(cont.) But, now I feel completely out of the mix. Everyone has kept going, and everyone has improved. But during this time, I dropped out and changed focus. Everyone has improved, but me. I remember the old days when we were all together having fun....but now, it feels like everyone has gone forward and left me. I was there with everyone and was a friend. But now I feel completely separate. I feel, obselete I guess. Like a robot. I started as a sprout and I grew. And as I grew, I helped other sprouts grow. But now most of them have grown, and it's hard. I have at least two friends who have eclipsed my height and walked away completely. I'm not saying that I want to be the best, but what I'm saying is that I want to grow with everyone. Everyone else has grown but me it feels.....I don't know exactly...I feel so out of it, and I wonder sometimes if people even want me to come back. If I disappeared now.. would anyone care? And if I did come back, would it matter?

(cont.) It is very hard. And as I come out of the tunnel, I am in a new place...Life has been hard, and change is never easy...but right now I don't know what is goung to happen. Is this the end of my fun times online, or is there still more left to be said? And if there is, how much? Well, one thing for sure, I'm still the big dummy that I've always been. I'm sorry to have been rambling so long, it feels like I've basically been barfing text...But I guess I just need to barf sometimes. I guess the point of what I'm saying is, I feel like a flower in a garden. The flower was put in a pot and moved for awhile. Now the pot has been put next to the garden again, but the garden is now full. Everything else grew because of the soil it was in but this little plant only grew a milimeter because it was in a pot. Idk.... I'm Sorry guys....this is really depressing ain't it...I hate doung this stuff, I really do...... I really love you guys, all of you...If there was one thing I would want you

-to remember about me, if I had faded away, it's that I love you.

I hope that you've been penning this all down Mudkip...

I missed you so much, I didn't know what was going on, you didn't comment as much as you used to and I was worried.
The fact that we are improving is because, like you say, we keep going. Drawing everyday, spending hours on a drawing makes you improve. (However I don't think I have improved at all, rip) If you want to improve you have to do so Witz, spend more time on your drawings. And if you can't spend a lot one day, just take the time you need.
Soon you will start growing again ^o^ Come on, you have been following me since I had 12 followers?? Like WOW X'D Just don't leave please, I'm pretty sure all your friends (including me) have missed you sooo muuuch!! <3
So don't worry about anything and don't feel separate.

WELCOME BACK! ^^

There's some things I'd like to say as well.

First of all, college is a major stress point, and not everyone is fit for such responibility. I'm not saying that you aren't responsible for college (I know I'm not xD). I'm just saying that maybe college isn't the right postsecondary option for you and that you should continue working at your own pace.

Secondly, even though it doesn't seem like you've improved, you have, in some way, shape, or form. Everyone still needs help improving at times. If you need any help on some form of art, you can always confide in someone else.

Thirdly, some of your friends might have left Colors because of how "boring" and "empty" it is or by having different interests than you. *cough* even though some of your friends left you, johnny and i are still here *coUGH* if you disappeared, i wouldn't be as happy and outgoing as i am now on Colors

blargh my hand hurts from all that typing.
God bless.

naww zeke, we're all still here! you haven't been left behind, and i promise we all care about ya! i'd certainly notice if you left... and be pretty sad, really. you're a huge blessing to colors! you've been around so long, inspired so many people... trust me, you're not obsolete. we all still love ya! :3

Well.. When life gives u lemons.. Make Applejuice x3 (sorry bad joke at wrong time i guess xD)

Awwww......i definitely know how you feel.....college has been really stressful for me, too.....currently, i had to put college on hold because my car is breaking down and I new to get a new one. It's been a ton of pain for me. I know how it is to feel out of the loop but I don't stress myself about it. I would love to post at least 3 times a week but I work full time now. My attention is more focused on my RL priorities. All I can say is take a deep breath. You have plenty of people on here who care about you qnd understand your situation. There is nothing wrong with venting. You'll be ok, friend of mine.

i don't comment much on your drawings but i thought i had something to say

sure your friends might've improved and you're left behind, but didn't you say that you helped them grow? maybe it's time for them to help you

also i get that most of your life is in stress rn but that's okay, everyone gets in these kinds of situations and no you're not gonna fade away as long as you stay active (in your own way, even just by commenting and such)

also, what internet fun?? lmao this site isn't the only site on the internet, you may not find it now but you'll most likely find another community that you could be a part in

it doesn't matter if you've been left behind on the perspective of improvement, what matters is that you and your friends are still connected and willing to help each other out

i appreciate that you let out your emotions since it's so easy to just come back with a happy "hello" and hide these thoughts, thanks for being truthful with the community

I think it's a good idea to get this kind of stuff off your chest every now and then, y'know?
A school that's corrupt? That's kinda weird sounding, but I don't doubt there is such a school like it. Good thing ya noticed, right?
It's pretty difficult to find out where you left off when you go off site, even for a bit. It's understandable that it's tough to grow alongside the people you cherish and stuff and later resume, but don't let any gap discourage you from continuing; moving forward is key to finding the paths which will have you crossing paths again and again.
There's still plenty of growth to gain in this lifetime, y'know!
:)
Everyone's pace is different; it's only the time aspect we have in common.

... Snyvee might have been a better listener, Witzke! lol

you never faided! And you were never forgoten. we all still love you like we always have! things come slow. its like a rollercoster, wait for a little until you get to the top, your confused frightend and sad. On the way down you get butterflys and you gain your persinality back, your laughs, your care. just wait, ittle come back.

I lot has been going on for everyone. A lot of us are "becoming adults", so it appears like there is separation or lack of interest, but really it's been lack of focus here, because it's been needed elsewhere, school, family, work, other promising endeavors. A lot of our time is having to be taken and we cant spend as much community time with others here. I have seen this myself.

That's also why I am commenting here now, because I can help say this, and not just walk on by because I am busy (or wanting to take my time off).
I hope you find inner peace, Witz. You have brought me a lot of laughs, and I hope you find that spirit inside you so you can continue to make others, and yourself, laugh and have fun.

Witzke, you've actualy helped me with my art more that you would think. For the short time that i've known you, you've been a great and amazing friend. Always encouraging me and making me want to do better.
Were i live, the only people i know, is my family and cousins and some of there cousins, Colors has been my way of connecting and making friends, you have probably been one of the best.
I know life can be tough, i should know, i moved 4 times in 6 months, but know that whatever you do, my payers will always be with you. And know that i'll always love you as a friend!
Random: One of my favorite quotes is "Where there is shadow, there is also light!"

May God bless you!

Hey Witz I'm so sorry to hear that you have been struggling, but please know that you aren't alone. I know exactly how you feel when it comes to people moving on and away from you, especially on colors as it happened to me about two years ago. I fell into a ditch of art block and depression and was stuck to watch everyone gain new interests and stop communications with me and I wondered the same thing, "would anyone really care if I disappeared?". But listen, I think you are an amazing and incredibly talented person, you were one of those few people that made it worth staying on colors for me, you made things so lively, and you were one of my only commenters left, seeing your comments meant so much to me. You bring a ray of light that is not replaceable, it keeps people driving forward, if you were to go so many people including me would be devastated because you really mean a lot to this community with the endless joy you have brought it. That's why now I hate to see you in the same rut that I was and still am digging out of, so I'm here for you ok, the road to recovery sucks but hey if we stick together we can at least ease the pain a little. You truly are an incredible and inspiring person and I'm so grateful for all that you have done, if there's anything I can do let me know, stay strong Witz

I'm almost the same, but at least i found the pic so I can do the usual after finding a pic. for the 4th or 5th time now.