HE GONNA SLAP A HO

HE GOT THE BACKHAND READY

and dat shading tho

no, wait, /dat hand/

KUDOS PAYT

I've been drawing like CRAZY on my laptop. Everything turns out 99% better on there (except the coloring, coloring is much better on here)
Ughhh I wish I could get colors on my laptop or something fucc

This was literally just a hand/anatomy practice so anatomy was bad BUT DEN HANDS THOOO.

I actually posed my own hands and took picture of them to use as reference X,D

Whatever works works

DEM*

One day I'll get this shit down and will be able to fookin do dramatic poses and shit snwkbsks

Determined asf

payt idk if youll see this since it's an older pic but cs has updated a bit of stuff on colors, now non 3ds comments are viewable on a 3ds BUT if there are a f,uck ton of comments your ds will crash when you try to look at the comments lol

SO i cant comment on your newest pic or probably any pic of mine or yours that we've used to chat on very much.

hhh i need to make a discord, im such an uncomfortable idiot when it comes to making messengers or any social media and just ughhhh man

i saw a pic on here that was hype about something banjo kazooie related & googled them to see what the hubbub was about

HOLY FU.CKING SH.IT THEYRE GETTIMG IN SMASH

OH MY GODFF HOLY S H I T MY MOST WANTED

god i need to get ultimate i miss playing smash with you and jimmy and other buddies lol :^(

PAYYTTTTT I SEE YOU COMMENTED ON MY BANJO PIC

ahh i wish i could comment on your newest lol dang ds crashing jank

maybe if i comment here enough, youll notice a moderate amount of comments in the notification for this pic & youll look XD

..... I>j<I
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hh im sleepy but g o t t a d r a w

hmm

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happy sayirn is happy

sayirn

SAIYAN SATURNS

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i keep seein you comment on my stuff & i cant go on your newest to tell you anything aafffgfgfhfgfn

my 3ds can only load liikkeeeeee 2OO-somethin comments, any more than that and it gives up on life & crashes

*clicks*
*tries to load*
*tries to load*
*tries to load*
*/tries to load/*
*CRASHES*

i dunno how CS can even get that fixed either lol

using colors to talk sucks, i miss getting to chat with you every day.

I SENT A MESSAGE LAST NIGHT AND IT DIDNT POST DMXBSMBXNS

COLORS WHY FUCC U

Am here finally uwu

And ik I miss you so so much. I have so much going on and at times just think "man i wish i could talk to Katt about this" ugh

RIP POST

NOMMED BY COLORS

*FURIOUS NOMMING NOISES*
(probably sounds like cookie monster on crack)

eee im so glad i can read these comments againnn :D hghEERH HAPPY GIBBERIDH

ANYWAY how have you been payt? ive been wondering & hoping you, your parents & bro & everyone were okay or atleast mostly okay.

also if this pic's comments get to a point where i cant load them on my ds anymore, i guess ill go to some old pic of mine and tag it then go to /another/ old pic and post the tag on it, i dunno which ones ill do it on or if ill definitely take that route but when i figure it out ill let you know :^)

I've... been better. Things went pretty downhill for me recently. Nothing I really wanna bring up just yet, but...

Idk, I've been pretty down and just trying to distract myself from the black pit that is my depression. : , )

I found that I could emulate Symphony of the Night on my phone and have been playing that when I'm feeling down.

It makes me super happy that Richter and Simon are playable in smash, but extremely sad that Alucard is an AT. :(

How have you been, though?

I've been pretty worried about you lately.
I kept telling myself to get back in contact with you again but colors be like "no, die"

aww payt im sorry *hugs* depression sucks, i wish that sh.it wasnt a thing.

