Hey I read the description and you shouldn’t go through with whatever it is you think is the solution. You might feel alone right now but it won’t always be that way. If you say you have to cut ties with people then obviously you still communicate and bond with others that will care for and grieve your disappearance. Suicide is not the answer because whatever your going through, it’s not gonna last forever. You’ll pull through this struggle and you’ll come out better and stronger then you were before. Please seek counseling or find alternatives to occupy your mind and keep you away from thoughts like this, find something you simply couldn’t leave behind.