I’ve been pretending to be happy, when I’m not. I’m really depressed and I have no clue why. Mentally I just feel sick and I also feel tired of everything. I’m so tired of pretending I’m something else when I’m not. I hate school and I don’t want to go back but I have to, it’s stressful and everyone hates me at a school. I just want to lay on my bed and waste away. I’m so tired of faking it! It’s so hard..

it gets worse everyday, and everyday is another pain. It so hard to get myself out of bed every morning when I know It’s pointless, no one would care if I stayed in my room for a week because they wouldn’t notice or they would think that’s just what I normally do. If only I could stop faking my happiness, it’s really exhausting.

I’m not okay right now :( I really want run away but what’s the point, it wouldn’t help anything...it would only make it worse.