welcome to what my mind looks like. just a voice screaming these things at me. i feel just like saying 'screw it!' and pulling the switch. it would mean i wouldn't have to deal with this sh.t anymore. wouldn't have to deal with ppl anymore. i would just be happy in the after-life. then i'd see my friends after a short while. we'd be able to talk whenever we wanted, we could do anythiing we wanted. it'd be amazing. maybe i will maybe i won't. maybe im really just an emotionless husk.