so recently i've just used plastic serated knives (sterilized. i disinfect everything i use to hurt myself, even rubber bands) because last time i used something metal it got real bloody. and this doesn't make me bleed at all. which is meh but it still hurts so

i'm not glorifying self harm in any way. i know it's a sh!tty thing to do. i know i need help. sorry i keep posting these. hh.