. by HolyPandaz
#vent
She must really despise me. She must hate the fact I exsist. She feels no love. Her words are meant to hurt and sting. Demoralizing me. She hates what I am. As an entire being. She doesn't care. Nor does she carw how she hurts me. Can't tell her how she's hurt me. It will come back and she'll throw it back as another thing to hate me by. Another reason to call me names. Laughing at how emotional I get. She is...the biggest bully...But I guess I am weak for this then. That's what she'd turn this into. Use it against me. I'll just have to wall myself up. Shut her out. Not give her anymore chances. I'm done with the harassment. The bullying. The hurtful words. She needs to know her place....Or maybe I need to know mine....Just as she says.
I'm going to regret sleeping now.... But I need to sleep....
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22 Mar, 2017, 12:23 pm
Hey, is everything alright? :(
22 Mar, 2017, 12:25 pm
aww are you alright QnQ
22 Mar, 2017, 4:16 pm
Re: ah i understand.. I too have a sister. Older though. She lies and cheats on her "lovers" says she isnt lying just to turn around and stab you in the back. I was the only one who stood up for her then she treated me like cr.ap. then she goes and gets upset and asks why are you guys ignoring me what did i do? And it just pisses me off. Then she goes and says oh i have a brother who just got out of prison. Girl you dont even know your other siblings except me and three girls! You have no brother you actually know! Ugh i dont even know how im related to her!
23 Mar, 2017, 9:31 am
if you ever want to talk i will listen!
23 Mar, 2017, 6:48 pm
Hey Panda? I know we don't talk much but, I'm concerned for you. Is everything alright? If you want to talk, I'm open to listening.
23 Mar, 2017, 6:56 pm
Re: Oh wow, that's pretty rough, I'm sorry. :'/ From hearing how she's acting, it sounds like she's struggling on the inside too and doesn't know how or where to channel her feelings, so she lets it turn into anger. All you can really do is just show her love and patience - I know from being a witness that receiving kindness even after you harm another can change your heart.
It may be hard, and maybe it's not what you want to do, but maybe try forgiving her. Sooner or later something might change, and for the better. :)
24 Mar, 2017, 2:26 am
I hope youre ok Holy. .o. *hugs* If im getting this right from what i read. Dont let their cruelty break you down. There will always be that person(s) that you just cant please. That doesmt mean youre any less special. Youre a great person and you should never forget that. Dont let their darkness cover the precious light you emit. *gives another hug* Be strong and feel free to talk to me. You have my support and I'll try my best to cheer u up.
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Re: Thank you for the comment n-n It is pretty calming.
24 Mar, 2017, 3:16 am
Re: Oh man, really? I'm so sorry, that must be traumatizing to know... I wish I could help you, give advice and encourage you, but we are separated by the physical world, only able to talk online. I know there's still sense in all this, so just hang in there and keep believing. So long as you have something to cling to, you can keep moving. I will try to be all the help and support I can in your endeavoring, but I am younger than you so I can only try. ^^
24 Mar, 2017, 4:03 am
Re: Well I may not have been on time to remind others what they're worth, but I know I can do whatever I can to do it now. Whatever your going through, You'll pull through and you'll be happy you did.
24 Mar, 2017, 4:52 pm
RE: its okay... still thank you :)
anyway... i reded this text and i want to ask if it´s everything okay?
if you wan to talk with me you can. I´here for you. You´re a great person.