real life is seriously stressing me out and im really close to having anxiety attacks again, it feels hard to breathe sometimes [like today when my mom guilt tripped me again]
it doesnt help that my parents treat my brother differently [better] than they treat me and its seriously negatively effecting my psyche
and i feel like all of my friends either want me dead or want me to themselves and thats not fun either
plus my crush has actually shown interest in me but im sooo used to being rejected that im accidentally creating a barrier between us :( he asked me out to the beach and i said no
i havent felt good mentally in a while

i just want the chaos to cease

sorry for so many vents lately

i havent been motivated to do any of my chores and its all because of overwatch
i need a break from it but im seriously addicted [i main widow, hanzo, lucio, and zen if thats even relevant], ive been obsessed with making plays and getting better

I would say you should probably try to get your parents to take you to see someone, but I'm someone who has refused to seek help for my own issues, so that makes me a bit of a hypocrite.

Mental illnesses are such a clusterf**k.
You have anxiety problems? This stuff could be from anxiety. I've been diagnosed with GAD and I've experienced similiar issues.

Unfortunately, I don't have any good or helpfu advice on how to deal with things...

ALSO we on here don't mind the vents- no need to apologize for posting them!

Man, I understand how that feels. Getting help from someone, like a psychiatrist or a psychotherapist, is your best het at this point. I know it sounds risky, but tell your parents about everything that's going on. Talk to someone who understands. If you don't tell them what's wrong, they'll just keep treating you like this. Please get help, Tianna. I've been worrying about you lately.

The mania thing makes me think it might be bi-polar disorder, since my mom has it. Could be something else as well, though. You should see if you can consult a psychiatrist.