This is so touching and beautiful, the lighting and background capture the emotion. Wonderful job!

this is sooo beautiful! :3

very nice. I Love your shading and grat 3d effect.

Really? Thanks... The caption is song lyrics but it speaks to how I feel about my now ex. Many people are gold diggers but I'm not into any of that. I want the person themself, their presence. I don't love intensely very often but once I do I become inseparable. The other would have to make an extreme effort to push me away. Cheat? Nope I'll stay and love. Get yourself in a situation where your life is at stake and I have to sacrifice a bit to save you? Don't have to pay me back. This kind of love takes years to build but trust me that you have a permanent ally once it happens

This is gorgeous! ^-^ It's wonderful how loyal you are (I'm the same way), and it's wonderful to still love your ex as a human being, but you must remain open and tone it down just a bit in the case that he doesn't want you back in that way anymore. You did break up. Use this as a time to heal yourself as an individual. Unless.. Did I miss something? O . O

But what I'm saying is to be cautious, as a relationship, if it is one-sided, can be self-damaging. As a concerned friend, I wouldn't want you to put yourself through all of this for someone who would possibly be annoyed by it. It is up to God whether or not you'll get back together, but I'm just hoping you're prepared for a turn you might not keep in best regards. I understand your unwaveringly integritive sentiments, as I would surely feel the same towards someone I loved. ^-^

I went to the doctor for depression today. I'm getting treatment. He would complain about my depression. Since I'm gonna be a better version of myself, he should be fine with me someday

Hopefully, if he's the kind of person you think he is, maybe. ^-^ Just relax, now that you're undergoing treatment, pray about it, and you'll get answers and reasons as to why the two of you fell apart, even if the full truth takes awhile. But my intuitive tells me you'll receive at least one answer just about immediately! ^o^ How cool'd that be? However, don't pray just out of knowing that. CX Do so truly seeking wisdom. I'm excited for you. Learn from whatever you discover, and God will guide you down the right path. You're in my thoughts and prayers always! ^-^

Oh.... News. He wants me back but only if I send him pics of me. ...lewd pics.... he truly thinks he can change my (lifelong) asexuality. And if I don't do this he won't even be friends. This isn't him. This isn't the person I came to know. This is someone who's changed

Then a customer who came in yesterday, I could sense heightened interest in me. He'd better be ace too or else I'm not going through this again. Plus, I feel more aromantic than ever before so he's got that to work through as well

Omggg the song, I love it! x3

Yes... I knew there was something about him. If your ex lacks maturity, or at least to the point as to not realize or remember that as crossing boundaries, especially yours, he is not worth pursuing. I think that's one of the reasons you broke up. While it was your ex who initiated the breakup, I feel God was simultaneously warning and maybe even protecting you from your ex's impatience of wanting 'access' to you before marriage, that made especially apparent by this new information. And remember to remain open to other vocations and to collect yourself so that you may do so observantly, wisely, and diligently.

...It was too late for no access....
I've lost basically everyone in real life. All I have are acquaintances I can't even feel a bond with because of being damaged so much. I don't even believe in God because of everything that has happened. I'm a shell of the past me. Hollow and empty inside. An outcast who's back to being alone. Lost everyone close I see in person. I don't know what's left to hang on to. My dying life? My relatively quick descent into insanity? I might as well be dead

I'll ask you one question: what is holding you together?

The prospect of me healing through therapy maybe. Because that's the only thing to give me hope. If that wasn't available I might give up. I've never been this bad before

Well, I'm glad you have that. ^-^ Once again, I am so sorry you are in this state. XC It's not a fun frame of mind, but you will heal so long as you remain optimistic. If you need to talk to someone else face-to-face, we can Skype when you have the opportunity. It may not be the same as physical contact per se, but it might cheer you up in a sense. ^-^ Take care!

Skype might be ok as long as I'm free when you're free

Alright. ^o^ Just let me know what'll work for you and I'll see if that'll be possible for me as well. Though, due to my dad's current treatments, it'll be unlikely that my family and I will be able to get out much this summer as of yet (though we may do a bit of travelling towards the end), so there's a fair chance we'll be able to chat via Skype. ^-^

Hm.... I could leave for work an hour earlier to give us a free hour. I work this week today, tomorrow, Thursday, and Saturday starting at 5pm my time. That means I'd Skype between 4pm and 5pm my time on those days. I work Sunday but schedule says I'm doing a double shift

Or I'm off Wednesday and Friday. I could find a place to go to with Wifi

Sorry I saw this late. :O Yeah, maybe we could aim for Wednesday (tomorrow) or Friday, then. Hmm... What time on those days?

Sweet and Beautiful! God Bless you Always! :)

Friday at like 4pm my time

^-^ Okay, then that's settled. Friday it is.