& ooo, symphony of the night? sounds fun- i love that game even though ive never played much of it myself. i always watched my older bro play it, loved watching him play it even though some of the enemies and bosses scared me as a kid lol

and i know, when i saw that richter & simon were in but alucard was an AT i was like "BUT ALUCARD SHOULD BE PLAYABLE"

he's so dang cool, sakurai y u make all the cool bois ATs :^((

& ive been okay, not the best but not the worst. im (slowly since im a fu.ckin slow poke) working toward finally getting a permit and then license, maybe after i get those i can get a job somewhere. (*expects walmart*) i wanna save up some money and get a switch & smash so i can join in the fun on that lol. i miss playing smash with you, heck i miss playing smash in general even though it made me rage a lot.

ive especially wanted to play it since i went on it & unlocked several chars for my nephews (they have ultimate)
i used marth to beat & unlock... like... 8? chars.

playing marth was pretty fun, i tried cloud for a match after i unlocked him & he wasnt as fun as marth, so i think ill be a marth main again in ultimate when i get on it (if nothing happens between now & when/if i get it)

my nephews didnt have pokemon trainer unlocked so idk how i feel about zard in ultimate, and me playing banjo & kazooiw (seriously) will depend on how they feel--

i hope their moveset will mesh with my playstyle lol i still cant believe theyre in... it's so amazing theyre in hhhgbhhh

Ahh yeah, I actually hate how Marth feels in Ultimate, at least online.

His tipper only does 2% more damage (and this is side smash tipper) than Lucina's entire sword...

He is really really weak in a game that basically requires a lot of damage output to keep up.

Ofc Lucina is fucking great. Ofc.

So I haven't really been using him much, at least until they buff him. /:

I've started using Richter almost always, Robin is my secondary.

I was maining Joker for a bit, but everyone started complaining about how good he is, so I dropped him. Especially now since I'm like "hhhhhh c a s t l e v a n i a" mode lol

Ughhh Alucard y u no be playable >:,((

And that's good that you're working towards things! I'm trying to wait till I can (hopefully) move back in with my dad before I get a job..

My mom expects me to pay rent and shit immediately and isn't gonna let me save up any money. She also is gonna expect me to pay for my gas and probably food. Which is just... unrealistic with a minimum wage salary.

Dad won't ask for a cent of my money, so hopefully I can move in with him and try to save up. Then I can start working towards moving out.

My mom is still the same old cock sucking bitch she's always been.

Her and step douche are apparently house hunting together, which is really the only reason she's pushing me to get a job now. Because /he/ said something to her.

I just wanna move out and never see her stupid ass again..

I honestly hate her and what she's done to me.

It's a lot to explain, what's been going on these past months. It would be nice if I could just voice chat with you. Typing it out takes so fucking long and I just hhhghvh.

hmmm she didnt start pushing you to get a job til her and step do.uche (pff that name) started house hunting huh? makes me wonder if theyre wanting some of the money youll make to put toward the house they find (or whatever)

since youve felt sh.itty lately.. i feel like youve been stuck with your mom & d.ouche lately, havent you? hh i wish you could go move in with your dad & get away from TheTwoA.ssholes.

from what youve said of your dad, he seems like a cool dude, i wouldnt mind meeting him XD

^ in october there's gonna be a festival thing in tennessee & the leps are gonna be at it. (oh my god i wanna go see themmmmm. god id love to /meet/ them & atleast give them a handshake, id rather hug though X"D)

the second i saw that it was gonna be in tennessee, the thought of "what if i went to that then saw payt later while im in tennessee??" crossed my mind.

it crosses my mind every time i think about it, right now im in no position to go though :^(
itd be amazing to meet & talk irl, we could talk about any stuff that we dont want out on the internet and we could death hug one another!

if i did manage to get my sh.it together by that time i dunno how my parents & bros would feel about skinny weak a.ss me going off alone to /another state/ lol

but it still crosses my mind and id like to do it.

and i noticed that marth was kinda weak when i was playing him, took more to get kills than it did in sm4sh (even pre buff)

what was the percent difference between lucina's everything & marth's tippers in sm4sh? i forgot. "I5" is a number that's sticking out in my mind but i dont think that's right lol

and castlevania mode?

sounds like i better draw richter & alucard at some point
(,,,
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(,,,

*silently checks this atleast once a day*

"maybe i should comment"

"BUT I DONT WANNA POST TOO MUCH AND GET IT CRASHIN"

REEE

nother random comment cause *picture of wynaut*

i hope youre doing okay, payt-

Sorry, I'm okay just a lot going on. I'm kinda staying busy now. I have a lot I need to tell you but colors is annoying..

