Have you ever felt the way I have?
Where you can't think straight,
and your mind feels demented?
To where you are silently crying,
with tears to follow, all in a call,
to where this feels like.. nothing?

Have you ever felt this way?
Like your brain is sprawled and gross,
the more you think, the worse it gets.
To see someone say 'I hate you.'
Doesn't that hurt?

Have you seen this before?
With an older man and yet has a lover
asks for something so revealing.
No matter how you say no, the push
just keeps going through.
Trying to make me lose innocence.
I love that I have common sense.

Can you imagine this?
'I love you' goes to waste.
The last breath is taken.
Him trying to swiftly touch her waist.
With her only pushing away?

I can't do this anymore.
I can't see acceptance.
I'll let you know I won't forgive this.
I sure as hell won't forget it.

If only I could remember..
what he once sounded like.
My first true love? I don't regret it.
It always feels like I got over it.
I know I haven't felt that since..
and what I am in is an accident..
but 'true love' doesn't exist.

If I could say what I wanted I would,
but so much shit would happen.
I wish you could understand but..
you are a fragment of my so called,
'Existence'.
I'm sorry but

I love you, but you are over dramatic.
Keeping your words so toxic..
I just wanted a reason
just to stop this feeling
that I never wanted to admit.
I know you, you know.
So it's no secret.

Please forgive me for my bomb of regrets.