too and BBandVillager has become that thing. Im much happier now that im working on it again. ive started to draw for fun again and get hyped about making videos and playing games. For the last year, ive been getting ready for college and i practiced drawing realism and perspective. ive improved in skill but now i find it hard to draw anything else or even doodle. it has to be perfect or else i shouldnt even finish it. But because of bbandvillager ive finally drawn some OCs ive been thinking about for months that ive never drawn because i felt it was a waste of time. i stopped gaming intirely for a year because of practicing drawing and now im not sure i should even be called a "gamer". what kind of gamer stops gaming for a year?
But also i lost friends. i dont have many irl or online but im loosing them. i distanced myself from my irl friends to the point where i barely talk to them. the only person i talk to regularly is my boyfriend and i have a unhealthy relationship with him.

Either im obcessed with him and im glued to him or i ignore his existance. I cant seem to find a balance. he can tho. im such a bad girlfriend that i get mad at him at the end of dates because he has to go HOME. im clingy but at least im not getting mad at him for petty things like compliments or staring at other girls.
ive noticed i picked up the bad habbit of taking out my stress out on other people. im gonna fix that. i hate getting mad at people.
anyways ill delete maybe. not the drawing but the description and comments

i just wanted to complain and say that bbandvillager is my stress reliever lol