- family drama went down a couple weeks ago that led to me bawling my eyes out for like 2 and a half hours straight, so i exploded and ended up venting to my dad all the major things that have been affecting me for TEN YEARS. like. thats that many years worth of bottling things up, and i told it to someone i didnt ever wanna say it to

- oh yeah and speaking of the drama thing i said horrible things to my mom during the big thing, like, things that semi-confirmed the "you must hate me dont you" thing shes been saying for years
- so she probably thinks i meant all of that even though i apologized a couple days later
- despite this shes the reason all of this major event happened and my dad told me more bad stuff related to her while i was venting to him

- all in all my family is fu cking nuclear and im dying

- oh yeah also college and senior year and all that jazz make me wanna kms
- i got accepted already but im gonna crash and burn before i even begin my ""adult life""

-this comment isnt a vent addition but i just realized ive been on colors since i was 12 years old and now im 17 i feel ANCIENT

- oh and i somehow forgot to mention my mom almost died a couple months ago too

- and it still seems uber likely that she will in like less than a year or something possibly so thats super fun huh

anyways!! its 1am on a school night so i should probably try to actually sleep now even tho i know i wont be able to bye bye

Im so sorry all of this is happening in your life honey ;-;)

If I can help or if you ever need to talk Im here okay ;;

love youuu

thank uuuu

love u too