epic blocked moments with ender
um anyway
I hope you've been doing okay.
I kind of. regret telling you to listen to eateot. if this is what the post is about. cause its affecting you in what i think is a negative way.

@kiwiichu eateot=tatertotbaby confirmed???????????????????????????????

eatotter

@Desdenova

I hope you've been doing okay too.

I'm good. Since leaving colors I've gotten a lot better. There has been many ups and downs but they're not too bad. I'm also trying to get over my toxic traits.

Here on colors, I used to make my problems seem like they were worse than they really were. Then I got into this loop of beliveing my problems were worse and worse.

So. Yeah, things aren't as really bad as I thought they were, I just craved pity or validation or whatnot.

Oh, and, yeah. This drawing is about EATEOT, I don't know if it's making a negative or positive impact, but I do feel better, if not just a little numb.
Anyhow, listening to the album in the first place has boosted my productivity, so it's done some good.
Also by the description I meant I just get the tracks stuck in my head all the time.

Sorry for the text wall.

I hope you've been doing okay.

I'm glad you're okay. I worry about you sometimes. I think about you more than I probably should. I just.. idk. Some part of me still wants to be like we used to be but I don't think that will ever happen because I'll be scared of messing up. I'm really glad you're improving

Well...the feelings mutual, about wanting it to be back the way it used to be.

I'm afraid of messing up too, so yeah.

But, scared of messing up how though? It was me causing all the problems.

@Desdenova
oops

I mean I kinda feel like I'll say something and hurt your feelings or you'll take it too personal or something,,, /nm I worry about my friends too much and a part of me says that that only happened because I wasn't there for you enough which idk might be true?? but i dont think it is.
I remember feeling bad that you were sad all the time and wishing I could do something to help
And even now you old friends here aren't really your friends, or werent. Vin called you annoying because all you posted were creepy/dark/depressing stuff and I felt really bad for you /gen

@Desdenova
I used to take everything everyone said too personally. I got in a negative mindset that made me on guard all the time...I don't think I would now. Leaving has helped clear my head out.
Also...it didn't have anything to do with you.

And, with problems that make me feel depressed, I've found that talking about them just makes me feel all wierd, and usually worse. I also feel kinda wierd that you and everyone here knows a lot about my life.
There's a lot of things I wish I never told anyone.

Also yeah, I had the feeling Vincalibur found me annoying.

But I guess I found him annoying too 'cause of his sarcasm so

Hi I hope your doing well...

@Desdenova

Sorry, I haven't checked on colors in a while

I wanna be friends again too. I promise I wont mess up this time. (-:

wait....how do you click links

yay!!! it's fine ehe you have ur own life :]
if you are on phone/computer you can copy and paste it, i have no idea if it will work for ds, probably not

@Desdenova

Ah, okay, thanks.
I'll figure it out

I genuinely miss the friendship I had with Ender

I wish I could have been a good friend to them, I wish I could have met them when I wasn't a bad, impulse person.