guys it now 4 am. I woke from that dream I thought I was texting one of my friends on Instagram. And it soon to be an other friend who is in a middle of recovering like mentaly. I dont remember what their texts was but it was like jumbled up with alots of "whats" and some little wording at least. I dont know how I found out I know it was them. Its like they are blaming me to blame for being too optimistic. our last talking was like disappointing and dramatic.