Aren't Dads supposed to love you? by Am_ded
idek what to say other than my dad's being an a$$... again. i hope he goes to hell. he fncking makes me want to kill myself. he wants me to be exactly like how he thinks i should be and he never even tries to understand me and im sick of it. i wish my mom would realise what a fncking a$$hole he is and divorce him. but apparently it's not his fault. it's his mom's fault bc she was an alcoholic. i'm surprised I haven't started cutting. I do jab my arm violently with a pencil tho.
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03 Sep, 2019, 4:20 am
Parents dont get it. children today are affected by so much more than what they went through- i know how you feel, and sadly, im already at the cut-ting part.
both my parents dont get my phobias/ trust issues because 'i'll get over it' or 'we know you better' etc.
yet they wonder why i cant trust them because of that one incident that literally caused so much fear.
my mom keeps using the 'abusive parent' story too when really she's the abuser
they say that victims become heavily traumatized or the abuser themselves
i cant even talk to my parents without crying, so charlotte you are doing better than me at this point .. love you, <3 [no romo-]
03 Sep, 2019, 4:25 am
just ,, really, charlotte i hope you are ok right now because i'm kinda scared.
03 Sep, 2019, 4:32 am
thanks for saying that. that made me feel a little bit better.
03 Sep, 2019, 1:31 pm
You should stop jabbing your arm with a pencil
It may seem safe but it can become dangerous​and even lead to worse forms of self harm
A better coping mechanism could be having a warm shower or having a cup of coco, tea or coffee.
If you have headphones, those with music or youtube videos may help. Sometimes comedy videos help a little, but sometimes they don't do much.
I recommend reaching out to those you trust for support. Trust me when I say self harm, no matter how small, can be dangerous. I used to do some smaller things that led me to doing worse forms until I did a form that caused me to realize it was bad all along and I needed to stop, not just for me, but for my friends who care.
Remember that you aren't alone and you can always message me of you need help. I'll respond as soon as I can.
If you have Amino then I could respond faster
I know life is tough and scary but it will be smoother on some days over others