I haven’t had a best friend really at all in my life. Last year I finally found my best friend last year, me and her get along and have the same interests. She’s been hanging out with this other girl, and I’m afraid of losing her. I’ve never had a friend in real life before, only online. I don’t want to lose my friend, she’s the only best friend irl that I’ve ever had. I get envious when she hangs out with other people but I don’t do anything because I’m afraid of pushing her away...why am I like this? I think it’s because I don’t want to lose my only best friend...but I don’t entirely know why. Ugh I hate emotions