I'm going to say something that I've heard a few times and that I'm sure you've heard too. While the hard days feel like they crush you and grind you into the ground, don't forget, as odd as it may seem, to be thankful for those days. Because those days are the ones that make you stronger, and make the good days all the more pleasant and beautiful. I never tall about things I go through online, but I honestly suffer from some pretty scary stuff and there are days when it really hits me hard and I curl up in my room and cry all day. But the thing I force myself to remember is to be thankful for the bad days, because they make me stronger each time I push through them. Robin, everything will pass, all the hopelessness you feel will fade over time and things will get better, you just have to fight, and never quit fighting.

I'm sorry you have to endure this - I understand how hard it is. But you have to cling onto that hope. That hope is Jesus, remember? This world is wracked with sin and death, but we are not victim to suffering because we have been redeemed from it. "He took up our infirmities and carried our diseases, and by His wounds we are healed." This is what Christ came to do, and all you have to do is receive it. It's hard to imagine how things will get better, but if God can't do it then who says He had the power to win your salvation in the first place?
Keep praying and asking God for healing, knowing that He desires to bless you and His eyes "run to and fro throughout the earth to give strong support to those whose hearts are blameless toward Him." You've got a pure heart, named Righteous and seated beside Him in heaven. You get to receive all His blessings! Think of that as you ask and thank Him for perfect healing.

Re: Thanks! :)

Re: Na, that's Belle, my little mouse.

Day, is something serious happened?

Re: Aw... I really hope that you will recover soon...