I feel too many things at night and it makes me wish tomorrow wouldn't come. Distractions or sleep, either way I'm just laying there with my thoughts. Overthinking and crying until I can't breathe or think straight. I just want to get it over with so I can stop feeling like this. I guess it'll get better, but I've been told that so many times before and it feels like I just get told that so I'll shut up and quit crying. I know how I look to everyone, I'm pathetic. Sad and a waste of space. I'll try and feel better though. Deep down I know I matter to at least someone. Idk who but I just have to assume that my absence would mean something. I'm probably being dramatic and I might not even feel this way within a day or two, its always off and on for me but sometimes it feels worse than other times. I feel like I have no one to bring it up to, I don't want to bother anyone with dumb shit like this. Sometimes I just need to get it all out of my head to start to feel a little better again. The way I feel is no one's fault but my own.

I'd appreciate it if no one says anything, I'm not looking to discuss my feelings I just need it out of my head rn.