'm tryna ease my way into being 'one of the guys' yk

Anyhow- I got back in touch with and old older friend of mine who i pretty much fanboyed over since age 5 because she is THE COOLEST LADY IN THE WORLD!! She's funny, can make music, make art, make stories, novels- like me! And we've just been texting and hanging out when we can! So fun omg. She's the best, and she's so spiritual, she really loves God. Said I was gonna start being more spiritual too, so that I can comfortably connect with everyone.

Currently planning out a new book but keep ******** the ideas- help lol. But that's my whole summer for ya! Crazy xss ride. *Exhales*.....- ok you can comment now @Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ :skull:

@chiisai_Hoshi That's a lot i'm so glad you and you're mom are ok i don't even know what to say that's some crazy shìt also congratulations for passing your test that must have been hard to study for i'm really proud of you hoshi :heart:

Congratulations on making some new friends also that's definitely not easy and good luck on becoming one of the boys hopefully you meet someone too :smirk:

@Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ I will say.... A girl I knew from zoom movie nights in 2021 is around- It seems like we noticed each other :flushed: but she's either 19 or 20 I'm not getting my hopes up lol but idk. For now I need to focus on my education- the prospective job, and the LORDT lol

Thank you ofc sis. @Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ How has life been so far though, aside from the discovery?

@chiisai_Hoshi It's good you have your priorities in line and life has been ok me and JC broke up because long-distance yk so i'm kind of lonely and I started drawing and writing again after half a year lmao

Also i've finished my britney spears cd collection I have her first six albums and a cd player

Also i've been angering Zionists all over the world :smiling:

I was at my mom's farmers market she runs and they were livestreaming and I stuck a giant Palestinian flag on my water bottle and drank water when the camera panned to me I also made an account on the same app i catch pdfiles and showed hardcore evidence of Israel committing g3noc1de and converted two Zionists into Pro Palestine supporters

@Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ Zamnnn- you out here cooking the food and eating it too? Period.

Tbh I wish I understood the whole war thing... I hate the fact that anyone is fighting at all... just leave people alone..!

@Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_ I feel bad that you and JC broke up, but I understand... Hopefully y'all don't have to be apart forever tho! Random- but Nikki and Shane may do their wedding through zoom later this year so I'll be attending that :smile_cat: . Also I'm about to learn the HELL out of spanish because many of the latinos around here are helpful and scandalous all at once- like- some hate the hell out of you and others help you because they have a SMALL sense of human decency-

but that's the west coast for you. Also I'm gonna try to put on some muscle by winter [no matter how embarrassing-] because- it's giving "twinkfoot" :skull: But what about school out there? How did you adjust to it? @Th4t-_0ne-Vaquera-_