Most people don't understand what it's like having to take pills and deal with all the side effects that come with them just so you can feel a small glimps of the same things that they can feel; or not take them and get marginalized for not feeling the same things they do. Medications aren't going to fix it. There might be only one pill that can cure you. It's a copper coated pill that I've heard is pretty mind blowing when you take it. I probably wouldn't recommend it.