so. that shaymin guy.
i think they just.. broke me.
just a few minutes ago i was seeing what they were up to [honestly no idea why i did] but just. seeing. the profile picture. made my heart race and when i read the description i felt like throwing up again.
i dont know why im like this and it scares me. guys i know i should email the staff but i cant. i just cant. im too scared and i'll never be brave enough. frick i forgot what i was saying um
but i cant even tell my parents about this. im too afraid to tell them about colors, theyd kill me if they found out. but i cant leave. my mind keeps bringing me back here no matter what.
i dont want to take medicine i dont want to have to see a therapist i dont want to be made fun of any more than i already am for having these weird little habits i cant control and suddenly bursting into tears if i dont have the right music.
im not who i was anymore and i miss the old 'no one on the internet can hurt me' me. --->>

my wifi just disconnected and deleted my second comment. i cant remember everything on it but it... feels nice to have typed it. i might restate some things and carry on. --->>

i really do appreciate everything you guys do for me, but sometimes i feel youre just hiding something. like you hate me and find me annoying. you guys have to deal with me being happy but one second later hating myself and wishing i didnt exist. you dont have to stay. you dont have to comment.
frick, my thoughts are scrambling. why, wifi..
i feel alone all the time. everyones enjoying life, all on animal jam or youtube or twitter or instagram and im left with nothing to do and no one to talk to when i need it most. or when i feel like it, i dont know. i just dont know what im doing or what im saying now. i feel like the third wheel to everything, the back of the crowd. in real life i say almost nothing but when i get my chance to talk i talk until i say 'oh no im talking' and stop. i dont like having to stop. i dont like how fast the world keeps going. everyone around me is living life and improving on everything and im left with not even a participation award. --->>

can i just say i wish more than 1 person is reading this

i just feel unnoticed and i dont know if it's because im so weird and weak and dumb or what it is. literally with this rant i distracted myself from the point of me saying this.. i dont want to sound helpless. im a freshman now i should be able to handle this. but i cant. im scared that shaymin punk will find me, that theyre stalking me right now, that theyll come back.
i cant do this and i dont know why or how or what to do to fix this.

thats all i have for now. sorry you deal with me and my incapabilities to live life.

who is this dude??? what a lowlife piece of sh,it

You really should contact the staff. What if they actually do come back and it's too late to stop them? Wulfeh you gotta do something about this because they aren't just hurting you they're hurting or being rude towards other people. Just block them if you don't wanna do the whole staff thing. Also I highly doubt anyone here hates you. Your not annoying your perfectly fine and we don't have to "put up with you" because there's nothing to put up with that we wouldn't mind doing for ya. We care about ya and you can bet we're gonna be here for you if that brat comes back and picks on ya!

Oh emma I'm so sorry this guy is bugging you so much! All I can really say is definitely block/report them if you havent already, and if they bug you again I'll email the colors staff for you.
and do we care about you! we're not 'just putting up with you', honest. Hang in there, sister.

Emma I'm really sorry this person is bugging you they seriously suck! I'm always here for you and if you need anything you can always hit me up every one of your followers follow you for a reason we all care about your well being and you can always count on us no matter the situation

Ems.

Email the staff now, and dont let him know he got to you.

Come up with a witty comevack, too

Listen to this comment Ems. I mean it.

You need to stand up for yourself

Sorry this is happening ems. (reminds me of my bullys lol) But you need to do something. Can you describe anything from the desc you wanna talk about?

Ems
its ok to email the staff.
we are all here for you and want to help.

Trust me. You're not the only one who thinks your friends secretly hate you.
*sidelong glance at one of the comments before mine*
But I platoniclove you, kk?

Please at least report and block that shaymin a.sshole if you didn't already...
please do what's best for yourself - and for other people.

I'm going to check this person out and see if I throw up.