I know how this feels, it's hard find the point in doing anything, even with all the free time in the world.

@SoupiBuddi It's not just finding the point, its finding something to find the point of.

Yeah, and theirs that.
Everything becomes more and more hollow and empty, over time.
That's depression I think.

*there's

Funny. I've never thought about having depression. Though, it is entirely possible

@SoupiBuddi

depression is intresting, it can just be feeling utter despair for some people, for others it can be dull moods and lack of emotions or motivation, and other things like that.

I've noticed. Both of my older sisters were, and they were polar opposites. My dad is too, and he's almost nothing like either of them

@SoupiBuddi *Are I don't mean to make it sound as if they're gone

my sister has depression too, and she's a lot different to how it is for me. She has really strong emotions and stuff.

That's how my oldest sister is. She really likes people, but hates her life... Or, did before she moved. I'm pretty sure she's engaged now... My other sister, however, stayed away from people whenever those feelings came, and keeps her feels to herself

@SoupiBuddi Heck I keep not tagging you

My (older) sister can't trust anyone, but and the same time she can't trust herself, and got into this confusion in her head and doesn't know what's the right opinion to have.

and yeah, she also hates her life

@SoupiBuddi I've had almost that-- I have a problem with being decisive and so I [still] feel that it's better to not decide. Now, people rarely ask for my input anymore because I don't trust my judgement, causing me to second guess myself and my decisions... Which just takes more time

@l-_-l
I feel like that too. Nobody usually asks for my opinion or anything so it I try not to think about it.

@SoupiBuddi Yeah, but it still help to know that they want my help, so I'm not feeling like I'm completely useless all the time.

I'm fine when it comes to making decisions that are 100 percent for myself though strangely. It's just when I have to say things out loud.

Yeah, nobody asking for help hurts sometimes I guess.

(Sorry if I'm the things I'm saying aren't very insightful, I'm very tired at the minute)

@SoupiBuddi Even making decisions for myself is hard. You're fine on the being tired thing, I am too. I've had to retype this sentence like thirty times, due to grammatical and spelling errors. If you need to, go get some rest.

I don't know if this will help, but sometimes when I can't make a decision I think about it very technically and try and see which decision would be the most benificial.

Also, I'm kind of at that point where going to sleep wont be too great. Where I live it's around 8 AM, but if you need to rest that's fine (:

@SoupiBuddi See, whenever I make a decision [or try to] I weigh out the way it would play out. Oftentomes, it's not a solid yes or no on any choice, because they all have about the same amount of pros/ cons. And I overthink just about everything. Like, a couple days ago, and this might be a part of why I'm so empty, I went over to a friends house, and I was going to tell her that I really like her. But, her brother answered the door, and after going to tell her I was there, he xame back and told me that she didn't want to talk. That hurt. Sunday, I went to church, expecting to see her there-- because she had mentioned how excited she was to finally be able to go back in person-- But she wasn't there. Her family was, but not her. Since then, I've been really worried that I said or did something to scare her away, and been racking my brain for what had happened.

I'm not sure you needed to know that, but now you do. So, if my math is correct, you live in western Europe?

I haven't really been in a situation like that, but I overthink a lot. Once I thought someone hated me because of something they said, and I thought that they might have said it for many reasons.

Sorry my grammar is bad right now

what i meant was, i tried to think that the problem wasn't me, but i was also very careful.

Ouch. It's been a week now, and I haven't seen her or heard anything. And last I saw her parents, they wouldn't even look at me

Yup. That's correct. I live in the UK.

@SoupiBuddi I see no error with your grammar.

Oh.
I mean...was there anything you think you might have said?

Nice. It's just after 3am here, but I can't sleep

I mean, it could be something to do with another family member, or a misunderstanding?

It's 9 AM here now, I gave up on going to sleep

I've been trying to figure that one out. We went to a dance together, then a walk around town. Thursday of last week, we spoke on my way to work, but only briefly, and I havent seen her since.

I haven't really interacted with them in a while, minus asking for permission from her parents to take her to the dance, and they were fine up until Sunday, which was when the wouldn't look at me.

Huh.
Okay that's confusing

Maybe it's because you asked her to the dance?? idk her parents might be protective?

@SoupiBuddi I know. I've known them since I moved here [seven years!] and I'm confused. Something in the Universe isn't quite right anymore, ya know?

It's not the dance, though they are quite protective. Her mom went into the school that I'm going to and had a chat with them.
*BACKSTORY* Back in 9th grade, her parents pulled her out of public school and started homeschool. The school policy on the dances was that students who didn't go to this school couldn't go without a guest pass. Thanks to Covid, they changed it so that those students cannot go at all.
So, her mom went to the office and ridiculed them for not allowing somebody who is almost 100 percent safe from the virus attend. Long story still long, I was alllwed to bring her.

hhhuh.,.,,
it's most likely her parents being overprotective? My parents are over protective, it can be like that sometimes, but ig also nobodies parents are the same so it's just a maybe

Maybe covid and social distacing is giving everyone cabin fever

@SoupiBuddi Even if they were that overprotective, I'm 98 percent sure that they're ok with me being there for my friend. Overprotective doesn't account for the dissapearance from Church, though...

Maybe...

huh,,, it's really a mystery,,,,,,,

Oh.

It is a mystery. And apparently I'm no detective. Defective? maybe. but not a detective

It'll get better

hopefully

@HungryAardvark Maybe. I hope so, or I just lost my longest standing friendship ever. Which, by the way, sucks

I just had a thought
maybe it's nothing to do with you and like
something happened to her? Like she got covid or somthing,,, worse

I actually had a drean like that. Her neighbor, who has already kinda threatened them, abducted her and was keeping her in his basement. I hope it's not that bad though. As for Covid, she's already had it, so she's immune for at least a month longer

@SoupiBuddi