It IS worth it!
...I want to say this right, beacuse: toxic positivity is easy to manifest.... Please take everything I say with a grain of salt..
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Stop pretending everything's OK, and set your sights on what TRULY makes you happy. Your life's worth more than the bad memories and everything else that comes from them. There has to be something far more important to you than what your feeling (you DON'T want to always feel this way, right?) There's going to be *$$holes everywhere, there's going to be unfair challenges: but you can't see them as something that's SO important that you can't go on.. Whatever you want to do, concentrate on that; realize the people in your way aren't important, so that you CAN feel positive; it'll be a real feeling, it'll be something you physically feel, too!
Even when a naysayer ways something, it'll roll off.. (It can still try to start to create a bad memory, but you'll be able to control how you feel and get rid of any negativity that comes with it.)

Mostly, realize how important YOU are (in a none vain way) and how important your goals are. Everybldy else who makes fun of you for ANY reason, isn't worth your time or a space in your mind.
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Also, I'd like to apologize if anything came out strange... It's late where I am, but you need to know that so many people aren't evem worth aknowledging at all. Once you realize that, even when they say something, you'll be able to shrug it off... aw if they weren't there, and head towards your goals.

I'm so sorry your feeling this way. were all here if u need to talk :) Ik things are tough rn but I hope your okay, Ik bullying isnt easy trust me I've been there.

What Cleric said is some really good advice.

I don't know what toxic positivity is, but I try to appear happy all the time even if I'm not.

The people who bully you aren't important. There's a lot of them in the world, and in this long life, a few of them might realise that what they did was terrible. Some might be uneducated or misinformed, but that still doesn't make it okay. Most of them are people who see something and copy it, they probably don't know what they're doing and probably aren't that happy because all of the toxicisity being pushed at them really going to their heads.

People like that aren't important to you in your life, but at the same time doesn't make how you feel hurt or scared by them any less valid.

@cleric @soupibuddi @zoeyhoke thank you so much everyone for these sweet comments. And to answer your question, toxic positivity happens when I force my self to be all happy go lucky even when I am upset, but mainly I suppress all of my negative emotions. I hope once Covid is over, or if not, at least a little more in control, I'll be able to have a calming experience junior and senior year. And if it ever came to be, to hopefully forgive those as well.

Ah, yeah, I understand now.

lssen to phenox by League of legends i kinda bace my life off of it. Rip.