Does this mean you'll stay? :(

No. I'm not back.

Hi. Again. I know what I said but also, I am worried once again, so. No, I'm not going to keep doing this, I felt my first statement could do with a slight addition / "rewording" and this is that. (why here? I realised my earlier comments were in the worst place. Hopefully less people are looking at this.)

Anyway.
From experience, not just feeling - no one will ever, ever replace you. Never. No matter how similar anyone else could be, it'll never be the same because they're. not. you. You're not expendable and you never will be. You are you, and no one else will ever be you. That doesn't really change if you're here, or gone. Just means now everyone that knows or knew you has an Ellie-shaped hole in them, whether they admit or acknowledge it or not. I'm not trying to guilt trip you, because honestly, I get it. But. I didn't have the chance to try and save someone else, now I still have a chance to try and help you, so I'm taking it, whatever else may come.

Last one. I won't bother you.

I would notice.
I would care.
I'm sure I wouldn't be the only one. I'm certain, actually. You're grieving, please be kind to yourself. It's a nasty ride dealing with more than one loss at once.
Take care. Please.
Not for me, I'm not egotistical enough to assume these words have influence... but I'm sure there's someone out there whose words matter more. So. Take care for them, for yourself.

I tried to reach out, actually.
And then my message didn't go through so I was like "Okay, that's how it'll be, that's fine." (not that I blame you, discord randos are something else and I don't even let similar settings down either.)
But, yeah - all of that's fair and given the circumstances more than understandable. I will stop, and I will leave you alone.