Loss of self by Murjana
Every now and then, I have "bad days," days where I get stuck inside my own head and just... can't get out. I don't eat or run any errands or... anything. I'm almost completely catatonic. Yesterday was one of them, and I'm still trying to fight it off. So... yeah. Have me in a wheat field, with "me," my personality and everything that makes me who I am, discarded in the foreground. That's what a "bad day" feels like to me.
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05 Sep, 2012, 12:45 pm
i understand, but there is some dun shine, and you have very nice outfit on, the sky is blue (in my world its purple) heh but always want help in anyway i can!
05 Sep, 2012, 12:59 pm
I had a dream during one of my bad days where I was in a lush park on a white castle on a wrought iron city on a cement fishery on pillars of rock in the middle of an endless ocean. Nobody but me and sockpuppets who used to be people. I woke up and couldn't figure out why I wasn't on a bus. I hadn't left my apartment in three days, so why I expected to be on a bus is a mystery, yet I can still remember the exact layout of most of that dream place... I think I had a dream about visiting a comicbook shop/tattoo parlour there last night.
05 Sep, 2012, 1:30 pm
you have very vivid and almost pulling dream, i'm jealous. i have really stupid dreams or really freaky dreams... :I
05 Sep, 2012, 5:38 pm
i have stupid dreams too. ._.
08 Sep, 2012, 6:19 am
i know how those days feel.....
09 Sep, 2012, 5:46 am
Yeah those days suck...I get sad easily but don't show it...then suddenly I'm bouncing off the walls but sometimes I wish someone could through the fake smile and hold me close...I wish someone in rl understood...
09 Sep, 2012, 8:55 am
I get those too! The odd thing is I somewhat enjoy these types of days where i just lay and sulk all day. I think I'm just in love with my sadness. I love your wheat field. I associate wheat fields with forgiveness and mending freindship. Thanks in part to a Depeche Mode concert I attended back in '07
10 Sep, 2012, 4:23 am
I doubt anyone here HASN'T tried burning things. I keep a box of large wooden matches, and the smell of them burning IS soothing, but I've seen small fires get way too big way too fast, so I don't burn things anymore... I did used to enjoy melting Barbie legs with a heated spoon, and watching their fake hair curl into clumps of plastic. My mom stopped buying them after a while!