Okay, okay, you don't have to talk about it, but just try to breathe slowly in and out.. Unless something changed, I'm pretty sure your still Christian, so maybe try meditating and talking to God? That always helps me. Or singing songs that remind me of my childhood or happy times or make me feel sentimemtal... That's just me though. I hope this helps you Ems :)

oh geez. that must've been horrid. i hope you're feeling better now, ems ;-;