i guess the best way to start is to just kinda explain stuff??

basically, as you may know, recently i have had very bad anxiety for seemingly no reason. well, i told my mom about the in-and-out half-panic attacks and she told me how both sides of my family have actually had a long history of anxiety and depression, and that for some reason it would hide itself for awhile until teenage years because horomones and stuff. so that kinda explains that?
i may mention often a certain "weight of the world" that settles on my head. i just have too soft a heart that now, with the anxiety taking effect, any uncomfortable topic (death of any kind, war and etc) just creates this weird crushing feeling on my head because i cant handle it very well.
in art we're doing choice projects, and i decided to draw my old cat. however this has just made me grieve more for those ive lost (including inactive colors people) so thats been really piling on my mind and just makes me more prone to panicking.
im sorry for all the vents. i really do see every comment and love them but these feelings never truly go away, just subside. i vent vaguely because it helps me ignore it..

thats all i can think of right now. have a day as amazing as you, all of you.

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