Often I’m upset at not falling in but

I guess

that avoids the stress of falling out of it.

Are you tired of me yet? Please say yes,

‘cause I’m a little sick right now.

Please love me before I electrocute myself.
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I don’t mean to be rude but-
What you do makes me wanna choke myself to death.
If nails cut like knives then so be it,
guess I was never over that cover up image.

I don’t mean it to sound sick but-
I wish I was near you 24/7.
Is that a sick case of hell and heaven?
I’m sorry, I’ll keep apologizing till the day I die..
Even if I can’t mean it.

Stop t a l k i n g about it.
It as in a person-
Cause God only knows that the
colour blue is ruined.

Please don’t blame anyone
For my nose bleeds
The only person you can blame for a cup of suicide-
Is me.

I’m sorry.
That all I do,
is ruin things for you.
I can’t help but-
Need you as my therapist.

God why?