Hey dont listen to your dad. and dont harm yourself. theres other people who care about you alot and dont let your dad be the reason why you hurt yourself. just focuse on what you love to do and thats drawing or whatever. dont let your dad get you down. if you need to talk to anyone im here.

Oh my god I’m so sorry. All of that is so horrible and I can’t imagine the kind of things you go through having to remember all that. Don’t apologize for venting hun it’s healthy to get things out instead of keeping them bottled up so long. I can’t imagine living with an abusive parent but you’re doing so well I already know you’re being so strong and pushing through. There will always be those friends in life who are true friends but they will show you that their way of treating someone isn’t right and you will learn from that and find people who do treat you right. Just know that I’m here and this community is here if you ever feel alone or you just need a place to vent to <3
Stay strong!

I'm sorry you went through this.

Oh my gosh, that is horrible! Don't listen to any of those people, they are lying to you. You can't let them brake you down anymore. When they do, tell yourself you are good, tell yourself you are beautiful, and just get all that bad stuff out of your head. I've been there, it wasn't as bad as your's, but I know how it hurts. It's going to take /A LOT/ of time, and your not going to believe it yourself, but this is how I was told to help heal from everything. It starts with getting confidence in yourself. So everyday, look in the mirror tell yourself that you are beautiful, that you are worth something, and that you can get past this.
Second thing, don't ever hurt yourself, I've done that before too, all your doing is letting whoever hurt you win. Your skin is not paper so don't cut it. Don't pull out your hair. You need a way to express your feelings without taking it out on yourself, so you can try running, it helped me a lot.

Drawing everything but nothing at the same time, where you just kinda almost scribble on paper but it turns into something. I forgot what else that I was going to tell you so I'll end it by saying again, please don't hurt yourself.

Thank you guys

Oh my gosh, please dont say that!! You aren't a disgusting, horrible person and it's not your fault other people are horrible to you.
If you're dad is still abusive and you still live with him like you said, you should consider calling someone to just get away. Try focusing on the people whi do care and are good people, and keep talking to your therapist.
Im so, so sorry you've had to go through so much crap. I'll keep you in my prayers and we're all here if you need to chat