Don’t read this is if you don’t want to here about very gruesome things

so you know how my lizard disappeared? I found her...but she was in half and peices her guts were hanging out. Let me explain how I found her, okay so my cat Mylee is limping because her paw is injured somehow. She was under my sisters bed so I was giving her treats. I moved my hand and felt something squishy, looking over I didn’t realize what it was. I backed up and I saw one half of her and then I saw her head, I burst into tears and I didn’t even look at her for long. I ran from my room crying and hyperventilating having a panic attack and told my that I found her and then I fell to the floor. It was so hard to breath and all I could do was cry, it was awful. I feel awful and I’m mad at my cats (I don’t care whether it is there instincts or not). It hurts so badly, it was so traumatizing even if I did only see her for a few seconds..

i feel like it’s my fault like I could’ve done something. I feel awful I feel horrible I’m a horrible person. I’m so sorry, I want to apologize to her...my stupid cats put her through a lot of pain...

im really shaken up and shaking badly

she buried in the woods behind my house now...I am forever sorry for her.

i don’t deserve anything.