I fear death more than fear anything, comforting thoughts like heaven don’t even make me feel okay, the thought of me one day being gone and not existing is scary. I constantly fear that I might die or have something wrong with me that will make my death come sooner. If I hear someone died it terrifies me. I will just randomly start thinking about it and have a mental breakdown because I’m so fricking scared of dying. I usually calm myself down by telling myself that I shouldn’t be worrying about that right now I have a long life a head of me, but it see,s like time is going by faster than I realize, it feels like one minute I was 9 and now I’m gong to be fifteen this year. The main reason why I’m making this is because I just had a mental breakdown over death a few minutes ago.

top three fears:
1. Death
2. Being alone/ loneliness
3. Planes