I'm not stupid- I understand that personal OC's have similarity to the owner. I understand that I've been pretty vague with mine. I'm a visual artist- not an author. I can't write out the symbolism, reasoning, or parallels I have with my personal character.
The truth is, he's everything I'm not.
We can start with the obvious. I'm not a boy. Kason is. I'm not stubborn, careless, or "conversable"; I can't start my own conversations.
But another burning question I get a lot-
Obviously I'm not pregnant. I'm 16.
That's where the opposites come in.
I have been told at a young age that I will never be able to carry biological children- and that's a fact that has been breathing down my neck my whole life. It was never a problem for me. 11, 12, 13 range... kids at that age don't necessarily have childbearing on their mind...
But the thing is, I'm not 11, 12, or 13.
And I've come to accept that I will never carry biological children. And I was never upset about it.
That's where Kason comes in.
He's everything I'm not.

Anyways, I really hope that answers the question of why I do what I do, and it's not just mindless justification.
I'm not sure if I'm going to post this on my main account. If you do see this- please don't spread it.