We're all human, whether we feel it or not. I know you're willing to accept your depression, but I know there's a lot more to life than that. I can't do much for you right now though. Just hang in there!

What I mean by my question to myself... it is that I have been frozen in emotions. I don't respond like others. Sometimes it make me wonder if it is a strength or making me frail. Would I even understand what others feel. To often I find myself misunderstood. It make me question my humanity. Is it my past lives? Am I delusional? Or do I have some form of damage on my brain to make me think different? I don't mind it. Though... I suppose it is a lonely place to be. Do one as I desserve anything? I do not know. My life seem to impose on others... I wonder... ...
I feel wrong upon the world, yet I do not mind. It pains me, but others do not understand when they hurt me. Should I blame others for this life I now live? i don't... I need to find the calm, the acceptance, my humanity. I forgot them once due to fears. I guess I probably punish myself for giving up hope that one time. Or is it because someone else tried to destroy my sanity? I am quite a broken soul.

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I use to many words, though my own mind is confusing. Kinda want people not to worry about me (^w^)

This painting is Beautiful! Barrocco I hope you don't mind if I say you seem to be a very strong person and your words make a lot of sense. I feel you deserve the best in this life, I wish nobody had to suffer. :) God Bless!

Re: I'm glad you've made it this far, but two is always better than one. I know that people function a lot better when they are loved and cared for.
Hey, the fact that you recognize loneliness and confusion means that you still have emotions. You just don't recognize how others feel because you can't relate with their circumstances, and that's normal.
And even if you don't want us worrying about you, I will still worry because I'm your friend and that's what friends do. :)

#Barrocco I know how you feel: I'm feeling horrible now! It shows despite me trying to hide it, as everything I do while feeling this way would either turn out horrific or sickning... If I didn't feel this way or if I'm not truly depressed: my art is usually much better... I want to refrain from screwing up anything while I feel this, but if we let ourselves stop because of depression: it'll control everything, we have to stay with what we already said we'd do and push forward out of it!

this is epic

this is cool, thanks for the advice