It's not that I don't want to sleep, I can't.

i also have a problem where sometimes my mind will be like "you eat to much only eat one thing to day" and then other times it's like "you eat to less, stuff your face with food"

apparently I have some oppressed memories that my whole family remembers but I can't until I'm ready? Idk...I just learned I went through some traumatic stuff when I was like 6-3...and the memories are being oppressed until I'm ready to deal with them, my whole family knows about it (I'm not supposed to but my cousin told me last night after I had a breakdown, which I have quite frequently lately.) I don't like my dad anymore...he put things in my head when I was young like that and made me cry...I had no idea he didn't act like that from what I remember...

im fine rn because I'm to tired to actually feel any thing, I think that's why I like to stay up at night because my emotions are blocked by tirednesss...

im not sleeping and im sorry for venting so much...so much stuff is happening and im still finding out things that I didn't even know happened! I have o many questions...im going to try and ask my cousin more....

Trust me when I say I am fine