I've got a lot of good and bad shit going on right now.

But anyway, I hope you're well. We should play smash again sometime, I really miss hanging out with you.

it's okay girl, you dont have to be sorry! im glad youre okay.

oo staying busy though, that's actually good lol. ahh yeah, annoying colors :^( hm.. discord, how's it? is it what you tend to use for messages or do you use a mix of stuff?

the past two weeks or so ive been going on my laptop on pretty much just youtube (im honestly afraid to do much cause computers and i dont get along. my last two fu.cked up but apparently the fu.ck ups werent my fault, stuff went out on the computers. still, that's left its mark on me X"D) to watch ultimate vids and listen to music, maybe i should make a discord? id really want to do it on a phone (idk why but im more comfortable with that than a computer or laptop) instead but here i am still running around with no phone. damnit.

also yess

i unhooked my xbox & junk to put my laptop where it was at but ive left the wii u plugged in should i ever hop on smash with you. well, i unplugged the controllers & gamecube adapter but those are easy to plug back in.

whenever youre free to play, let me know, i /should/ be able to play since i dont really have much going on.

I only use Discord to message now, I've had it on my laptop before and it doesn't cause any issues.

The only thing I can think of that /may/ bug you is it requires an email to use, I think.

Which, if anything, I have an extra account you can log into. You can change the password to it and everything if you want. I don't use it at all, I literally only made it cause Jimmy wanted me to go into random servers and wreck havoc with him. (Don't worry, it's clean. Nobody has friended it and has been blocked if they tried to)

"Has been blocked"
I'm..

Half a brain right now lmao.

Have been***

Also, I should be able to play at night mostly. Usually around 4 my time my mom leaves and I can do whatever.

I can't really do anything when she's here because she gets mad at me if I'm not cleaning the house or just sitting around miserable.

Also, me and Gary aren't friends anymore... I can't really go into details on here so when (if) you get discord I'll explain it.

I just realized I don't remember the credentials to my other discord, so, uhhh.

If anything I have like 300 emails and can make a brand new discord for you (or you can just use one of my emails when making it, it won't give me your password or anything, just make me click a link to authorize the account)

hmmnm i think i wanna have on a phone, there's something about talking on a laptop that makes me go "ehh" lol. only bad thing is i dunno when ill use a phone :^(
i want to get my s**t together in life and start to /be something/ more than what ive been for so long. it's a long story (or maybe not quite, it's not something i wanna post on here though) but soon /hopefully/ i might be getting s**t in order to /do something/, i wanted to months back but there was a setback (ughhh)

when i get my hopes up for ___ happening by [time] it never happens (and ends up disappointing me) so im not getting my hopes up but maybe (hpefully) in the next couple months...

also that's alright :^) i think i could use my email, i havent checked it in over a year (probably should try doing that on the laptop but ehhh i dont want to) but i see no reason why it would be screwed up in any way. (but then again sh.it apparently hates me so it would find a way to fu.ck up anyway X"D damn you, technology)

also also pff even if i used one of your emails and it did let you see anything, id not be worried about that. i trust you with things more than anyone.

also (man i say also too much) ahh. maybe you could fill me in on some whenever we play smash? or since tags are annoying to talk through, it could wait til whenever i get a discord...

ayy though i might get on smash sometime this week, i guess ill get on like 8 my time and play for a few hours (ive been going to bed & getting up earlier lately and dont wanna fu.ck that up so id be getting off by I2 probably)

i wish we could be playing on ultimate instead of 4 but no switch.. i wish id have gotten a switch instead of ps4, ive never played that damn thing and have it unhooked sitting in a dresser/storage-y thingie in my room.

i keep watching ZeRo's videos on youtube and ultimate looks like it's really fun to fu.ck around on, the vid of ZeRo and another guy having a turn based fight as hero was funny X"D and all the tourney flash mobs he's doing are funny too.

