Ems, your alive because God has a purpose for you- Even if you don't know that purpose yet, or don't understand it, it's there, and it's very very important that you can eventually follow through with that- so one last thing, please tell me your not feeling suicidal? I've seen so many people on colors feeling this way and it just really hurts me and I want to make sure you haven't fallen victim to this nonsense too. But yeah, you should try to talk to your Mom, or God, or someone you care about, I'm sure it'll make you feel better.

^ agree with vivio

idk if you're actually feeling sui'cidal but don't you even consider killing yourself
you're much too precious for that
you're worth it

you've probably already recovered and told your mum by now, but if you haven't told her, you should

^^^^^^agres with all
God has something waiting for you in the end!