eye study [canine] by spaceywulf
i'm so torn.
first off, friendly reminder that suicide, self harm, and mental illnesses are NEVER to be joked about.
my current school situation is admittedly very, very toxic. people i thought would never stoop so low are now shouting racial, sexist, and religious slurs in the hallways and in class. everything is suddenly a joke to them. i dont care if it's the trend or if it's highschool, it's freaking terrible.
i know a good amount of you have asked me about homeschooling... and i think you guys are right. ive been having almost daily conversations with my parents about it... and i definitely want to do it. i just want out of this school. im constantly tired and stressed and it's because of the only thing i used to like about school- the people. not all of them are bad, i have friends, but i dont feel wanted. i dont feel like me having a breakdown in class means anything to them. they all just suddenly joke about depression and spread rumors.
but i dont know when to start. on one hand, the semester's almost over, and i could have good tutors who can pick up the classes and i can switch after winter break and hopefully help my mental health. but on the other hand, it just feels too sudden. i want to continue my classes as they are but i cant stay with the people in them anymore.
im stuck. this is a really big decision, and i dont know what to do...
/ #eye #wolf #emmasfavs #emstudies\
p.s. if i post a lot of vents im really sorry, i just need to now
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16 Nov, 2017, 10:17 pm
Damn. Hopefully things can get worked out.
The only reason I joke about depression and suicide and other stuff like that is because it's the best way for me to vent. I have crazy depression and I've been suicidal since I was about 7 or 8 years old. Occasionally slitting my wrists since I was 9. It isn't super often when I do joke about it, because I know and understand how touchy that subject is. On days that I am close to a snapping point, that's usually when I'll do vent art or something. But yeah. :V
16 Nov, 2017, 10:32 pm
Homeschooling is a safe environment, it would be good for you! There are many different courses though, but if you'd like to know mine, I'm taking Kolbe Academy, my three older siblings graduated from it. It may not float you boat, but it's Catholic based so it'll have courses in theology and all that good stuff. I know there a lot of other programs out there but it's just a suggestion.
Anyways yeah, it's a lot less stressful, if you're caught up that is ^-^ *cough*
I hear though from my older siblings that college is a lot better about that stuff.
(Also working at a table is better than your room bc you'll be tempted to fall asleep. Ehhh learned that the hard way.)
16 Nov, 2017, 10:51 pm
Yesss, please homeschool! I find it life-changing, and it changes your relationship with your parents and siblings because you see them more often. In co-ops and homeschooling programs, the atmospheres are generally so different and healthy. I'm sure it'd help a ton with your anxiety too. I really hope and pray you'll find something healthy for you!
16 Nov, 2017, 10:51 pm
Also, this painting is gorgeous! <3
16 Nov, 2017, 10:57 pm
(This is so well done ooH)
Homeschool would be good for you! I've done it all my life, it's good because you don't have to deal with people :'V
16 Nov, 2017, 11:37 pm
I’m sorry I can’t really help, but homeschooling does sound the best! I hope your mental health gets better and you become less stressed!
17 Nov, 2017, 1:53 am
I'm really sorry Ems
if you do switch to homeschooling (I think it'll be better) you'll be really stressed for the first month or so, but if you have the right school they'll help you out. You might also have to try a few different homeschools. I had to, at least. But now I'm much happier then before, so the temporary stress of moving from school to school and getting used to new techniques was worth it, I'd say.