I realized I'm off friday ._. my work week schedule is messed up. Saturday I work. Saturday I can leave early. But I could go have dinner at where I work on Friday so I can Skype if it has to be that day

I've been having Wednesday and Saturdays off but this week is today and Friday

Okay, whatever works better for you. ^o^

Eh. And I had a mood crash during work yesterday evening. Two ladies made everything worse when they both refused to hold their phones close enough for me to see the coupon code and acted slightly hostile when I asked for their IDs to compare coupon name to ID name (didn't have IDs.... idiots. You're supposed to always have your ID). Of course I got mad and frustrated and tried my best to bottle it up which was greatly difficult due to stress. How'd they expect I'd react? Act like they're my best friends for making things worse? Ha! Nope. And they had the nerve to ask my GM's name. Like if they had cooperated everything would be fine and I wouldn't have been as frustrated. What, they were afraid I'd find something inappropriate? I'd steal their phones? I'd *GASP!* go through it??? I'm 23 and seen it all, I have my own phone so no need for theirs, and I don't care enough about them to search their phones. Honestly. What were they afraid of by letting me see their phone screen better?

All they were doing was making me less likely to want to be the nice guy and put in the code I couldn't even read on the basis of "bring your ID next time". Geez I hate the human race and wish we'd either go extinct or stop reproducing altogether

You don't see other creatures complain about getting food. Give a dog a piece of meat and you have a best friend for life. Heck! Just pet the dog for that. Humans? Give 'em food and they complain that it's .0001F too cold for their taste so remake it

Goodness, does that sound frustrating... XC Reminds me of when I was in elementary (3rd-5th grade years) in a way. Both in mindset (I inclined more towards animals than humans frequently, save for family and some close friends), and the other kids would try to push my buttons every so often, as I was different, a teacher's pet fascinated with whales for who knows why. I've long forgiven them, as there is no purpose in holding a grudge, as "resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die", not that I'd ever wish death upon anyone, of course. :O

Though, I must say I was rather amused when I attended the Valentine's dance in 7th grade. (having asked that long-time friend of mine that I started dating last year and broke up with four months ago,((on good terms, of course)) the only boy I've dated. However, of course, back then, since we were too young and shy to date, we went as friends.) I was walking around the packed dance floor with said boy when suddenly in front of me someone familiar asks, joined by others:"Hey... do you remember me?" It was the group of popular kids who used to tease me! They must've obviously been looking at my tall and sharp-looking date (seriously, he looked so handsome in his tux! X3), aaaand maybe me too, I guess... IDK XD Anyway, I responded with a "Yes, we went to elementary together," in as welcoming a tone as possible, still very astonished and excited in comprehending that this was actually happening... I still can't fathom it sometimes... CX I don't know how, but I could almost tell they were

relieved to hear that.
Gosh, sorry for rambling. <XD Anyway, looking forward to talking with you tomorrow! :D Feel free to chat about whatever you need to!

Or want to. :3 Hey! We can show off our traditional art to each other! And don't worry if you haven't been drawing lately. ^-^

I'm not gonna be home, it'll be at work though... Hm, unless you don't mind meeting my coworker if I skype at her house at some point

Okay, that'd be alright. ^-^

So long as it's fine with her. :3

Probably would be. Anyways I'll try to force myself to leave at 3:30 to go at 4. Hm... idk

Okay, though don't worry about rushing. ^-^

I feel like staying home for the hour

Alright. ^o^ Um, I apologize, but please remind me... Can you use Skype there, or nah? CX(and I understand if you can't)

The laptop shut down abruptly (it had 8 percent battery left and a flimsy charger). XC I forgot to tell you that. If you still have time, I should be back on in about an hour. Also, I can stay up kinda late if necessary, as it's summer.

Wow... Actually brought a tear to my eye. I'm sorry..

I can stay up really late since I work evenings. Makes me feel like I have more time even though I don't have mornings now. I get off on weekdays around 10:30pm and ten on Sundays. That might be an option

Okay, 'tis fine. :3

Wait, ten on Sundays as in PM? :o

I appreciate your concern! I'll try my best to upload a bit more frequently but the L button kills off the mood... Have to blow in it every 5 minutes so that it works. And I don't believe it's long enough before blowing into it won't have any effect either. So that's my story. What about you? I mean I heard that you are pretty much inactive on colors. Is everything alright?

Whaley: Yep. 10pm since we close at nine on Sundays. We're also open nine thirty M-Th, ten on Fri/Sat as well. So my latest days I get off at eleven pm. It's rough

You kiddin me? I honestly love this one. Your drawing is the same as ever, if not, better. Colors is dying I agree, but I don't wanna lose my valuable and old friends like you and JJM. I've been wanting to ask you. What happened to Sheriff Dathan? I was inactive for quite a while and I don't see her acc anywhere. Was hoping you'd know since you were always active. Man I've lost so many of em already..

Amazing! It's sooo beautiful!