god the rumbling wont stop it sounds like an earthquake
i turned the music up to drown it out but its so LOUD

i want to turn all the lights on to decrease paranoia/chances of visual hallucinations but the problem is the lightswitch is in the dark half of the rv and the paranoia has set in already

LOL I CAN FEEL SOMETHING IN THE DARK PART UH OH

time to turn the music up more i guess

so whatever it was i could feel it looking at me which is Not Fun so i discovered there was a sliding door to that part and i shut it so i feel slightly better but not by much

i hope this is over by the time i wanna go to bed cause the homeboy in the dark is where my bed is

i wpuld like to comfort eat but i have eaten quite a lot already today so i guess ill just Die

i opened the door and the funny little man in the bedroom is still tgere aaaaaaaa

shoutout to me who hasnt died yet and shoutout to my brain for producing a discord notification sound as a hallucination so i go from Fear to 'What The F.uck' then back to fear

well the rumbling finally stopped

im cold and i wqnt blanket but theyre all iN THE BEDROOM UGH

my wifi has turned off 3 times now and im starting to suspect its the homeboy in my room that is doing it

THIS IS NOW THE 4TH TIME SOMETHINGS UP

trying to convince myself to keep this post up after its all over cause i have to get over my fear of the public knowing im insane and what better way than to keep this up for anyone to see
this is probably a rational fear too, the first two times anyone found out that i didnt know i got called a slur and was made a jojo reference out of (got the character wrong too, im joseph joestar not doppio)

god im so cold i wish there wasnt some unknown entity occupying my bedroom so i could get a blanket

INEED TO STOP ACCIDENTALLY DOING THINGS TO MAKE IT WORSE NOW IM DISSASOCIATING ON TOP OF THIS LOL

josephs no good very bad night

funny guy in my room is gone lets f.ucking go

NOO im so sorry i wasnt there i was Asleep

Hey dude, I hope you're feeling better :(

@art_witch yea im good now i woke up feeling a lot better ty for the concern tho :)

I'm glad you're doing better man :D

Schitzophrenia sounds like he.ll, I'm so sorry you have to go through this ):

@soupibuddi stuff as serious as this doesnt happen very often but damn it sucks when it does happen :pensive: i always end up fine the next day tho