PINK DK MOB

/DONG GANG/

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payt

...my dad's almost gone now... his cancer became too much, /lots of it had grown in his brain/ and he gave up all hope almost a week ago...

a few days ago he went in the "death state" where he doesnt know anyone anymore and just... oh god it feels so unreal i cant comprehend it no matter how much i try... to me it still feels like he's just in the hospital and will be back out in a bit... no matter how much i go see him sleeping in hospice it still wont sink in for me.

this sh.it, my experience as of this past year, /especially the past few months/, has completely turnt me against some things.

things like karma? i used to believe in it but i dont now. i cant. i fu.cking cant, not after the suffering ive seen, suffering endured by someone who's done nothing but help people all his life. if karma were real he wouldnt have went through all this.

this has all cemented my belief that life is just a game of chance, what happens to you is just by pure chance. there is no force that punishes you.

any "punishment" you incur is by chance or by your own actions putting you in a bind, like moving around carelessly near something sharp, falling on it and getting killed by it.

this thing is starting to lag for me now so i think we should migrate off it before it starts crashing for me. (whenever you see this)
#ttttaaaagggg

anyway.

god payt i hope things are better on your end than they are mine and i hope your dad is okay health wise (*cuts eyes at him doing any drinking*)

i miss getting to talk with you often. ah, my fault for only being on here and being so scared of change in some things....

God, Katt, I'm so sorry. Idk if you'll see this any time soon, but, I love and care about you a ton.

I can't even imagine what you must be going through, and if there's /anything/ I can do to help... please, p l e a s e do not hesitate to ask.

Things are going pretty well for me right now, I really wish I could explain but colors just... prevents me from saying a lot.

Don't worry about me, I'm gonna be just fine.

One day I'm gonna come hug the heck out of you I swear.

I feel so guilty for not being here all these months. I'm honestly a shitty friend. God, I'm so sorry, Katt. It really would've taken me 5 minutes to check up from time to time..

I remember when my memaw got lung cancer and got to that point.

She couldn't say simple words like "remote" or remember my name..

It was so miserable for her. For everyone, really. Fuck cancer. Fuck cancer so hard.

There's nothing more painful than watching a loved one have to suffer through that. God, I'm so very sorry, Katt.

he's gone now

he passed on the 3rd.

hasnt even been a week yet but it feels like it's been forever. like years.

and ah im sorry, i figured i had some time to tag a pic before you saw but then i didnt feel like doing anything on here and left stuff untouched. ill go tag somethin in a few mins (i really dont want this to start crashing)

but anyway

it's ok payt... youve had your own stuff to keep up with. colors is a cumbersome thing to use to talk with which can make it one of those "ill checj later" things.

it's ok

and id honestly love to play ultimate with you but i still dont have a switch so bleh. i dont really wanna play sm4sh anymore cause it's probably dead at this point and dead stuff depresses me.

im not even sure that playing smash would help me much, i played my nephews' ultimate the other day (beat some junk for them) and i thought helping them would make me feel something but it was just a sorta hollow feel. didnt really enjoy playing like i shouldve either.

*forgets what i was gonna say*

off to the void that thought goes

uhhh

oh
im gonna be getting a phone (that ill actually use and not let rot in some old purse i cant stand. purses suck, id rather waltz around with a wallet like a guy) sometime, i dunno when but sometime.
we'll see if my brain goes stupid mode with it like it does with everything else.

im thinking about getting discord on it but i dunno how ill do lol

i could straight up add you as a contact on it and text but that would probably use more data than something like discord

still though i wanna do that, i wanna add you whenever i get it & set it up and junk :'^)

i tagged a thing

i hope it's far enough back & obscure enough that no one will nose.

I've been commenting on the other post, I uh.. wasn't sure whether you forgot to check it or maybe my comments got lost behind the sea of other people commenting so I thought I'd just go ahead and leave a comment here.

No pressure to respond, take as much time as you need. I'll be here if you need me. Love you a ton, Katt.